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An open letter to Luther-Pendragon

Dear Luther-Pendragon,

This is an open letter to you as well as a call for the Bishop of Winchester to resign.

For the past two years you have aided the Bishop of Winchester, Bishop Tim Dakin in Destroying me.

Why? Well because he employed you to protect himself, thus completely and utterly missing the point of Christianity.

He employed you to protect him at my expense.

I have spent two years being smeared in the press by the Jersey Deanery and Bishop of Winchester and you have actively aided this attack on me, I am vulnerable and destroyed and yet you continue to harm me for the Bishop and on his behalf.

When is it going to stop? Because while it goes on, you are responsible for the harm to my health.  Jointly responsible with the Deanery of Jersey and Diocese of Winchester, who's war you have only made worse by misleading and annoying people.

You are also responsible for taking the money of a Church who claim to be 'A Christian Presence in every Community'  While they are too busy spending money on cover-ups to care about the poor and vulnerable, let alone use that money to help them.

The Church are thus invalidating themselves.

Jesus didn't need a PR firm to negotiate for Him, He faced his enemies boldly and directly, but the Bishop has lost sight of Jesus as he continues to make me suffer, and thus it is time for him to go.

I should not be voiceless as defamatory reports are released, nor should I be under threat of defamatory reports. You are aiding the Diocese of Winchester in destroying me over and over again, every time I try to pick my shattered life up, they start again, and it cannot go on and on indefinitely. It is not acceptable and it is heniously wrong and criminal.

It is time you got the Bishop to close this matter, to stop making me live under threat of whitewash reports to save his skin. It is time you all grew a conscience and put an end to my suffering by getting the man to announce that his whitewashes are not going to be released and that he is making a timely exit and the matter, despite being unresolved and unjust, is over.

If you continue to harm me on behalf of the Bishop of Winchester, you will be responsible for any harm that I come to, be that death or breakdown, homelessness, murder by people who have threatened to come after me because of this matter, or any other harm.

The collective damage to me by the Church of England from when I was aged 19 to now is absolutely horrendous, after growing up in hell, the Diocese of Winchester have robbed me of my adulthood and are robbing me of my life, and no amount of money paid to you by the Bishop and no amount of expertise on your part in covering up for the Bishop and releasing misleading, harmful, defaming or incorrect reports will change the damage done.

If you are not capable of ceasing to harm me on behalf of the Diocese, then eventually you will have to answer to a court of law for it, and no matter how pathetic that sounds, it is surprising what one voiceless autistic person can do, if you doubt that the Voiceless can ever rise up and conquer, look at what Stephen Hawkin achieved, and look at the fact that the Diocese have wasted a million pounds so far  on settling nothing, and a lot of that million has gone on YOUR FEES.

It really is time for the church to stop showing themselves up by publicly flogging me and using you to aid them in it. I am one broken and permenantly damaged person, who will find life an unhappy struggle for the rest of her life, the church should be ashamed of themselves, and so should you. There is nothing Christian and has been nothing Christian in the two groups of wealthy old men either side of the English Channel squabbling like little children, being blatantly dishonest and savaging me while they are doing so.

It is time for this charade to end. Stop supporting Bishop Dakin in destroying me, he has done wrong and he can throw million after million down the drain and crucify me publicly without changing the injustice into anything but injustice, and without having rectified the fact that his reports and your press releases are nothing to do with what actually happened in Jersey, especially as they override my side of things and leave me voiceless and exclude my views.

The Bishop may be good for your bank balance, but you and he are doing blatant and criminal harm.

You are responsible for the way I am being defamed, misrepresented and depicted as 'metally ill' and the rest of it. You are responsible for stopping your client, the Bishop of Winchester from behaving in this criminal way.

All the money in the world won't change the fact that Korris and Gladwin are not independent and did not include my views, nor were my views added, and Steel is a conflicted member of the tight circle of judiciary-church-freemason-government clique in Jersey and was nominated by her colleagues there to prevent a genuine investigation and vilify me to protect the Dean and church there. Nor will it change the illegal actions of the Bishop and Jane Fisher, nor will it change the fact that all intrusions and actions against me are without my consent and the Bishop cannot claim to be safeguarding me or anyone because he excluded me from the whole investigation and allowed conflicted wrongdoers to take over and protect themselves and each other.

I am appealing for you to stop your part in support the Diocese of Winchester in their seven-year run of heniously criminal and dishonest behaviour. And although I feel that by nature you are there to act dishonestly for huge amounts of money, it doesn't change the fact that you are supposedly human and should have consciences and compassion, a slim chance but I will write anyway, and I will publish this letter and it will remain circulated no matter what happens to me, and I will present it to a court of law if it comes to that.

Now that you are aware of my extreme concerns about the criminal harm that you, Luther-Pendragon, are aiding and abetting, you have an obligation and a duty of care to stop the harm and to stop aiding the Bishop in harming me. Stop making damaging and inaccurate press releases and stop aiding the Bishop in threatening me with serious and criminal harm through the Steel report. The Steel report is an act of criminal defamation, it is not a safeguarding report, it is done by a colleague and supporter of wrongdoers in Jersey and is deliberately done to defame me and exonorate wrongdoers, I have not been sent a copy to amend or add my views because basically the Bishop simply intends to destroy me with it to get him off the hook for his seriously devious and criminal behaviour towards me and the Jersey Deanery.

