Friday, 25 April 2014
Venting
You know what, sometimes I build up anxiety and frustration like a volcano.
And when I hear from Bob Hill or anything about the church, it gets too much for me.
I still have flashbacks and nightmares about the way I was treated by the police and social services as a result of the diocese abusing their power and authority and the police and social services and other services blindly believing them because of who they are/were and because I was obviously very distressed and damaged.
So police and others treated me as mad and bad, no understanding or care of my side of things.
It will wound me until the day I die.
And you know what Church of England sheeple, who have never been through any of this would say?
'oh, you have to forgive, that will make it all alright, you are just being bitter'.
Oh if only life was as simple as their glib and comfortable words and world.
You could shout at the wealthy and comfortable old Church of England all day and still get blank looks. But you can be assured that these are the same people who Jesus raged at in Matthew 23, they are not the vulnerable people who gathered 5,000 shepherdless, to listen to Him, and who he had compassion on.
We, the poor and injured, are those who gathered to listen, and He warned us against the Church of England, the Church in Government, the Pharisees who lead people astray with their doctrine.
Bitterness? Reality. I bet even the Ould Bully and Dakin and Scott-Joynt wouldn't be able to credibly say that the Church of England isn't kept alive by wealthy older people who blindly believe in the CofE and blare at anyone who dares to challenge it.
And are the Bishops of the Church like Jesus, poor, homeless, despised by the pharisees? No, they all live in palaces, get a fat salary and do not deal with abuse and misconduct,and they mislead people, just like the pharisees.
Archbishop Welby, former banker, loves the finance industry and sees it as more important than justice for Chichester abuse victims.
'Called to help the lost, the last and the least'???
I can't find that in the Bible, whether it is there or not, but it was a statement of outright arrogance and judgement from a man who had overseen limitless harm to me.
However, Matthew 23 is in the Bible, and is directed at my destroyers, the modern day pharisees, the Church of England.
And when I hear from Bob Hill or anything about the church, it gets too much for me.
I still have flashbacks and nightmares about the way I was treated by the police and social services as a result of the diocese abusing their power and authority and the police and social services and other services blindly believing them because of who they are/were and because I was obviously very distressed and damaged.
So police and others treated me as mad and bad, no understanding or care of my side of things.
It will wound me until the day I die.
And you know what Church of England sheeple, who have never been through any of this would say?
'oh, you have to forgive, that will make it all alright, you are just being bitter'.
Oh if only life was as simple as their glib and comfortable words and world.
You could shout at the wealthy and comfortable old Church of England all day and still get blank looks. But you can be assured that these are the same people who Jesus raged at in Matthew 23, they are not the vulnerable people who gathered 5,000 shepherdless, to listen to Him, and who he had compassion on.
We, the poor and injured, are those who gathered to listen, and He warned us against the Church of England, the Church in Government, the Pharisees who lead people astray with their doctrine.
Bitterness? Reality. I bet even the Ould Bully and Dakin and Scott-Joynt wouldn't be able to credibly say that the Church of England isn't kept alive by wealthy older people who blindly believe in the CofE and blare at anyone who dares to challenge it.
And are the Bishops of the Church like Jesus, poor, homeless, despised by the pharisees? No, they all live in palaces, get a fat salary and do not deal with abuse and misconduct,and they mislead people, just like the pharisees.
Archbishop Welby, former banker, loves the finance industry and sees it as more important than justice for Chichester abuse victims.
'Called to help the lost, the last and the least'???
I can't find that in the Bible, whether it is there or not, but it was a statement of outright arrogance and judgement from a man who had overseen limitless harm to me.
However, Matthew 23 is in the Bible, and is directed at my destroyers, the modern day pharisees, the Church of England.
Wednesday, 23 April 2014
I hope Eli doesn't mind
Eli sent me this link and I am just going to put the link here while I wait his permission to put the link here, because I don't know when I am next online.
http://www.itv.com/news/2013-05-10/former-choirboy-issues-cofe-abuse-cover-up-claims/
What I find tough about the headlines is the 'press speak' the 'claims' and 'allegations' press speak, that can leave people in doubt as to whether the survivor is a real survivor or not.
I am in no doubt as to whether Eli is a survivor or not, he is.
Eli is very brave, the Church of England, powerful and cut-throat as they are, are still not used to being challenged, and Eli waived his right to remain anyonymous in order to speak up, this takes away the Church's ability to run and hide, because this is an act of courage against an essentially cowardly organization.
Eli, myself, and others, have had to put up with abuse and then the Church of England's 'anything but responsibility' cover up and inaction. And worse, the Church of England's pretence of care, which is for the benefit of the press and the public, those who still believe a word of what the CofE says.
Well, the old people who put money in the coffers blindly believe it all, because that is part of their belief system.
