SOJP and my friend Buster Few-Miffs

I have heard so many lies and accusations about this that it has been on my mind to speak, I was under the full force of the Jane Fisher-Tim Dakin-Bob Hill and Julie Wallman attack when SOJP pretended they wanted to investigate the churchwarden again and after the horrific way they have treated me and the respect with which they treated my abuser, I wrote this:

sojp abuse victim bashing scheme

*********** *******@gmail.com



09/10/2013

to d.mcgee


Dear Mr mcGee,


I believe you emailed me, I am not sure if you are even a real officer.


Your email was titled 'States of Jersey Police investigation' or similar.


As usual the police have completely ignored or overriden the fact that I have said not to contact me and that, if you are referring to *****, there is no inquiry.


You will be welcome to contact me about anything as soon as Dame Steel is withdrawn from harming me and as soon as it is published just what records of mine she and Philip Bailhache and others have been able to access illegally and despite me forbidding such access in Steels case. Especially as my records with your force are proven inaccurate and I have been brutalized by your officers repeatedly.


Until then, don't contact me, and remember, you know and I know that there isn't a just or fair judge in Jersey and that a reopening of the ***** case, as I presume that is what you are making contact about, would simply be an exercise in clearing him through a judicial system that offers no justice nor impartiality. There is no reason to drag me into this, and your force destroyed me for ***** and his friends, so your contact with me is traumatic and absolutely unnecessary.


I am allowed, if you try to force me to give evidence in your exercise in clearing an old boy, to produce a letter which says I am not fit to give evidence, which is the truth, I am deeply traumatized and this whole charade by dame steel and aggressive destroyal of me by the diocese of Winchester on top of what they have done previously, means that I am in a very distressed state and not fit to be dragged into court again as witness or as a scapegoat as I was previously.

Basically, why bring me into this at all? you can clear ***** for Bailhache and the rest without me being contacted or involved.

I never opened your email, I fished it out of spam, put it in the police complaint file and used the hover to get your email address.


The way the diocese have launched aggressively back into my life and used the police to harm me again is terrible, for me, the damage is done and some of it will never heal, but I have moved on and you and the diocese are dragging me back into this, even though Jane Fisher, who destroyed me used whine on and on and on about things being in the past to try to shut me up.

end: 

links:   http://www.opnlttr.com/letter/statement-world-about-what-really-happened-me-november-2013

Bob Hill puts his teeth back in and speaks up

He's still missing out a few facts but never mind.
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2015/05/jerseys-dean-all-quiet-on-winchester.html

Reblogging Bob's blog, seeing as he is shooting his mouth off about my case!

Tuesday, 19 May 2015

Jersey's Dean--All Quiet on the Winchester Front.

Jersey has just celebrated the 70^th anniversary of its Liberation from 5 years of Nazi Occupation. In many of the sermons espoused by our Island’s clergy at Services held celebrate the anniversary was the need for reconciliation. 

Unfortunately for some clergy it is easier to talk about the matter than practice it. The same can be said for honesty where not for the first time the Church of England has provided ample evidence of its “Do as I say and not as I do” approach to life.

As an example of its double standards I cite the Jersey Deans infamous handling of a complaint made by a vulnerable person whereby the promised outcome is still awaited.

Although the complaint was made 7 years ago the matter only came to light 2 years ago following a review by Jan Korris. This resulted in the Dean being suspended by Bishop Dakin who soon fell foul of the Dean’s supporters who claimed that because of the ancient practice of the Dean, on appointment, receiving Letters Patent from the Crown, the Bishop was acting outside his remit.

Although the matter is now two years old those appointed to address the matter have either acted as though it never occurred or have arrogantly abdicated their responsibility.

The Dean was hastily reinstated following his "apology" for “any” mistakes he “may” have made and promised to co-operate with any review that might ensue.

Two reviews were undertaken and their outcomes should have been made known at least 12 months ago. 

Two weeks ago in an attempt to seek an update I emailed Tim Dakin, the Bishop of Winchester with a request that the four issues below be addressed. Sadly, but not surprisingly I have not received a reply

This is a copy of the email dated May 4^th.

Dear Bishop Tim, 

It is now 2 years since you suspended and reinstated the Dean. It is also 2 years since you appointed Bishop Gladwin and Dame Heather Steel to review the Constitutional situation and the Dean’s handling of a complaint. To date no reports have been published.

It has been reported that a further review is to be undertaken in respect of the Constitutional issues. If that is the case please could you inform me what steps you are taking to publish Bishop Gladwin’s findings or are they to be incorporated into the new review?

Regarding Dame Heather's Report, you must be aware that there are a number of valid reasons why Dame Heather’s Report can never be published. Apart from the legal issues and Dame Heather’s flawed investigation, there is also the issue of the undertakings referred to in your letter to the former Bailiff last May and those submitted to Winchester Court last June.

My justification for claiming that Dame Heather’s investigation was flawed is because of her failure to interview the main witness, namely the complainant or review her arrest and deportation as recommended by Ms Korris in her Report. Concerns about Dame Heather’s conflict and unsuitability can be confirmed in the transcript of her 3 hour meeting with me in October 2013.

You will recall that before my meeting with Dame Heather it had been agreed that I would receive a copy of the transcript. After the meeting I was again promised a copy but despite numerous requests to you and Dame Heather the transcript has not been provided.

The Dean’s handling of the complaint has caused great distress to a number of people including the complainant, your self, the Dean and a large number of ordinary church goers who have seen their money wasted on flawed reviews and the ending of our 500 year association with Winchester.

The matter has dragged on and I believe it is incumbent on you as the instigator of the suspension, the Visitation, broken promises, distress, and the break from Winchester to come clean with the people you represent and make it known what you propose to do with the finding of the Gladwin Review and the Steel Report.

I know that sometimes it is difficult to accept that we are capable of making mistakes but the appointment of Dame Heather was a mistake as evidenced by the way she conducted her investigation and if her report was published it would cause even further distress. Therefore it should be shredded.

In summary I would be grateful if you would;

1 Update me on what you propose to do with the Gladwin findings. 

2 Confirm that you will not be publishing the Steel Report. 

3 Provide me with the copy of transcript of my meeting with Dame Heather. 

4 Advise me how much the Visitation has cost to date.

I would be grateful if you would acknowledge receipt of this email and assure me that my requests above will be addressed within the next two weeks. 

It is disappointing that the Bishop has ignored a simple request.  

It is not surprising that Bishop Gladwin has found the constitutional issues to be complex and that is probably why another review is to be undertaken, so why the silence?

The appointment of Dame Heather Steel was a mistake and for reasons above her Report should be shredded. I should also be given the promised transcript. So why continue to withhold it?

It has been reported that no disciplinary action is being taken against the Dean, however no reasons have been given nor whether the Dean has been exonerated.  

It could be said that as the Bishop had no powers to suspend the Dean then he has no power to discipline him. Leaving the matter open to speculation is unsatisfactory.

What is also unsatisfactory is that Bishop Dakin has claimed there are serious Safeguarding concerns in Jersey. Given my recent involvement with another safeguarding matter, I have no problem in endorsing Bishop Tim’s concerns. However what are those concerns and who is addressing them?

Given the time taken and of the personal involved the cost of conducting the reviews/investigations are likely to be in excess of the original estimate. The costs are not being met from the Bishop's pocket so why are they being withheld?

When I met a senior member of the clergy two years ago he described the Jersey situation as a mess. Two years on it can be said that not only does confusion reign supreme but the mess is now a much bigger and more expensive.