He can find another solution to his wrongdoing, for example, taking responsibility for himself, I don't believe he has thought of that, has he? So his resignation rather than his murder of me through defamation, would be a much more honest and Christian approach, and it would set an example to a very devious, abusive and dishonest church, who abuse the public through lies and propaganda in the press with impunity, and you are failing the church anyway in your see-through dishonesty and theirs through you.

I believe you are responsible for that ludicrous 'Lost, last and least' press release last year, which is an eternal headstone to Dakin as a Bishop, showing just how arrogant, patronizing and condescending the church can be, as well as how misleading, as the Bishop proudly claimed to have provided support to me, when in reality he had illegally referred me to the NSPCC, tried to force this referral on me, and had effectively trashed the therapy and support that I was already receiving.

It's up to you, Luther, I can imagine you responding to this with a nasty dirty attack on me in the press for the Bishop, but it is a fight to the death now, I am going to fight for my life now, I am not threatening anyone with death, the term 'death' in this case means the Diocese closing the matter, the death of a two year long charade by the inexperienced and arrogant Bishop of Winchester or my death at the hands of you and the heniously criminally behaved Bishop of Winchester if you choose to continue upholding him in destroying me.

Again, please stop the silly press releases and agreements that harm me to save other people's skin, it may be what you do for a living, but no-one has the right to put a life at stake as you are doing, nor to force my death as you will do if it doesn't stop.

sincerely,

HG

Bob Hill's latest blog on the Winchester and Jersey fiasco

http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2015/01/jerseys-dean-let-sleeping-dogs-lie.html

The Next in Line to demand the Steel report from Dakin

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-europe-jersey-31036739

And at last, Mario Lundy bites the ceiling, too late of course.

http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.co.uk/2015/01/mario-lundy-named-by-jersey-child-abuse.html

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-europe-jersey-31026976

Letter calling for the resignation of Bishop Tim Dakin and Safeguarding Director Jane Fisher

This is a formal letter calling for the resignation of the Bishop of Winchester, Tim Dakin, and his Safeguarding Director, Jane Fisher.

The horrendous fiasco of the war between the Diocese of Winchester and Deanery of Jersey should have led to the Bishop's resignation in 2013, while Jane Fisher's actions for 7 years have been so serious that she also should have been removed a long time ago.

They are both currently responsible for the prolonged and untenable suffering of a vulnerable adult, who has made numerous formal complaints, but nothing has been done by the Archbishop, Clergy Discipline Panel, police or any other authority as yet.

The nature of the wrongdoing of these two people is described on my blog and on numerous other blogs, and is evident in the catastrophic mess made by the Bishop of Winchester in his actions since March 2013, leading to the Jersey Deanery being transferred to the Canterbury Diocese/oversight of the Bishop of Dover, and also in the continued use of a PR company by the Bishop. Use of a PR company in a matter like this, and by a Bishop, is inexcusable. if the church are there to be a 'Christian Presence in every Community' Then the money wasted on this matter should be being used to help the poor and vulnerable in the community, not to destroy one vulnerable adult and squabble in the public limelight. The Bishop of Winchester and his safeguarding director have been and are representing what Christianity isn't, and their biased and defamatory reports about me that exclude me in order to protect wrongdoers are a henious and barbaric act, they do not make any difference to safeguarding and they are doing the opposite of safeguarding.

Making me live in fear of this matter continually resurfacing with inaccurate press reports and slurs of me and squabbles and the danger of further defamatory reports is a serious misconduct, and the Bishop has not at any point attempted to stop the harm to me, the severity of the harm to me is serious, and presumably the Bishop who has never arranged for my side to have a hearing, feels enabled to allow my suffering continued because he believes the slurs on my character from Jane Fisher and the Jersey Deanery and associated wrongdoers, so he refuses to even respond to my concerns. This situation of me being silently destroyed has gone on for too long, it is inhumane and it is criminal and it is also very obvious from the recent comment by the Bishop's PR spokesman, that the Bishop is still happy to release the conflicted Steel report and have me further and irreparably destroyed.

After all the damage I have already suffered, and seeing no justice from conflicted reports, I think it is deeply wrong that over and over again I am made to suffer the pronouncements in the press and media about the Dean being cleared, he hasn't been cleared because he is innocent of wrongdoing, and by his own admission in the 'apology' he did things wrong, but he has been cleared because the Bishop of Winchester has no power in Jersey and did the most stupid and utterly unacceptable thing by launching the matter publicly in local and National press, suspending the Dean when he had no power to do so, and for some reason hadn't researched Jersey law or the situation of connections and dual roles in Jersey. So he was forced to re-instate the Dean and had no power to discipline, so instead, he has scapegoated me, again.

Instead of being honest and representing himself, the Bishop has wasted hundreds and thousands of pounds in destroying me and failing to even produce a safeguarding report, despite claims that this matter has been about Safeguarding.
The Korris report is a cover up for Jane Fisher, while the Steel report is conflicted by Steel's relationship with the Jersey Deanery. The Gladwin report is irrelevant as Gladwin is a Church of England Bishop and not independent. So basically, as well as these reports being compromised by their lack of independence and omission of my side of things, they further put the Diocese in the wrong because of their claims that these are independent. Added to that Korris was not suitably qualified to carry out the nature of report that she did, and it is messy, insulting and lacking in any chronology or clarity.