The Church of England seem to spend years 'dealing with complaints', and when they have to use the press, these days they make grand claims of taking things seriously. This can injure survivors even more, because their personal dealings with the church, and the way the church treat them, is different from what is being paraded in the press.
This is certainly my experience!!!
Oh yes, they take their 'reputation' (whatever that may be) seriously, they do not take victims seriously, they do not take the fact that Eli and I and other victims are left harmed and struggling seriously.
http://www.itv.com/news/2013-05-10/former-choirboy-issues-cofe-abuse-cover-up-claims/
What I find tough about the headlines is the 'press speak' the 'claims' and 'allegations' press speak, that can leave people in doubt as to whether the survivor is a real survivor or not.
I am in no doubt as to whether Eli is a survivor or not, he is.
Eli is very brave, the Church of England, powerful and cut-throat as they are, are still not used to being challenged, and Eli waived his right to remain anyonymous in order to speak up, this takes away the Church's ability to run and hide, because this is an act of courage against an essentially cowardly organization.
Eli, myself, and others, have had to put up with abuse and then the Church of England's 'anything but responsibility' cover up and inaction. And worse, the Church of England's pretence of care, which is for the benefit of the press and the public, those who still believe a word of what the CofE says.
Well, the old people who put money in the coffers blindly believe it all, because that is part of their belief system.
The Church of England seem to spend years 'dealing with complaints', and when they have to use the press, these days they make grand claims of taking things seriously. This can injure survivors even more, because their personal dealings with the church, and the way the church treat them, is different from what is being paraded in the press.
This is certainly my experience!!!
Oh yes, they take their 'reputation' (whatever that may be) seriously, they do not take victims seriously, they do not take the fact that Eli and I and other victims are left harmed and struggling seriously.
Sheeple - Christian Country? 1
I bet the post headline got your attention.
I will be writing a post on the debate about Britain being a Christian Country, but not today.
I am completely exhausted and currently moving home, to somewhere where the diocese can wreck my life more easily.
Anyway, I think you know what I will write.
Christian Country? Noh! Can't be, not while the Church of England are in power in Government, because they are divided between wealthy Pharisees, sheeple and old haughty ladies, so that is a large potion of the so-called 'Christians' removed, because they aren't, they you have the same haughty old ladies, and a few men, lets not be sexist, in other denominations, they who is left? A larger population of Christians than atheists,agnostics and other religeions?
I doubt it.
But anyway, the Great Grim Church are in government, and they are mainly the pharisees of Matthew 23, rather than being Christian, I am talking about leaders here, Justin Welby loves the finance industry and you cannot serve God and Mammon, then there is Dakin and Ould and Scott-Joynt, would anyone call them Christian?
So, no, my sweeping and very brief conclusion as I move home and die of exhaustion is nah, the UK isn't a Christian country, it is a country with a large population of Christians or people who identify themselves with the Christian Faith.
Shall I add a footnote about the appalling way the Church of England treat abuse survivors, the vulnerable and poor?
Shall I add about wealth being the qualification for Church of England acceptance, and how completely detached they are from the poor in their midst, while they tithe tons of money to other countries and feel that they are thus Christian, virtuous and righteous?
nah.
Can anyone tell that I am in a flip and dismissive mood? Mainly because moving house is half killing me! :)
I will be writing a post on the debate about Britain being a Christian Country, but not today.
I am completely exhausted and currently moving home, to somewhere where the diocese can wreck my life more easily.
Anyway, I think you know what I will write.
Christian Country? Noh! Can't be, not while the Church of England are in power in Government, because they are divided between wealthy Pharisees, sheeple and old haughty ladies, so that is a large potion of the so-called 'Christians' removed, because they aren't, they you have the same haughty old ladies, and a few men, lets not be sexist, in other denominations, they who is left? A larger population of Christians than atheists,agnostics and other religeions?
I doubt it.
But anyway, the Great Grim Church are in government, and they are mainly the pharisees of Matthew 23, rather than being Christian, I am talking about leaders here, Justin Welby loves the finance industry and you cannot serve God and Mammon, then there is Dakin and Ould and Scott-Joynt, would anyone call them Christian?
So, no, my sweeping and very brief conclusion as I move home and die of exhaustion is nah, the UK isn't a Christian country, it is a country with a large population of Christians or people who identify themselves with the Christian Faith.
Shall I add a footnote about the appalling way the Church of England treat abuse survivors, the vulnerable and poor?
Shall I add about wealth being the qualification for Church of England acceptance, and how completely detached they are from the poor in their midst, while they tithe tons of money to other countries and feel that they are thus Christian, virtuous and righteous?
nah.
Can anyone tell that I am in a flip and dismissive mood? Mainly because moving house is half killing me! :)
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