The issue will not go away and the longer there is a denial of the truth the more harm will be inflicted on the Church of England. It does little for its integrity when its Ministers espouse the virtues of reconciliation yet the Dean of Jersey and Bishop of Winchester cannot bury their differences. It also does little to inspire confidence when it cannot honour promised made.

Sadly I doubt whether anyone at Canterbury really cares, because if they did they would not permit the matter to fester. 

Letter calling for the resignation of Bishop Tim Dakin and Safeguarding Director Jane Fisher

This is a formal letter calling for the resignation of the Bishop of Winchester, Tim Dakin, and his Safeguarding Director, Jane Fisher.

The horrendous fiasco of the war between the Diocese of Winchester and Deanery of Jersey should have led to the Bishop's resignation in 2013, while Jane Fisher's actions for 7 years have been so serious that she also should have been removed a long time ago.

They are both currently responsible for the prolonged and untenable suffering of a vulnerable adult, who has made numerous formal complaints, but nothing has been done by the Archbishop, Clergy Discipline Panel, police or any other authority as yet.

The nature of the wrongdoing of these two people is described on my blog and on numerous other blogs, and is evident in the catastrophic mess made by the Bishop of Winchester in his actions since March 2013, leading to the Jersey Deanery being transferred to the Canterbury Diocese/oversight of the Bishop of Dover, and also in the continued use of a PR company by the Bishop. Use of a PR company in a matter like this, and by a Bishop, is inexcusable. if the church are there to be a 'Christian Presence in every Community' Then the money wasted on this matter should be being used to help the poor and vulnerable in the community, not to destroy one vulnerable adult and squabble in the public limelight. The Bishop of Winchester and his safeguarding director have been and are representing what Christianity isn't, and their biased and defamatory reports about me that exclude me in order to protect wrongdoers are a henious and barbaric act, they do not make any difference to safeguarding and they are doing the opposite of safeguarding.

Making me live in fear of this matter continually resurfacing with inaccurate press reports and slurs of me and squabbles and the danger of further defamatory reports is a serious misconduct, and the Bishop has not at any point attempted to stop the harm to me, the severity of the harm to me is serious, and presumably the Bishop who has never arranged for my side to have a hearing, feels enabled to allow my suffering continued because he believes the slurs on my character from Jane Fisher and the Jersey Deanery and associated wrongdoers, so he refuses to even respond to my concerns. This situation of me being silently destroyed has gone on for too long, it is inhumane and it is criminal and it is also very obvious from the recent comment by the Bishop's PR spokesman, that the Bishop is still happy to release the conflicted Steel report and have me further and irreparably destroyed.

After all the damage I have already suffered, and seeing no justice from conflicted reports, I think it is deeply wrong that over and over again I am made to suffer the pronouncements in the press and media about the Dean being cleared, he hasn't been cleared because he is innocent of wrongdoing, and by his own admission in the 'apology' he did things wrong, but he has been cleared because the Bishop of Winchester has no power in Jersey and did the most stupid and utterly unacceptable thing by launching the matter publicly in local and National press, suspending the Dean when he had no power to do so, and for some reason hadn't researched Jersey law or the situation of connections and dual roles in Jersey. So he was forced to re-instate the Dean and had no power to discipline, so instead, he has scapegoated me, again.

Instead of being honest and representing himself, the Bishop has wasted hundreds and thousands of pounds in destroying me and failing to even produce a safeguarding report, despite claims that this matter has been about Safeguarding.
The Korris report is a cover up for Jane Fisher, while the Steel report is conflicted by Steel's relationship with the Jersey Deanery. The Gladwin report is irrelevant as Gladwin is a Church of England Bishop and not independent. So basically, as well as these reports being compromised by their lack of independence and omission of my side of things, they further put the Diocese in the wrong because of their claims that these are independent. Added to that Korris was not suitably qualified to carry out the nature of report that she did, and it is messy, insulting and lacking in any chronology or clarity.

Another example of serious misconduct by the Bishop and Jane Fisher is that I made a formal complaint against Fisher in 2013 as I continued to be harmed by the Korris report and Jersey Deanery smear campaign, but the Bishop didn't deal with the complaint nor did he make sure it was dealt with, nor did he suspend Fisher, instead, he allowed her to make illegal arrangements with the NSPCC about me, which was ridiculous, a lie was told about the NSPCC housing me, when they are a Children's charity and do not house adults, I have had conversations with the NSPCC about this.

But the reason Fisher referred me to the NSPCC was because the Bishop wanted to do a press release, and he wanted to keep up a pretence of caring about me, despite him threatening me when I contacted him and Fisher, begging them not to keep violating me, which is what Fisher did for years solid with illegal interventions and intrusions, and yet here she was again, illegally referring me to the NSPCC without my consent.

How can the Bishop pretend to care when committing such deceit and at the same time as clearing wrongdoers, who have still done wrong, but he failed to conduct a proper investigation and acted illegally in defaming them and me in the press and online to a national audience anyway?

The Bishop's press release, after he had apparently tried to force the NSPCC referral on me, was terrible, because he claimed that they had been 'working hard across the Diocese to get me help', and yet they had had no consent to do any such thing! And further to that, the horrendous mess the Bishop had created, with me voiceless, excluded from reports and slandered by the Jersey Deanery had disrupted the help I had been receiving voluntarily, for which I had self-referred, as well as shattering my network of friends and support yet again, the Diocese having done that previously on having me imprisoned and left homeless and then again as they slandered me round my home town of Winchester.

The Bishop's press release claimed him to have been 'called to help the lost, last and least'. Which shows just how low the Church of England and Diocese of Winchester have now fallen. No-one, especially not a Bishop, should be foolish or arrogant enough to judge others as 'lost, last or least'. Especially not a Bishop and Safeguarding Director who have behaved as badly as those two have.

Those of you who are reading this need to seriously think about what happens to children and vulnerable adults who cannot write as I do, it is only luck and chance that I learned to write as I do, and thousands of vulnerable adults or survivors of childhood church abuse end up dead, imprisoned and mentally ill as a result of the Church of England's draconian and duplicious behaviour and press cover ups, along with their absolutely unacceptable pretences of care. No-one gets a good deal from the church if they are abused, and in my case, I am left to go on and on and on suffering, and it is now intolerable. If the Bishop cared enough to make an illegal referral to the NSPCC, then he can care enough to rectify the slurs that his 'clearing' of the Dean and others without me even having a hearing has done. If he doesn't, then the Church of England need to remove him and stop the fancy talk about caring about the vulnerable and safeguarding, because they are just empty words.

It doesn't matter what I am percieved to have done, Bishop Dakin and his Safeguarding Director have treated me in a way that no rapist or murderer is treated, they have deliberately exposed me to prolonged public shame and harm and why? Why was a permanent criminal record not enough for them? 

According to Korris and Steel, I am either 'Not Autistic, or 'Normal and just a troublemaker' and neither of them have the power or authority to make that diagnosis, the fact remains though, I was diagnosed by a world leading hospital, I am also assessed as suffering severe PTSD, so why, if the Bishop 'cares about safeguarding' Has he spent 2 years doing nothing about safeguarding and allowing me to be subjected to such severe harm? And why have copies of these reports never been sent to me pre-publication, for amendment?