Another example of serious misconduct by the Bishop and Jane Fisher is that I made a formal complaint against Fisher in 2013 as I continued to be harmed by the Korris report and Jersey Deanery smear campaign, but the Bishop didn't deal with the complaint nor did he make sure it was dealt with, nor did he suspend Fisher, instead, he allowed her to make illegal arrangements with the NSPCC about me, which was ridiculous, a lie was told about the NSPCC housing me, when they are a Children's charity and do not house adults, I have had conversations with the NSPCC about this.

But the reason Fisher referred me to the NSPCC was because the Bishop wanted to do a press release, and he wanted to keep up a pretence of caring about me, despite him threatening me when I contacted him and Fisher, begging them not to keep violating me, which is what Fisher did for years solid with illegal interventions and intrusions, and yet here she was again, illegally referring me to the NSPCC without my consent.

How can the Bishop pretend to care when committing such deceit and at the same time as clearing wrongdoers, who have still done wrong, but he failed to conduct a proper investigation and acted illegally in defaming them and me in the press and online to a national audience anyway?

The Bishop's press release, after he had apparently tried to force the NSPCC referral on me, was terrible, because he claimed that they had been 'working hard across the Diocese to get me help', and yet they had had no consent to do any such thing! And further to that, the horrendous mess the Bishop had created, with me voiceless, excluded from reports and slandered by the Jersey Deanery had disrupted the help I had been receiving voluntarily, for which I had self-referred, as well as shattering my network of friends and support yet again, the Diocese having done that previously on having me imprisoned and left homeless and then again as they slandered me round my home town of Winchester.

The Bishop's press release claimed him to have been 'called to help the lost, last and least'. Which shows just how low the Church of England and Diocese of Winchester have now fallen. No-one, especially not a Bishop, should be foolish or arrogant enough to judge others as 'lost, last or least'. Especially not a Bishop and Safeguarding Director who have behaved as badly as those two have.

Those of you who are reading this need to seriously think about what happens to children and vulnerable adults who cannot write as I do, it is only luck and chance that I learned to write as I do, and thousands of vulnerable adults or survivors of childhood church abuse end up dead, imprisoned and mentally ill as a result of the Church of England's draconian and duplicious behaviour and press cover ups, along with their absolutely unacceptable pretences of care. No-one gets a good deal from the church if they are abused, and in my case, I am left to go on and on and on suffering, and it is now intolerable. If the Bishop cared enough to make an illegal referral to the NSPCC, then he can care enough to rectify the slurs that his 'clearing' of the Dean and others without me even having a hearing has done. If he doesn't, then the Church of England need to remove him and stop the fancy talk about caring about the vulnerable and safeguarding, because they are just empty words.

It doesn't matter what I am percieved to have done, Bishop Dakin and his Safeguarding Director have treated me in a way that no rapist or murderer is treated, they have deliberately exposed me to prolonged public shame and harm and why? Why was a permanent criminal record not enough for them? 

According to Korris and Steel, I am either 'Not Autistic, or 'Normal and just a troublemaker' and neither of them have the power or authority to make that diagnosis, the fact remains though, I was diagnosed by a world leading hospital, I am also assessed as suffering severe PTSD, so why, if the Bishop 'cares about safeguarding' Has he spent 2 years doing nothing about safeguarding and allowing me to be subjected to such severe harm? And why have copies of these reports never been sent to me pre-publication, for amendment?

And when will the Bishop explain to the general public about dual roles and conflicts in Jersey, for example my abuser's nephew being a prominent man and church elder in the Jersey Deanery and being involved in the Steel report, and the retiring Bailiff and Sir Philip Bailhache being in positions in the church and Jersey Deanery, and so much more that the conflicted reports and biased press releases are not telling the general public, so I am being harmed by these prominent and conflicted men advocating for the Dean. And don't forget to mention former magistrate/Jersey Home Affairs Minister Ian LeMarquand being a Jersey church Reader and friend of my abuser, who said it was a sad day when he was sacked from the position previous to the one that he abused me in.

Because both sides are not being heard, wrongdoing is being blatantly covered up, and I am being slurred and abused for reacting, with the conditions that I suffer, to repeated abuse and cover up, the most serious and psychologically harmful being the regression and abuse in Jersey, followed by shunning for reporting it, and police punishment of me for reporting it. The whole charade of the last few years is not a safeguarding investigation, it omits me, the victim, and shows no insight whatsoever into the cumulative harm of abuse on abuse and regression on a background like the one I came from. 

Therefore the threatened release of the Steel report is nothing more than an act of utter madness on the part of the Bishop of Winchester, and an act of unutterable cruelty, that he would still consider giving the victory of utterly destroying me to wrongdoers who have acted deceitfully and done such massive wrong.
Anyone who is reading this and does not know what I mean, please see Bob Hill's Jersey blog, his series of posts on 'Jersey's Dean', you may also want to see my blogs on this matter, especially my three letters of Warning to Bishop Dakin.