And when will the Bishop explain to the general public about dual roles and conflicts in Jersey, for example my abuser's nephew being a prominent man and church elder in the Jersey Deanery and being involved in the Steel report, and the retiring Bailiff and Sir Philip Bailhache being in positions in the church and Jersey Deanery, and so much more that the conflicted reports and biased press releases are not telling the general public, so I am being harmed by these prominent and conflicted men advocating for the Dean. And don't forget to mention former magistrate/Jersey Home Affairs Minister Ian LeMarquand being a Jersey church Reader and friend of my abuser, who said it was a sad day when he was sacked from the position previous to the one that he abused me in.

Because both sides are not being heard, wrongdoing is being blatantly covered up, and I am being slurred and abused for reacting, with the conditions that I suffer, to repeated abuse and cover up, the most serious and psychologically harmful being the regression and abuse in Jersey, followed by shunning for reporting it, and police punishment of me for reporting it. The whole charade of the last few years is not a safeguarding investigation, it omits me, the victim, and shows no insight whatsoever into the cumulative harm of abuse on abuse and regression on a background like the one I came from. 

Therefore the threatened release of the Steel report is nothing more than an act of utter madness on the part of the Bishop of Winchester, and an act of unutterable cruelty, that he would still consider giving the victory of utterly destroying me to wrongdoers who have acted deceitfully and done such massive wrong.
Anyone who is reading this and does not know what I mean, please see Bob Hill's Jersey blog, his series of posts on 'Jersey's Dean', you may also want to see my blogs on this matter, especially my three letters of Warning to Bishop Dakin.

As most of you know, I could keep writing, and as most of you also know, the subjects of this matter are exhaustive and are much explained on my blog and Bob's blog, and the other Jersey blogs linked to mine. So I will cease writing and repeat my call for Tim Dakin and Jane Fisher to resign. They have used approximately a million pounds to no aim whatsoever, and appear to feel that they can sacrifice my life to make this justifiable, despite knowing that the extra international defamation from the Steel report will kill me, I am broken and living in fear.
The money they have used has caused division, anger, hurt, discord, division, serious harm to a vulnerable adult, deceit, duplicity, misleading of the general public, and most of all, they have almost deliberately ensured that other abuse survivors will not come forward if they are abused 'Thus shall be done to the person who dares to speak out'.

As a result of all this limitless, exhaustive damage, I am calling for Tim Dakin and Jane Fisher to resign.
I call on the Archbishop, the clergy discipline panel, 10 Downing Street, Her Majesty the Queen, the Home Secretary, and all other church officials, to ensure that Tim Dakin is removed - do your usual 'moving him to other things', and Jane Fisher is an abuser and a danger to the vulnerable, and no cover ups will change that, so she must also go.

Thank you for reading this, it is a formal call for two very seriously compromised people to leave their positions where they have caused and are causing, very very grave and serious harm, and Tim Dakin's reports and investigations must go with him, not be released, as I will still continue court action against him if he continues to harm me, his reports are nothing to do with safeguarding or what happened, so they are not relevant.

sincerely,

HG

HG and the CofE

Why church and government investigations into abuse are not adequate

There, you have missed me seriously blogging, haven't you?
I am just going to copy what I absently scribbled on my notepad this morning.

People in Government or the Church of England who investigate abuse are usually well off, comfortable, stable and always have been, as were there parents and as are their children.

They cannot and usually don't try to, see things from the perspective of a poor, vulnerable dependent child or adult. They have not lived through it and so cannot understand it.

Imagine Lady Butler-Sloss for example. She has had a good life, she likes the Church of England, she acts for them, she told a victim that she 'didn't want to give the press a Bishop' ie, the Bishop may have abused, but his status was more important than the Victim's story being heard.

Any effective inquiry really needs at least one survivor who is healed to the point where their memories or flashbacks wont affect them partaking in investigations. Any inquiry needs someone who has been through it and understands what survivors are going through.

And, of course, for an inquiry to be independent, it needs outside members of inquiry. On a personal Note, the Korris report claims to be independent when Korris was someone who carried out Church contracts and included Lady Butler-Sloss's advice, as well as the Church of England's head of Safeguarding, Elizabeth Hall, in her inquiry, hardly independent, Lady 'Dont-give-the-press-aBishop and Jane Fisher's friend and colleague Elizabeth Hall who has refused a formal complaint against Jane Fisher, also the Korris report was comiled from selected notes and emails by Jane Fisher, who is known to write emails for 'show'  and 'evidence'.
So how was the Korris report independent? It wasn't.

John Gladwin, a retired Church of England Bishop, is not independent, nor is Heather Steel, Philip Bailhahce's colleague, Lady Butler-Sloss's colleague.

So far all church report omit my views, even though the Diocese were sent my amendments to the Korris report.

And as for government Investigations, they elected Lady Butler-Sloss, who didn't want to give the press a Bishop, and who's brother was involved in preventing full and proper inquiries into CSA.

The only proper, thorough and genuine inquiries are going to be independent and include survivors. Internal investigations, even those that claim wrongly to be independent, risk protecting wrongdoers, as the church reports into my case do.

THIS IS FROM SIMON DANCZUK'S RECENT TELEGRAPH ARTICLE, IT ILLUSTRATES JUST HOW LITTLE UNDERSTANDING AUTHORITIES HAVE OF ABUSE SURVIVORS AND THE PROBLEMS THEY HAVE:

Think of the 1,400 children abused in Rotherham. They were beaten, had guns pointed at their heads, were routinely gang raped, had petrol poured over them and were threatened with being set alight. What do you think happens to these kids?

They don’t tend to end up in nice jobs, washing their cars in the suburban sunshine on a Sunday morning. They grow up angry, resentful and lost to society. The Prime Minister talks about sending in welfare squads to tackle “problem families”, but what about the lost generation that’s being created now by allowing children to be abused on an industrial level?

I’ve sat before these people and listened to their stories. I remember every one. Some have managed to turn their lives around, and these stories are inspirational. But, for most, the burden of abuse is too heavy to bear. Kids who walk through the fire of extreme abuse make very different choices to the rest of us. They end up joining the Foreign Legion, committing violent crimes, taking drugs or sleeping on the streets. When I looked at the criminal record of one victim and asked why he couldn’t stay on the straight and narrow, he told me it was safer in prison.

For most, they struggle to make relationships and the human cost is massive. “I don’t have friends, I prefer to be on my own because I don’t trust people,” one sexually abused man told me. He’d made a living over the past 20 years working with the travelling community on the margins of society. These were the only people who didn’t judge him, he said.

But talking to bosses in children’s services and the multitude of highly paid professionals running our protective agencies, you’ll never get any real understanding of the depth or complexity of the people they’re dealing with. It’s become a cold science where the hard work of gaining trust, taking a human approach and supporting people has been replaced with a detached, long-lens view. And it’s not just management that has this view. At one point last year, I made a complaint on behalf of one of the Rochdale grooming victims as a social worker kept appearing outside her house, peering through the window. Is that the “help” a survivor of sexual abuse needs?

Bob's Dame Steel Blog, repost from last year

Although Bob Hill's blogs about my case re-traumatize me, they also show something, and the other bloggers have done this too.
They show that I am not alone with what happened to me, not suffering silently at the hands of the Diocese of Winchester as I was when Jane Fisher was violating my life over and over and over and getting me a police record for standing up to her, crying out in pain and fighting back.
I am slightly less of a punchbag for the Diocese of Winchester as a result.
I am truly grateful to the Jersey bloggers for that.

Anyone reading this who is not already aware, I do not have a complaint against the Jersey Deanery, my complaints are as follows: Jane Fisher is a danger to vulnerable adults and children, she destroyed me and is still in her role and unreprimanded, I want her removed.
The Diocese of Winchester and their clergy and churches are exclusive and damaging to the poor, the vulnerable and the isolated, there is no safeguarding and the cliques and treading on the poor is not Christian.
The Bishops of Winchester and their Diocese and their use of the police and Dame Steel have harmed me.

Here is Bob's Heather Steel Blog, and what is the point of having an Oligarch who is conflicted, investigating a pauper's case?

http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/jerseys-dean-dame-heather-saint-or.html

posted last year, Conflicted reports

The silence from John Gladwin and Christine Daley tells me that the investigation was only ever a show, a public pretence of justice, which included no justice at all, this is a new ploy by the church of england to silence abuse victims, the church makes a big big show about abuse and apology and does nothing.
This is what the Chichester victims have experienced and also others.
It makes the church look good, deludes people with small brains that the church of england is making itself accountable, and all is cosy and rosy, except for the victims, who, like me, have no voice.

John Gladwin never made any effort to make contact with me, Bob Hill forced his hand, and at first John Gladwin went on about London and Jersey and made no effort to answer Bob's questions about meeting, Bob persisted until John Gladwin agreed.
Christine Daley was at the meeting, and she was basically the person who gave me hope that there might be something worthwhile about the enquiry, but that didn't last long.

Christine was very genuine and spoke with great clarity so I could understand her very clearly, she was nice, helpful and genuine. She had very obvious understanding of the autistic spectrum and mental health and she spoke in pictures, which I find very helpful.

But the meeting was a token one, and nothing followed, not even the minutes which Bob requested. There was no way that I could tell John and Christine everything in a few hours, especially not as Bob Hill, rightly or wrongly, said I might have to tell what happened to me previously in the Winchester diocese before Jersey because Bailhache, Ashenden and the rest were using it in their hate campaign against me, again one-sided.
(I feel completely damned by that hate campaign and they appear to have achieved their aim in invalidating me, as well as leaving me feeling helpless, damned and traumatized).

The real enquiry was then hijacked by a collegue of Philip Bailhache, who is the most powerful man in Jersey and also the man mentioned in my previous post as having led a hate campaign against me in defence of the Dean who damaged me.
This colleague of Philip Bailhache was also close to other people who harmed me, including magistrate Richard Falle, and yet the diocese of Winchester and John Gladwin allowed the enquiry to be hijacked, John Gladwin refused to answer any correspondence from me or from Bob Hill after that and Christine Daley claimed Dame Heather Steel's enquiry was nothing to do with her and John's enquiry, well who and what is Dame Steel's enquiry to do with, then? Nothing has been explained to me at all, especially not by the Diocese or the Gladwin/Daley team. And yet this whole enquiry is claimed to be to do with me and to do with vulnerable people!!!!!!!!!!!
And yet, all they have done is damage me, refuse to communicate, allow a conflicted enquiry!

And no doubt my cries of protest are treated as insanity, again.

The lack of response is basically a foreshadowing of the result of any of these enquiries, and the enquiries do not even cover my complaint, which is against the diocese of Winchester and Jane Fisher, the dangerous loose cannon safeguarding officer, who thinks she's great, but she destroyed me, so I don't agree with her about her being great.

With regards to Dame Heather Steel, apparently she approached the diocese and 'offered her assistance', as a close colleague of Bailhache and others, she may well have conferred with them and the Dean and offered to prevent my complaint for them by doing this and thus preventing John Gladwin or someone else from carrying out a genuine impartial enquiry, though how an enquiry where the church of England is investigating itself  can be truly impartial I do not know.

Lets look at how this enquiry is structured, as far as I know:

John Gladwin, church of England Bishop, investigating the church of England - impartial? gathering by his silence and unwillingness to engage not just with me, but with Bob, who is reasonable, judging by the way Bob had to force an interview, John Gladwin isn't going to conduct a fair enquiry, he has his comission, he has probably been given an outcome to conclude at the start, just as the Korris report was done without my views and was coloured by Jane Fisher who I have a complaint against.

Christine Daley or Daly, a social/mental health worker, I do agree to her involvement, the church of england would have been stupid not to have someone like her, but why has she refused to even send the minutes of the meeting, why has she tried to force irrelevant help on me and why is she standing by and allowing me to go on being hurt?

Archdeacon Norman Russell, I do not know this guy, but he is reputed to be respected in the church of england, whether that is a good thing or not.
I do not know his part in this, well no-one has explained anything of this enquiry to me, but I can't make a judgement about him because I do not know. He is part of the archbishop's elite, but he is also probably a colleague of Tim Dakin, from when Tim was part of that clique, and does that make him impartial? And who else was he friends with that might make him conflicted? The same with John Gladwin, the church of england should not be investigating themselves, as someone pointed out. The diocese of Winchester boasting and glorifying themselves love to call it an independently led investigation, but it is not, where is a leader who is not part of the church of england or not conflicted?

Dame Steel: The day Dame Steel's enquiry was announced, I was suicidal because of the impact of the Korris report and hate campaign, Bob Hill emailed me and titled the email 'charade' and broke the news that the enquiry had been hijacked by Philip Bailhache's close colleague who he had once asked to give a speech at one of his meetings, this colleague was Dame Heather Steel.
Dame Steel had apparently 'approached' the Diocese of Winchester and was allowed to simply take over the enquiry. rather than let John Gladwin do a proper enquiry like the one at Chichester.
Obviously no-one in Jersey wants a genuine enquiry, the way they have behaved about it is pretty terrible, but then they found the solution, Dame Steel can trash it for them.

And as well as not bothering to check about the enquiry being conflicted, Tim Dakin refused complaints about it being conflicted and allowed it to proceed.
Already deeply damaged by the Korris report and the hate campaign and the threats from Dakin, I was basically defeated.
How anyone thinks that this is about me or my complaints or justice, I do not know.

I was not made aware of Dame Steel's role, in fact the diocese deliberately witheld that information until Steel began her enquiry, and then it was very vage and open to misinterpretation, I certainly still do not understand.

Steel is officially given permission by Tim Dakin to invite anyone she like to help her in the enquiry, anyone, including my abuser, his brother, Philip Bailhache, Richard falle, Bruce Willis, or anyone else who has harmed me, that part of her terms of reference is clear, and yet John Gladwin, Tim Dakin and all others, are standing by and letting this happen.

Dame Steel made no attempt to contact me, but she and Tim Dakin's advocate who he has appointed in Jersey, Chris Schoelfield of Viberts solicitors, made an illegal and incongruent attempt to access my court papers from advocate Clare Nicholl, they did not contact me first, ask my permission or consider the harm to me of contacting the advocate who stood by and let the diocese of Winchester destroy me in 2010.

I objected with great anger, the diocese and their hurts to me when they should not have even been able to launch on me again and damage me after everything they had done, was already way too much for me.

I told advocate Schoelfield what I thought of this violation of my privacy and rights and forbade Clare Nicholl from passing any paperwork to Steel and Schoelfield with great anger.
I was disgusted at Nicholl, her pretence at friendliness and asking how I was, how am I since you destroyed me and left me on the streets?!

But Steel had nothing to say to me, treating me with the same contemptuous silence that John Gladwin had originally.

The Bishop of Winchester was apparently allowed to 'appoint a police officer' from Jersey police to assist Dame Steel, but judging by the silence, I am not allowed to appoint a police officer to protect me from the Diocese of Winchester and Dame Steel.

Again, this appointment of a police officer was a conflict of interests, and again Dakin ignored this, I forbade Steel and this officer to access my police records, because for a start my records are proven inaccurate and what is the point of a conflicted enquiry seizing on damagingly inaccurate records and damaging me further?!