As most of you know, I could keep writing, and as most of you also know, the subjects of this matter are exhaustive and are much explained on my blog and Bob's blog, and the other Jersey blogs linked to mine. So I will cease writing and repeat my call for Tim Dakin and Jane Fisher to resign. They have used approximately a million pounds to no aim whatsoever, and appear to feel that they can sacrifice my life to make this justifiable, despite knowing that the extra international defamation from the Steel report will kill me, I am broken and living in fear.
The money they have used has caused division, anger, hurt, discord, division, serious harm to a vulnerable adult, deceit, duplicity, misleading of the general public, and most of all, they have almost deliberately ensured that other abuse survivors will not come forward if they are abused 'Thus shall be done to the person who dares to speak out'.

As a result of all this limitless, exhaustive damage, I am calling for Tim Dakin and Jane Fisher to resign.
I call on the Archbishop, the clergy discipline panel, 10 Downing Street, Her Majesty the Queen, the Home Secretary, and all other church officials, to ensure that Tim Dakin is removed - do your usual 'moving him to other things', and Jane Fisher is an abuser and a danger to the vulnerable, and no cover ups will change that, so she must also go.

Thank you for reading this, it is a formal call for two very seriously compromised people to leave their positions where they have caused and are causing, very very grave and serious harm, and Tim Dakin's reports and investigations must go with him, not be released, as I will still continue court action against him if he continues to harm me, his reports are nothing to do with safeguarding or what happened, so they are not relevant.

sincerely,

HG

God also grew cross -and tried to unseat the Bishop, leaving Winchester quaking

God aint pleased, please read the link:

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-hampshire-31009707

Or the Bishop secretly agreed to fracking the Cathedral to raise funds for the Steel report fiasco:



I think he's fracked.

Another very insightful blog about the Jersey matter

Tony the Prof manages to put into words the Jersey and Winchester situation, especially the 'apology' discrepancy.

http://tonymusings.blogspot.co.uk/2015/01/rewriting-history.html

Anyone notice? He has fangs and a cape

For the Diocese of Winchester

I may not Win.
You may kill me.
But I am going to make it my mission,
while I live,
to be a thorn in your side.

I will be 34 in two months time or less.
Jesus was crucified while he was still 33,
and you have been re-enacting the Pharisees scene,

In brokenness, in death, triumph will come, but not for the Pharisees of the Church of England.
Judas broke his neck, Jesus rose on the Third Day, the Pharisees of Israel died out but Jesus Lived Forever.

So will reconstructing a situation see the strengths and weaknesses reversed?
Will I be dead by March?

Wrecking Ball Diocese:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=My2FRPA3Gf8




For those who are new to this dirty war between diocese and Deanery with me caught in the middle, look no further than THIS BLOG for comprehensive pictorial guides:
http://photopol.com/jersey/jersey_toons.html

Women Bishops

The Church of England have ordained a female Bishop, will it make an atom of difference to the disgrace the church is? No, it makes them more of a disgrace because they have done it because they had to, hurried it through.

Two years later, the police who injured me have never been called to account, and the police still refuse to protect me from the Diocese

http://www.theguardian.com/uk-news/2015/jan/26/julian-cole-ipcc-police-brutality-allegations?CMP=twt_gu

The police are brutal and behave criminally towards the vulnerable.

Ashenden (my biggest fan) and his group of thugs on BBC Jersey this morning, demanding 'their report' were described to me as...

It's good when we can get a laugh out of something so lacking in amusement in reality.
What a terrible thing when people who call themselves Christians and run churches can behave so arrogantly, and most non-believers behave better than Ashenden's band, and of course non believer's don't have a corporation like the CofE in which to abuse their power.

It is time the world heard about this 'report' written by Ashenden and Birt and Bailhache, it is time the world really heard about Jersey and this ultimate power at the expense of the poor and vulnerable and victims.






Excuse me if I repeat myself.

It's good when we can get a laugh out of something so lacking in amusement in reality.
What a terrible thing when people who call themselves Christians and run churches can behave so arrogantly, and most non-believers behave better than Ashenden's band, and of course non believer's don't have a corporation like the CofE in which to abuse their power.

It is time the world heard about this 'report' written by Ashenden and Birt and Bailhache, it is time the world really heard about Jersey and this ultimate power at the expense of the poor and vulnerable and victims. The report doesn't need to be published, it is a conflicted whitewash, and the arrogance of these people who wrote it, in fighting for it to be published is unbelievable, they already know it unjustly clears wrongdoers and completely omits my story, the fact that they got away with hijacking the whole matter and clearing the Dean is unbelievable and now claiming their push for the report is Christian is doubly unbelievable.
When is their Bishop going to step in and stop them making fools of themselves.
Well, he appears to be in agreement with their behaviour, so maybe never.

Formal letter to Jane Fisher, Safeguarding Director of the Diocese of Winchester

To all who get a copy of this, I am asking you to witness this henious continued harm to me and ensure that I am protected and this woman is suspended and investigated as she should have been a long time ago. I only ever copy people in as witnesses, although Jane Fisher thinks it is a joke that I have to keep asking people to step in to stop her harming me.

Dear Jane Fisher,

I started writing this letter earlier this week, along with the third letter of warning to the Bishop of Winchester, this was before the Jersey Deanery started making a fuss in the press and reminding everyone that the Dean was 'cleared' by dishonesty. And the reason I started these two letters was because it has been a while since the Diocese of Winchester openly attacked me, and I have learned from experience that a while doesn't last forever and while I live and the Diocese still stands, they will harm me either directly or behind my back dishonestly as you used to do in defaming me to church people, my friends and the churches and homeless services in Winchester and beyond.

So, inspired by the trauma of the Jersey Deanery relaunching their campaign, and the lack of sleep as a result, I continue the letters of warning that only the severe trauma that I associate you with stopped me from writing before.

It is difficult to write about the severity and depth of damage that you have inflicted on me, especially as I know that as always it falls on the deaf ears and cold heart of a woman without remorse or conscience and who will remain unrepentant, cold as a stone and happy to go on harming me indefinitely.

Therefore I have copied the police into this email and have to remind them that as yet, they have done nothing to protect me from your illegal actions which allowed you to get me a criminal record when I responded in anguish and trauma to you previously. I want your illegal actions to stop for good, and I want to be assured that they will stop for good, rather than me living in fear of you and your police for the remainder of my life, it is bad enough that you have ensured by the record you got me, that I can never work again and will always be in grinding poverty and open to abuse and homelessness and hunger, and more than likely to be further maltreated by the police who have me as mad and bad on record if I am abused again, well, unsurprisingly, I have been physically, verbally and sexually abused on the streets and in the underworld accommodation which is all I can ever get after what has happened, and as I said, the police are there to harm me, not protect me or bring justice when I am abused, because you have branded me.

I will never recover from the way the police treated me, the bruises they left and the gaping and unhealable psychological wounds they have left, I am branded for life and there is no therapy and no cure for what you did in illegally interfering in my private life in Jersey, illegally liasing with authorities in Jersey, violating me in prison, slandering me remorselessly to all churches and my friends in Winchester, leaving me alienated and branded in my home town, as if the trauma of being made homeless and losing my job in such a terrible way and being imprisoned was not enough. You had me repeatedly beaten and imprisoned by police for reacting in confusion and anger and trauma to your violations of me in Winchester. Horrific, and absolutely unforgivable. There are no words to describe what you put me through. None, it remains so traumatic that I usually cannot think about it, I suffer flashbacks and nightmares daily and nightly, and will do forever.

I had to change my name to try and escape both from you and from the bad name that you got me on record that meant I was treated like dirt by services and outreach wherever I went and was unable to get the very urgent psychological help that I needed, and that added to my trauma and desparation, it is only a miracle that I chose to live when you took from me everything I had lived for, my identity, friends, my family- who abandoned me because of the situation, my home, my work, my career, my health, my privacy and dignity - they made me strip and examined me, and after being sexually abused that was horrific. You have had me finger-printed so I will always be vulnerable to police no matter what my name is, you have had me destroyed, and again, it is a miracle and nothing else, that I go on living, a horrible miracle because part of me is dead, and in every way I am crippled b by what you have done against me, and what makes it worse is that throughout this horrific 7-year rape of me, you have pretended to care and have 'prayed for me', as I said, you have no conscience, you are like an obsessed stalker, obsessed with making me suffer and seeing me suffer.

What astounds me, but not so much since I have seen the depths of wickedness and deceit from Ashenden, Key, Bailhache, Birt and the rest of the freemason-clergy-lawyer-church clique, is that you call yourself a safeguarding director, that you boast that you are passionate about safeguarding, and yet you have done this damage to me, relentlessly, slandering me, protecting my abusers, taking everything from me, and yet, you still feel qualified to preach in a church, you still use God's Name after taking a human life to protect yourself from discipline and to protect the Church's reputation. 

If you believe in God, believe this, you are not going to heaven, you are not going to be fine and alright with God, you have stolen a life and left someone living in hell on earth, and until you completely rectify this, and admit your wrongdoing, that continued denials such as the Korris rubbish compound, you are hell-bound, you are going to hades, and that is not a spiteful thing to say, it is the truth, you remain without remorse and without conscience and I remain defenceless and at risk from your continued unchecked violations of me in my community and my churches, and I can trust no-one to help me and can only feel shame that I am trying to be me but reality is that, as has happened for 7 years, being me isn't enough to stop you overriding everything I am in slandering me to anyone and any church or place or community I bond with, and driving me out.

As well as not being Christian, what you have created is as far from safeguarding as it is possible to get.

I grew up in hell, I came into the real world maladjusted and had to finally stop my parents from calling me to terrify me with prophecies of death and armageddon, I have two blissful years in Winchester until, aged 19, the church of England started their as yet unfinished process of destroying me and preventing me from devloping into healthy adulthood. Juliet Montague aided this by denying I had anything wrong with me such as autism and saying I was just acting out, while she acted unprofessionally in taking me home when she was supposed to be my counsellor, using me to replace Sally and allowing Fred to do to me what he alledgedly did to Sally, and so it went on, and who was laughing at me in the street in Winchester in 2010 when you left me homeless after having me imprisoned? Fred Montague, who you continued to protect and provide for, while slandering me to the whole of my old benefice and all my old friends.