But again, this conflict of interests continued, with an officer who neither knew me nor the case apparently allowing Philip Bailhache's colleague to access my records despite my email of complaint to the police, which I will post on this blog if and when Dame Steel launches her attack on me and defense of the wrongdoers.

The Diocese of Winchester, John and Christine, Dame Steel and all others, have made no attempt at all to explain anything or allay my fears, they have left me suffering, so does anyone think that this enquiry is about my complaints or for my benefit?

So, would Dame Steel have contacted me or asked for my side of things if the church in jersey hadn't posted a massive advert in the JEP advertising Dame Steel as representing them? I doubt it.
I didn't have Any contact details for Dame Steel and no attempt had been made to contact me for her enquiry until the church in Jersey, the 'laity' of the church of England, which includes Bruce Willis, Philip Bailhache, Ian LeMarquand and others, posted a huge advert that listed Dame Steel as their contact for a complaint against Tim Dakin, I agree Tim Dakin has handled this appallingly and has treated me like dirt on his shoe, but what I cannot understand is, if he is paying Steel to investigate the clergy in Jersey, why is she working on behalf of the Jersey church and advertised as such by the Jersey church who give her contact details to anyone wanting to make a complaint against Tim Dakin?!

So Bob Hill enquired to Dame Steel about this and got no reply to this or a number of subsequent queries.

I also used the information kindly provided by the Jersey churches to contact Dame Steel, I got a cold reply where she calls me Ms..... or Miss.... I have no doubt that she does not speak to her colleagues and friends in Jersey in this manner, in one sense I was just testing to see if the Jersey church really did have her contact details and if they really were using her to represent them.
The cold reply told me that yes, it was true.

Steel made a token offer to interview me in London, but made no attempt to explain how I was to get there or if I could stay somewhere, but since it was very obvious that she was working for the Jersey churches, I told her she must be joking, so basically she has simply proceeded full steam ahead to ruin me for the church in Jersey, and no-one who I have contacted has done anything to prevent this or remove her and bring in an impartial enquiry.
I asked the Diocese for a neutral interviewer because of Steel's attitude and attempt to view my records without contacting me or introducing herself first, the records she tried to view were to do with court and deportation, which she told Bob Hill she was not investigating.

tbc.

Written last year, still in the same anguish as now

Written Last Year 2013:

In march this year, my world was shattered.
The Church of England had me traced by the police.

The Same Church of England who destroyed me through the police.

The Diocese of Winchester, in who's care I had been abused, belittled, downtrodden and ruined, the Diocese who gave me a criminal record, and yet who are there and in their well-paid positions because they claim to be Christians.

There is nothing Christian in the damage done to me in and by the Diocese of Winchester, from beginning to end.

And especially, there is nothing Christian in what they have made me suffer since March.

Here is a description of the impact of the Diocese's unethical and wrong tracing of me, done with no explanation to me, and done because they were under pressure from people who read the inaccurate Korris report, which omitted my views and covers the back of the real wrongdoer, safeguarding officer Jane Fisher.

How can a report have been comissioned and influenced by one of the people I had a complaint against? How can that person's wrongdoing be omitted to the extent of cover up, and that person be protected rather than  being suspended and being made to apologize?
Why has Jane Fisher been able to be so dishonest and protect her own back? She who still works with vulnerable people after destroying me?

Below is the statement I wrote for the diocese in anger and distress after their invasion of my life  this year, I have edited this slightly and it was written months ago and so is about how things were then:

It was in March 2013 that things went wrong. I didn’t consciously know that anything had happened at first, but subconsciously maybe I did, but at the time I attributed the increasingly strong nightmares about Jane Fisher, Bob Key, Jersey and the police to the fact I was trying to learn to live indoors. My sleep went down to a few hours a night and I was in such emotional distress during the days that it was difficult to function normally.

Even though for some odd reason, I was getting emails from people in Jersey and people from the past I didn’t think, even when an email said ‘have you heard the news’, these people were from my distressing past and as far as I was concerned they had no news for me. So I left their emails unopened as I was under enough stress from trying to teach myself to be a house dweller again, and I felt deeply vulnerable as a registered house dweller even under my new identity I was in fear of Jane Fisher and the police - this fear very logically being caused by Jane Fisher and the Bishop repeatedly coming after me with the police when I responded to their negative interventions in my life.

Within a few weeks I had realised that I could not live indoors. I could only afford cheap lodgings which I paid for from my welfare benefits as I knew that the struggle to explain myself to Housing Benefit would be too much and I was always in danger of abandoning the tenancy or being traced by the diocese anyway, especially as I could not get the right support to help me to learn to be a house dweller. I also could not really afford to pay my own rent, low as it was.
My main barrier to housedwelling is the flashbacks, distress, terrors, bad memories and despair because of Jane Fisher and Bishop Scott-Joynt and the Dean of Jersey and their police interventions against me in response to my protests at their refusal to deal with my complaint and their bad handling (to put it mildly) of my complaint.

The cheap lodgings was in a lodging house and I was the only female there, still suffering PTSD and quite frightened by some of the behaviour of the men in the house and feeling a bit intimidated. So I was longing to return to the streets, especially as the memories and distresses of Jersey were coming back to me too strongly, and at the time I thought it was simply from being indoors, and maybe it was. 

Before I left the house I managed to get very ill, the hygiene in the house was bad and a drug addict who had been very ill for months had just moved out and the guy who took the vacant room became just as sick and was taken to hospital, and then I got sick too.
I moved out while I was ill and back homeless I went through one of the worst bouts of illness that I ever remember. Whooping cough and pneumonia.

I was afraid to see a doctor because I have been treated really badly in the years since Jersey because Jane Fisher and the former Bishop really wanted me to be insane and locked up and I was also not willing to see a doctor in case I was traced. Even though all attempts to certify me insane failed because sadly I am not. PTSD and autism are not madness and cannot be treated as such.

In the end I went to a hospital and they said I was ok, recovering, I had been so very ill and it was a relief to know they thought I was ok. They would have admitted me if I had gone when I was really ill, and I could not allow that, I could not be captive somewhere and have the police turn up, I remain living in fear in that way.

I still didn’t know what had happened with the diocese but I had returned to sleeping rough and it felt amazing! Yeah! Lying there looking at the stars as I fell asleep I was at peace. 
The time between evening and morning is when I am happiest, the diocese of Winchester destroyed me but they gave me the gift of a sky full of stars and so few people get to enjoy such a gift any more, so I really appreciate it.
I love the evenings when I walk quietly alone with my headphones in and my music on, I love to lie down in my blankets and gaze at the sky and I love to get up in the quiet early morning and walk the quiet roads and stop and gaze, this is heaven to me and I am now in fear that that diocese intend to rip this from me.

Anyway, then I got an email from the policeman who had traced me and I was deeply shocked. I only read the first lines and couldn’t believe what I was hearing.
Firstly my new identity was shattered and I was once again open and vulnerable to police and diocese cruelty and attacks and slander.

All I read of the police email was that they had traced me and this policeman called me ‘Ms’ and my new name in capitals as if he was jeering. And then that ‘the diocese wished to support me through local church groups’ and something about the historic abuse case in Jersey. What historic abuse case? I was furious, why, after the way Jane Fisher and Bishop Scott-Joynt repeatedly drove me from help by slandering me and ommitting either that I was disabled or that I had been abused, were they talking about local church groups???

Firstly there are no local church groups that help abuse victims, none, churches shun abuse victims and safeguard against them, secondly I am not in that area or diocese, thirdly I have no intention of belonging anywhere where Jane Fisher and the diocese of Winchester can humiliate me or involve themselves with their side of things as Jane Fisher and Bishop Scott-Joynt did before. Basically after what has happened, this being traced and violated and humiliated for the sake of fictional help was ludicrous! If the diocese had anything to say to me which was in MY interests and not just them covering their backs, they would have emailed me themselves as they have my email addresses and were more than capable of doing this without deliberately degrading me with further police action that I had not merited.

I was in shock when I got this email and it was Maundy Thursday and there was nowhere to go for help.
I walked up to one of the churches and there was a church man there, he recognized me and happily started telling me about bedding plants for the church garden and then realized I was crying and shaking. He phoned his wife and got the number of a church person who I talk to and she came to the church and held my hand. I did not understand why the diocese had set the police on me and shattered my privacy and left me open to the horrific continuation of the cycle of being violated by Jane Fisher and Scott-Joynt and then being attacked by the police for answering and asking for justice and restoration, all I knew was that the police had come after me for the diocese.
So the church lady held my hand and comforted me and she said no-one in her church had betrayed me to the diocese and the police as far as she knew, because I have the horror that someone has indeed betrayed me and left me damaged by this, because the police got my details somewhere and somewhere I will be shamed and embarrassed when I go to see old friends. And also I was repeatedly betrayed by churches because of behind-my-back-intervention by the Diocese of Winchester before I escaped from them two years ago.

Anyway, then the minister arrived and was told I had had a shock and he came and sat with me and talked gently. Then I helped him to prepare for the Holy Communion Service, and that took my mind off things.
I still had no knowledge of the full situation, and in truth I still don’t.

Easter was hell because of being traced by the police, there was nowhere to go and no-one to turn to, which is the usual in the Christmas and Easter holidays but worse because of the police. The Easter Sunday service was lovely but because of the fact I was no longer hidden and safe from Jane Fisher and the police after two years, I felt unsafe in church and I remembered Vicar Tim at Romsey Abbey coming and shouting at me and saying he had been speaking to Jane Fisher about me, and all the cold accusatory one-sided things he repeated from Jane Fisher before I ran off crying in the night and went to a police station but was too scared of being beaten and locked up to tell them to make Jane Fisher go away. I did not want the old priest at this church to do the same accusatory shouting and telling me how bad I was.
Because, after a very very long time of deep fear and wariness, I have learned to love again, and I love my church/es, because they have showed me that church and Christianity is not the way the Diocese of Winchester and the Deanery of Jersey portray it in abuse and arroagance and boastfulness and wealth and  treading on the poor and disabled and isolated and I have just started to believe my churches, and to see with Joy that Christianity is real.

When the holidays thankfully finished, I was in the library and still being badgered by emails about Jersey and the Diocese so when I was signing into my emails I looked at the news stories and found the story.
Something about Jersey and the Archbishop and Bishop apologizing and the Dean being suspended.
Again I stumbled outside crying.
I am as raw as if I have no skin and I cannot cope with much stress at all.

I went back up to the church and thankfully my friend from last time was actually there, she came to sit with me and held my hand again as I blurted out something about the news saying the Bishop apologized, my friend said I should be turning cartwheels and wasn’t I happy?
No, I was traumatized by all of it, all of it in the papers and all of the past being dragged up and the police, I didn’t know anything about this report that I was being badgered about by email. I felt vulnerable and frightened because I was traced by the police, I felt shocked and depressed, because despite the flashbacks and the unhealed wounds, I had tried to leave this in the past as Jane Fisher was always coldly telling me to leave what had happened to me in the past because my pain was of no relevance and I was not valid.
Jane Fisher never actually explained what she was trying to force me to leave in the past, but Jane Fisher rarely saw fit to explain anything, her aim was only to force me and the situation to be what she wanted. So me, and my pain, were invalidated by her aims and needs.

So no, no cartwheels, just shock, there is nothing that will make me hopeful or joyful any more, the pain has been too deep for too long, I like my walks in the dark and in the early morning and I like lying on the ground and watching the stars as I fall asleep but I do not feel joy at the church of england suddenly, too late, forcing upon me something that is to do with their politics rather than my welfare and doing it very publicly and having me intimidated and distressed by the police for their own ends at the same time.

So, I was in crisis and still trying to shake off the illness that tends to come back just when I think it has gone.  I had to ask those offering me pastoral care to stop as it was upsetting me too much, these were church people, and until I had an assurance from the diocese of Winchester that they are going to leave me alone, I did not feel safe or able to let anyone help me (in reality I am still living in fear), and while I am in fear of a police attack I feel almost unable to even see the psychologist, after all, if you are going to be beaten and locked in then there is no point in paying for psychology because it cannot undo that.

I continued to try and maintain the rest of my routine while no longer attending church or having help. It is hard to keep a routine when you are depressed and homeless but thankfully what I was taught by MIND about keeping myself going during crisis is helping a lot.
(MIND is a source of help I refer myself to when I need them, they have helped me since I referred myself when I was a young adult before my Asperger Syndrome or autism was officially recognized). 

Anyway, I continued to hear about Jersey, bit by bit, and continued to fight the distress and memories brought back to me.
I was told by email that the Dean will simply be reinstated because all the Bishop has done is cause a constitutional crisis in Jersey, and I myself was surprised that the Bishop even suspended the Dean, because I was told by the Dean himself and some of his clergy in Jersey while I was there that the Bishop could do nothing to him and nothing to them so they could effectively do as they pleased and I would not be listened to.

What horrified me was the complete lack of response from the Archbishop or Wolvsley when I frantically tried to contact them, which cemented the fact that this whole farce was in fact nothing to do with me but to do with something political that I did not know about, this didn’t surprise me as the church of England are unmotivated and unmoved by abuse victims and their ‘safeguarding’ policy simply ensures that disabled people and vulnerable people are excluded, isolated, shunned and unable to make friends, because no-one is allowed to be alone with them or take them home or take them out, the church of England treats us as profane, as lesser beings, by keeping this policy behind the backs of vulnerable people. 

And so why would they be apologizing to me, especially as they launched a police attack at the same time! But Wolvsley have nothing to say, neither does the Archbishop.
I have made a complaint about being traced but that complaint is about the policeman, the diocese of Winchester remain untouchable and a constant threat to me and I despair because it seems that I would have to seek asylum abroad to escape them, and I am tired, I do not want to go unless I have to, but the dread silence and the danger of police attacks and the confusion remains.

Jersey is obviously the same, the internet is full of articles and blogs, and in true Jersey style some of the information is very vicious, some in support of the Dean and some not, some blatantly attacking him and some blatantly attacking me.
The thing is, the Diocese of Winchester may be under some illusion that my identity and the identities of other parties is concealed, but believe me, those few Jerseypeople who did not already know about this, do now and most people do know all the names of those involved, especially since a very blatant breach of confidences occurred.

There are some very good Jersey blogs, which are providing real information on what has been happening, countering that awful Korris report and the very very nasty slander against me by clergy and supporters in the Jersey Deanery, these blogs include Bob Hill’s Jersey Blog, Rico Sorda’s blog, Voiceforchildren’s blog, Tony’s musings, Stuart Syvret’s blog and more.