After the severe trauma of hearing your lies to court and police in Sussex, I went on the run and changed my name, but I was aware how vindictive and obsessed you were and are, and I knew without any doubt you would keep coming after me, possibly continue to provoke me and slander me and have me imprisoned for my reaction, and I cannot tell you the depth of despair that can cause, you with the police on your side, with social services on your side, refusing to protect me and illegally referring me to a  mental health worker who was at a daycentre I fled because of you, I knew I was powerless to stop you harming me and that has remained the case, I suffered illegal interventions, refusal of help and treatment, and just plain nastiness as I fled you and sussex and tried to get the help I needed to recover from a level of trauma that nearly killed me.

As I write this I am listening to the song that I used to listen to on the Streets of London at a time when I knew I was going to die, because I was so horrifically damaged, here is the song that kept me going: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H0KqDmvlSyw

To me, it is a pity your counterpart, Scott-Joynt has gone to hell without facing justice on earth, but at least he has gone to hell, there is no room in heaven for the kind of actions and behaviours that you and he have committed and God is and will be very displeased indeed. All the pomp and ceremony in the world for a man in a dress and a silly hat,  who has lots of money and oppresses the poor and vulnerable will not change the fact that he goes to hell, and neither will your expert cover-ups and pretences of care change the fact that that is where you are going unless you repent and put right your horrific misconduct. What astounds me is that the Diocese of Winchester have allowed you to remain both in a readership position and a safeguarding position, they are invalidating their insurance by employing an abuser in those positions, and you are an abuser, and no cover-ups, no pretences of care and no attacks on me will EVER change that, the Diocese are aware I have complained, I have complained multiple times, I have complained to the police after you jeered by adding me on twitter last year and left me in collapse, and as ever, your Jimmy Savile Style getting away with anything and everything continues.

In 2013, I was just beginning to think maybe I had made it, and escaped you. I had suffered an episode of major depression and was overcoming that, and seeing a good psychologist, I had just had whooping cough and pneumonia, I had tried to live indoors briefly, and couldn't because I was still so afraid that you and your police would come and get me and trash me again, as I still am. 

Then the most horrific two years of being destroyed was launched on me, and here I am, still suffering it, and for how long? 

The police who you and Scott-Joynt used to destroy me for speaking up and for reacting to you destroying me, came after me with the most pathetic and insipid rubbish I had ever heard, they claimed that 'The Bishop of Winchester wanted to put me in church groups' it was ridiculous, you drove me from every church in Winchester, nastily, slandering me, so that I came into a church and heard your side, that I was mad and bad and had done all these things, the unrepentant woman slandering me then turned on me, she didn't know I was autistic or had been abused, she only knew your side of things.

So anyway, I was now being hounded by your police who you had destroyed me with before, the ones who ignored my side of things, blotted it out, refused to protect me from you, and called me mad for counter-complaining that you were provoking me, the ones who dragged me by the scruff of my neck so my chest was exposed, the ones who knocked me around, broke my laptop, messed with my things, presumably stole my driving licence so that I am even less likely to ever get a job. Those police who destroyed me came after me for you, with the insane message that the Bishop wanted to put me in church groups. Insane beyond belief, you drove me from my home town of Winchester, shattered my friendships which had mainly lasted 10 years or more and I needed those friends after my background and what I had been through and I watched them turn away in disgust, another wound that has never, will never heal, nor will the broken trust, which combined with the very real possibility of you violating me and my relationships or the slander reaching any person or any church I get to know, leaves me isolated and fearful, unable to heal.

So, these police traced me so that you could thrust your work of art in destroying me on me, did you hope this cover up, the Korris report, which should be called the Fisher report, would kill me? It certainly nearly did, it is and always will be, your cherry on the cake of covering up for yourself and destroying me, you can't better it, so don't bother to have the other whitewashes released.

The Korris report, a non-independent report by a church counsellor, is about as independent as the Bishop's deceased solicitor was from the Church, and again, how horrifying it is that a church that claims to be Christian has to have integral lawyers and barristers. Jesus wouldn't, the pharisees would. Basically the church can abuse the vulnerable with impunity and be protected, as you have done to me.

The Korris report claims to be independent, well it was written by a church counsellor, backed up by Coverup-Sloss, the famous church protector/member, and Korris didn't have enough knowledge to even understand autism and thought she would try to change the diagnosis given by the Maudsley, which is impressive, considering that they are world leaders, she furthered that by trying to make me out to be self-daignosed. Do I need to go on? Actually yes I do, because this whole seven years of you destroying me with impunity and being unchallenged is beyond the pale, it is indeed a Jimmy Savile type henious injustice, seven years of you blatantly covering up for the church at my expense, seven years of being voiceless and treated as mad as I cried out in anguish for you to stop hurting me, seven years of illegal liasons with authorities by you, to defame me and protect the church, seven years of you abusing me.