But there are snippets of this awful ‘independent safeguarding report‘ the Korris Report, the one that was done without my input and lets the whole world know how successfully the Dean and the Bishop and Jane Fisher punished me for speaking up and had me thrown in prison and ‘deported’ and left homeless in the UK with Jane Fisher still hanging onto my jugular until she pulled me down to the point of no hope, no healing, nothing left etc. Or does it omit that? I had a breakdown from trying to read the Korris Report, it is so awful and so inaccurate and cover’s Jane Fisher’s wrongdoing so well that it caused me to collapse. I have never finished reading it and it is so very damaging and wrong that I do not know why it was allowed to be published. I have expressed this opinion to Jan Korris but she is not bothered, as long as she gets her comission she isn’t too worried that she has had internationally published a gravely damaging report about an already suffering abuse survivor. Hopefully the collective complaints about it means she wont do it again, but I doubt that she cares.


Anyway, everyone has an opinion and in Jersey they fight about it like little boys, because Jersey is a small place and has that mentality, everyone knows someone and everyone has a bias, it makes it a bad place to live if you report someone for abuse and they have connections. The thing with the diocese is that they are not there and do not know who is who, who has what bias and why, but Jersey is another country and another country that used to be occupied by the Germans and has never lost that mentality. And at the moment they are not too pleased with England invading against one of their politicians, which is what the Dean is first and foremost, he certainly isn’t a Christian.

But anyway, I gather that Wolvsley tried to do a Jane Fisher and tell me that this isn’t affecting me! Are you crazy? You rake up the past and humiliate me publicly, even if only in Jersey and in your online report and you set the police after me and you think I am not affected?! I am not strong enough for much stress and believe me some of the opinions of people known and unknown in Jersey right now do affect me! They make me want to curl up and die.

This is my situation right now. The diocese refuse to confirm to me that as far as I am concerned the matter is closed. So I am in limbo, I am living in fear with my life paused, I am afraid of police attacks, I am distressed by what has happened and how I am publicly flogged, I am terrified that my quiet walks with my music and my sleeps in my cheerful blanket will be taken off me and I will be locked in for incomprehensible reasons and my freedom and life will be gone and ‘help’ will be forced on me.

Life is in limbo, there is a so-called investigation, but the Bishop reinstated the Dean and said he had acted in good faith, now the Bishop hides behind a PR company and refuses to communicate, while half the so-called investigation he has instigated is a conflict of interests, but he refuses to withdraw it or comment.

Imagine

imagine if I had been seriously mentally ill...

or completely voiceless...

less able to challenge the people running cover-ups that they call inquiries...

Would I have survived all this?...

No...

I have barely survived it,

and may die as a result of it yet...

so, is church of england safeguarding adequate?...

NO.

Formal letter to Jersey's safeguarding chair 29/06/2014

06/08/2015 
Dear mrs Johnstone, nice to see you reading this letter but why? Did something prompt you to view it? Now scrap your whitewash and stop harassing me.

 Dear Mrs Johnston,

This is a formal cease and desist warning letter against your harassment of me through the Jersey authorities.

As soon as I am defamed by your publishing of any report done for the Jersey Authorities who have destroyed me, you will be served with a summons to appear in court.

I state that I have not at any point authorized or agreed to an inquiry into how I was treated in Jersey by you or your 'safeguarding board' and the inquiry was initiated by conflicted government members in Jersey and is thus invalidated.

I did not and have not authorized you or your board to access any records on my case, especially not police, social services, charity or medical records, and if you have done so, you have done so illegally.

You did not inform me of your investigation at the start, I was informed in a roundabout way by Jersey's only true and truthful media, the Jersey bloggers, and you still didn't contact me. A year has gone by, and in February this year it was stated in the States of Jersey as a result of Mike Higgins badgering you, that your report was nearly complete and you were attempting to make contact with me.

This was ludicrous as you were doing nothing of the sort, it was widely known that Bob Hill was representing me, and you made no attempt to contact him, I emailed Jersey Safeguarding twice and got no response, no attempt was made to contact me.

Suddenly, on Friday lunchtime on Friday 27th June, right at the end of the working week, I received an email, to this address, and where did you get this address from? You emailed me, starting your email with 'Ms' ******

 firstly there is no such person, and secondly I have NEVER in any capacity referred to myself as Ms, so why should anyone else? Start by insulting me when contacting me about a whitewash report that is already completed.

You have completed a report, without any permission from me to proceed with a report, without any permission from me to access any records, you have completed a report on material illegally provided by people who have done wrong and covered up, you have completed a report without my consent or knowledge and without permission, that constitutes a breach of my human rights, and as you are based in the UK, I am able to raise this matter, as part of the bigger picture, with the European Court of Human Rights, as well as bringing a case against you in the UK.

You have basically acted purely on the behalf of authorities in Jersey who have behaved terribly and have been proven to keep inaccurate records on my case, you have caused me distress, dispair and anguish, you are thus not acting in a safeguarding capacity, and never have been, you are purely acting on behalf of a government who have not learned anything from their cover up of the Children's home abuse and have created your safeguarding board merely as a showcase, and while you have produced a report that omits me, the same as the DIocese of Winchester's reports omit me, you are safeguarding no-one except the wrongdoers in Jersey's authorities.

Who comissioned this report you are doing against me? And for what purpose? I gather the Chief Minister did, for the Diocese of Winchester who have destroyed me, the chief minister has allowed, without any attempt at restraint, one of his ministers, Philip Bailhache, to run a public smear campaign against me and abuse his office to do so, the chief minister has responded to this dreadful unethical and completely unprofessional behaviour by promoting Philip Bailhache to the position of external affairs minister, and turned his back against calls that Philip Bailhahce breached the data protection act over my case.

So, this report is for whom and for what purpose? For a Chief Minister who has already condoned public defamation of me by one of his ministers and promoted that said minister without making him accountable or facing disciplinary action. 

Please see the following links regarding the government minister in question, please copy and paste if the link doesn't come up:

http://ricosorda.blogspot.co.uk/2013/03/sir-philip-bailhache-data-protection.html

http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/07/jerseys-dean-another-meaningless-apology.html

This is the same government Minister who did not and does not want the independent care inquiry by Frances Oldham and her team and has repeatedly undermined and insulted abuse victims in Jersey. His liberation day speech in 2008 was described to me by one survivor as 'a knife through her heart' as he described how the 'biggest damage' was that to Jersey's reputation.

Thus I and other survivors see any mishandled reports such as yours that is finished without my views, as a whitewash done to protect Jersey's reputation, being such a powerful financial centre, it appears that this means reputation comes first, although the dirt from Jersey is becoming less and less containable and increasingly the word about what is really going on in Jersey, is spreading to the wider world.

I see your finished report that omits me and has illegally accessed my records as part of the whitewashes that are starting to be seen through. I do not see you contacting me at the last minute, on completion of this illegal report as anything other than harmful and a pretence of including me. Safeguarding should never be a process or organization that causes the distress, helplessness and fear that you have and are causing me by the production of your report, and thus, as chair of this report, I am holding you personally responsible and have every intention of taking you to court in the UK as well as including you in the ECHR case.

I will counter any defamatory reports by you that have been created without my permission and input by informing local and national press of my views and of the harm being done to me, and ensuring that any and every system of action against you is instigated and upheld.

Eventually Jersey will not hide behind sham investigations and cover ups, and eventually a few powerful people who are currently beyond the reach of the law because of their status, will be called to account, I will play a part in that, in life or death, and I will bring a case against you in the meantime if your actions in doing a report against me to cover for wrongdoers, does not stop.