Did you check the Korris report for accuracy? It was written from your notes and contains so many grossly misleading inaccuracies, mainly to protect you and Scott-Joynt and make you look good. You, as safeguarding director of the diocese of Winchester, are responsible for the publication of a defamatory and inaccurate report that was not amended even when I sent the amendments to you and Korris and the Diocese, and to be honest, I never finished the amendments, the report was such utter unprofessional rubbish that it astonishes me that the Diocese of Winchester proudly published it all over the web and sent copies to the police as if it was fact, that in itself constitutes a whole list of crimes including defamation, misleading the police, misleading the general public, and refusing to remove or amend this report until I took the Bishop of Winchester to court, the report was up until I did that, and it was then removed, but not from the many websites archiving it, nor did removing it remove the way I had been severely defamed internationally, to the point of nearly leading me to take my own life. It was not removed out of care for me, it was removed to save the Bishop's skin. And again, how cold, callous and completely lacking in safeguarding the diocese of Winchester truly is.

What I do not understand is, why you did not get enough out of defaming me internationally with that report, which is effectively just a massive act of defamation against  a hurt and homeless vulnerable adult, a report you had no choice about as you were forced to allow an internal investigation, but you hijacked it as best you could, and used it and me as a PR stunt for the Diocese, one that went badly wrong but you kept pushing it, after defaming me in the national press so that my friends and supporters turned away and I had to leave college, you kept the Korris report up, the Dean's fake apology that never reached me, after the Bishop threatened me for contacting you and begging and begging you to stop harming me, I was threatened, and you refused to stop the smear campaign or safeguard me as you had me publicly driven because it was easy for people to realise the report was about me. Then you went to Jersey to continue your illegal liasons with the police there about me, there is a witness account of that from Jersey.

So, all of a sudden the police were trying to force me to bring charges against my abusers who you destroyed me for while protecting me, and at the same time, despite me re-iterating a formal complaint against you, which was never dealt with, again, you were allowed to illegally refer me to the NSPCC, which was utterly sick. You and the Bishop left me in collapse with the threat of the Steel whitewash being released, a report much worse than Korris as it was created by the supporters of the man who was supposed to be under investigation, the Dean of Jersey, and at the same time the intrusion of the corrupt and brutal Jersey police, while you illegally referred me to the NSPCC and the Bishop sickeningly, dupliciously used that in his press release, claiming that you had 'worked hard across the diocese to get me help and he was praying that I accepted it', while at the same time he called me 'lost last and least' which is sickening arrogance from a man who has failed as a Bishop in the way that he has. He then cleared the Dean, while I remained voiceless, with no investigation having included me.

But it hasn't stopped there, the press attacks on me never stopped, the sickening Church Times one last year caused me a minor breakdown, and why? Because The Church Times won't report my side, they simply libel me from the Korris report and the Jersey Deanery's smears of me in the Church times and other press and media, because you have never set the record straight, never ensured my side is heard because it incriminates YOU, and you have never at any point stopped or countered the slander of me in the press and media, you have left me to suffer it all alone and counter it as best I can, and I have never stopped the wave after wave of harm to me, it is wearing me down, it is making a grim, hopeless and poverty-stricken life even worse.

You and the Bishop arranged illegal liason with officer Gull of Jersey Police, to clear the police of wrongdoing, produce another whitewash with the sham Jersey safeguarding board, you enabled Gull and Steel to illegally access my inaccurate records that your previous interference while I was in Jersey affected, made inaccurate, in order to cover up for you and Scott-Joynt. 

And still you haven't at any point done anything about safeguarding issues in the Jersey Deanery, I am still being destroyed. The Korris report, Steel report and other sham reports do not represent a balanced and fair investigation into my concerns nor a balanced investigation into what happened to me or what happened in Jersey, this is because they are conflicted, whitewashes, influenced by wrongdoers and excluding my side of things.

So as well as withdrawing your reign of terror which prevents me from living, you, as the person responsible for all this harm to me, are to call anindependent investigation 

into what has happened to me, starting when I was 19, and continuing to now. No more accusing me of abusing my abusers, no more allowing me to be smeared by conflicted bullies like Sentaor Bailhache and Sir Michael Birt, the Church of England is entirely responsible for every distress and illeness I suffer as a result of those powerful thugs who represent the church and show why the Church of England no longer has a place in society.

You are the coldest and most unpleasant person I have ever met, and you seem to have made it your aim to destroy me, and undoubtedly another police beating or another public national shaming of me would finish me off, but nonetheless, I will fight back, and even if I die, my fighting will remain and I will be free from a ruined and irreparably shattered life and soul.

One of many notable points about the Korris fiasco is that your and the Diocese claim it was about the Dean's behaviour when yours has been so much worse, the report claims he was perceived as not neutral and yet I have an email from you from when I was in Jersey, when you tell me he is neutral, at a time you were bulldozing me and demanding that I saw the Dean when I had made it very clear I wouldn't because of his behaviour, and despite your excuse for the Korris report being about the Dean having me put away without 'proper records' YOU and Scott-Joynt were named in court and on statements as his witnesses, so the whole massive fiasco doesn't actually add up, the discrepancies are prolific like that and it all needs to be examined.