No inquiry carried out within Jersey is independent, the example of Senator Gorst supposedly launching this inquiry while condoning sentaor Bailhache's behaviour and promoting him is an example, and the wonderful illusion of you being outside of Jersey and thus independent fails at the point where you have ignored the conflicted ministerial situation and also proceeded with this report without my consent or knowledge, without my consent for access to any records and have completed the report without my views and have contacted me in an impolite manner at the end, as a token. The Jersey Way lives, thrives and blossoms with your illusion of independence. You being outside of Jersey does not seem to have made your inquiry independent of 'The Jersey Way' - covver ups first and foremost, at the expense of victims, at all.

I am formally warning you to cease and desist from your harmful actions in bringing a biased and defamatory report against me on behalf of Jersey's very unprofessional government and I fully intend to fight your harmful actions against me that you are carrying out on their behalf.

As you are in the UK, I am able to file against you as soon as I wish, and as necessary I will return to Jersey to file there as well. Your report is done on behalf of a man, Senator Gorst,  who allowed his colleague to send this letter, please copy and paste if the link didn't come up:

 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.co.uk/2013/03/senator-philip-bailhache-letter-to.html  

 And then Senator Gorst promoted him to external affairs minister without any disciplinary action, and is thus your report is completely invalid and irrelevant to my case, your report being instigated by a man who actually condones the harm to me his external affairs minister has inflicted and your report having illegally accessed my records and breached the data protection act, is simply a whitewash to cover what has happened to me and make Jersey look squeaky clean for it's finance industry reuptation.

Senator Gorst, after condoning or excusing Senator Bailhache's behaviour, did not contact me to discuss a report into my treatment, he launched it without my consent or knowledge and also failed to let my representative, Bob Hill know, and you have failed to communicate about my case with Bob Hill, despite obviously knowing, having been comissioned by Senator Gorst, who knew, that Bob Hill was representing me, instead, you failed until the last minute to make contact with or about me at all.

I have no doubt that you knew I would react with anger and pain and rebuff you, and you could use that against me.

And, being 'Safeguarding' you appear to have completely failed to take into account that I am too traumatized by what happened to me in Jersey to even think about it, let alone talk about it, and have repeatedly commented on my blogs about similar situations where the Diocese of Winchester have forced this Jersey matter onto me while my memory is blanked by trauma and I cannot even discuss the matter with the psychologist, because the trauma shuts my memory down, and the psychologist has said that blanked memories are blanked by my brain deliberately to prevent me from breaking down. Now what the whole dire Jersey and Winchester mess has done, is force the past, which remains far too traumatic for me to face, back into my life, and I have suffered 16 months of unremitting hell as a result, with no justice, no redress, just a load of severely damaging situations that omit my voice and story and have dragged me into memories that I remain unable to cope with and attempt to access the blanked memories which may well lead to me being incapacitated or dead.

You are playing a full part in dragging me into the trauma that is beyond my reach, you are putting me under needless and horrendous stress, for the sake of a conflicted whitewash that is of no benefit to me, to anyone else, or to Jersey, it will not change the Jersey Way and it will not change the reality of what I experienced, it will not bring justice, it will not mean that the click Jersey words 'lessons have been learned' will ring true, because that will never happen.

Your report and is a meaningless whitewash that is the opposite of safeguarding in that it is playing a part in destroying me to cover up for wrongdoers and conflicted members of the States, and now that you have this letter, no matter what you produce, this letter is now published online on my blogs and circulated to the police, the Jersey bloggers and other interested parties and will remain live forever, even outliving me if these attacks on my life through reports and smears do not stop.

And now that you aware of what is being done to harm me, as 'Independent Safeguarding Chair' you are obliged to act to protect me.

So how are you going to go about doing that?

You do not have my permission to produce any harmful or defamatory material that omits my side, and as the report is supposedly about my treatment but is, as far as I am concerned a sham, you do not have my permission to proceed, you do not and have not had my permission to access any police or social services or charity or other records or discuss me with anyone, you do not have my permission to publish anything that you have so far collated or produced, because it omits my side of things, and contacting me at the last minute regarding a report that you have produced without consent is unacceptable and breaches my human rights and I see it only as a further act of harassment and harm to my health, which is unacceptable for a 'Safeguarding board'. I did not ask for a report, and, because it is dangerous to trigger my memories of Jersey, and so far not a single person in 16 months has taken that into account, how am I supposed to tell you what is behind the blank trauma that according to psychological advice I must not recall??? Did Senator Gorst consider that when he launched this report without my consent? And what do you in Safeguarding want to do, with your token contact of me regarding the report? Force me into a dangerous state for the sake of a sham report? Or just contact me so that it shows on record that you did and I violently rejected you and am thus the mad bad person that the police and government claim I am, I know Jersey is 50 years behind the times, but, as safeguarding, and you from the UK, I think you should understand that I am suffering severe PTSD.

PTSD caused by being regressed to childhood by a churchwarden with no psychological training, when my first childhood was horrific, and being left regressed and rejected in the community because I reported the abuse, and being severely brutalized and locked up the same day the police EMAILED ME the results of the police complaint against the churchwarden, then left traumatized by the illegal and uncalled for police brutality and detention - the Jersey way punishment for reporting an old boy - and left to go on suffering one blow after another until I was left homeless and destitute on the streets of the UK in MY PYJAMAS, which the home affairdsminister, who is also a church of england reader with a long association with my abuser, denies.

Your report and all other reports so far omit me, and this matter having been launched on me while I was homeless, ill and traumatized, has been horrific, because I was and am, in no fit state to relive the horrors of Jersey or to have survived the smear campaign, led by Senator Bailhache and other conflicted church-states-judiciary members, and it appears not to be in your remit to investigate this smear campaign even though it is gross harm to a vulnerable adult by members of Jersey's States, judiciary and church, most in all three categories, including Senator Bailhache, who was a church officer who sat on the synod with my abuser, and Ian LeMarquand who is not just overseer of the police in his role of Home Affairs Minister, but who also is a reader in the church my abuser was sacked from previous to abusing me, and a long time associate of my abuser.

If anyone reading this didn't believe that Jersey has problems with conflict of interests, read the paragraph above again.

so, unless Sentor Gorst is going to allow you to extend your investigation to cover this complaint also, then your report is invalid, you are the safeguarding authority, you are now obliged by me to investigate the smear campaign against me, led by Senator Bailhache and other prominent members of Jersey society and the lies they produced in the press, and if you are not willing so to do, on my comission, and I, as a vulnerable adult, have as much right as Senator Gorst, to comission an investigation, then you are making a clear statement that your other investigations without my consent are invalid

Please ensure that you read the relevant information on my case on the following blogs, you may have to search or ask for the relevant posts, the blogs are the true story that Jersey's other media are not keen to reveal:

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/

http://lifeafterthediocese.blogspot.co.uk/

http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk

http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.co.uk/

http://thebaldtruthjersey.blogspot.co.uk/

http://ricosorda.blogspot.co.uk/

Please remember, you have been formally asked to stop harming me, and this email is valid as from today, any harm inflicted after this letter will be seen as deliberate and malicious and not valid as safeguarding as you will be aware of the harm you are inflicting.

A MESSAGE FOR THE DIOCESE OF WINCHESTER AND ARCHBISHOP OF CANTERBURY

AFTER 15 MONTHS OF WRECKING MY LIFE, DEFAMING ME AND CARRYING OUT REPORTS THAT OMIT ME, ARE YOU CONSIDERING DOING A REAL INVESTIGATION AND INCLUDING ME IN IT YET? OR HAS THE WHOLE MATTER SIMPLY BEEN AN EMPTY CHARADE TO MEET YOUR OWN NEEDS?