I must warn you, because this is a letter of warning about your actions against me, that liasing with police, authorities, my friends, family, the media, services, outreach, or any agency without my consent and behind my back has been, is, and will be an act of harassment, and you know that, and you have consistently and constantly caused me harm, you are to cease and desist and you are responsible for every bit of harm done to me by these actions, and no information gained illegally this way is valid and you have and are committing a crime by every act of intrusion and harassment against me this way, and I will keep reminding the police to warn you to leave me alone, and if all else fails, I will take you to court. I think even if the Diocese pay for you to see their replacement-for-the-deceased solicitor, the only way forward in the event of the police still refusing to protect me from you is to make sure you stand in the dock while I tell the court what you have inflicted on me, and how the Diocese have received complaints against you, and how you have simply gone on and on and on harming me, making sure my story is covered and smothered to remove my credibility, what a shocking and sick way to destroy someone.

From now on you are not to, as you shouldn't have in the past:

• contact my friends
• contact my family
• slander me to churches, organizations, agencies or bodies who may help me
• contact any church and 'warn them against me' as you have done so often, causing me horrific anguish, while protecting my abusers in their churches, as they remain protected and respected while I am destroyed, they are not having breakdowns, being slandered or living in fear, the church looks after them.
• produce, contribute to, publish or in any way play a  part in, any report that defames and demoralizes me or misleads the police, the general public or the press, as the Korris report did and the Steel report and shame safeguarding board report would.
• malign or belittle me in any way
• publish any further infortmation about me and my life
• contact anyone about me with the intention of harming me, covering up for yourself or manipulating a situation such as you did in liasing with the police.
• attend meetings about me, as you are not capable of safeguarding, you are do not have any capacity in which to attend meetings about me.
• make malicious police complaints about me with the aim of having me put away as not mad and not credible and silenced, as you repeately have, the police need to understand that I am not insane and they need to take my complaint in full against you, not beat me and fling me in a cell as if I was mad and it was punishable by imprisonment, I have never recovered, and those police committed misconduct in refusing to protect me from you.
• make illegal referrals.

You are to:

• Stop harming me and assure me that this sick charade of 7 years will stop and I will be interviewed properly about my side, after all, that is safeguarding isn't it, including all sides, not just those of the abusers who  you upheld for 7 years.
• Ensure that an independent investigation is launched, if you don't understand what independent means, look it up.
• Rectify the damage done by the international defamation of me by the Korris report and the smear campaign
• Ensure something is done about the still not recorded or acknowledged safeguarding issues in Jersey, you can refer to my blog for that, I have just put a new post up.
• Ensure that my character is cleared, ie that people know I am not mad and bad, you labelled me to cover for yourself and I was severely traumatized, suffering injustice and had been regressed to childhood before suffering police beatings etc.
• Resign, if you have a conscience, which I doubt, you have inflicted massive unhealable damage, you are dishonest and you have furthered the damage to me relentlessly by your continued dishonestly and refusal to be responsible for your wrongdoing. You can[t stand before God after what you have done, so you have no right to hold church positions, and as for safeguarding, it is beyond belief that you are still in that job and claim to be anything to do with safeguarding.

I hold you responsible for all the harm to me, what you have done is far  far worse than sexual abuse, worse than rape, as I have often said to you. 

I would like the police to protect me from you, I would like the court to protect me from you, I would like any authority or witness to this email to protect me from you, I would like to be free from you after years of being crushed and rubbished by you as you have protected wrongdoers and treated me like dirt. I would like to know I am free from you to crawl on to the end of a completely shattered life in relative peace.

sincerely,

HG

Ashenden, the specialist 'peace-maker'

Nice to see Ashenden still keenly reading my blog from the Middle East, where he is probably stirring trouble there as he does in Jersey and Normandy as well as doing his usual effort to get acclaim for himself and build his ego.
He is the face of the Church of England, a cold-hearted and dishonest troublemaker, who damages the vulnerable and has abused his power in order to harm me and protect a wrongdoer, and yet the Church see fit to let him wear a dog collar as he continues his charade and his harm.
But he is only a small part of the massive wrongdoing, a small part, yes, I have heard that too, which is probably why he has to be so nasty and unChristian.

Funnily enough, this Jersey blog is timely, and funny:

http://tonymusings.blogspot.co.uk/2015/01/a-restored-palimpsest-of-4th-century.html

Ashenden has been trying to force himself into a position in the Diocese of Normandy, hurting people there and behaving very badly, after behaving very badly in Jersey. It is very funny that he is now showing off as 'peace envoy to the middle East' and showing up on my blog feed from there for some unknown reason tonight, well, not so unknown, his efforts to get the Steel report published, the reoprt that he contributed, helped to co-ordinate to without ever having met me while I was not included in the Steel report, that is why he is reading my blog, because of my reaction?
He reads my blog, I can count Ashenden as a fan, a regular reader, who avidly logs in while others in the Jersey Deanery distain it :) He runs on a firefox and Vista feed.

Yes, there are still safeguarding issues in Jersey, Ashenden is one of them, with his cold and unacceptable behaviour, his public shows of trying to exorcise the mentally ill, his mysogany, his bullying, his lack of people skills, his dishonesty his deplorable behaviour in the Dean of Jersey's case. It is hilarious that he is in the Middle East, maybe they can keep him?

Those who don't know it, he is a lawyer who wears a dog collar, and he used to be chaplain to the Queen, and he doesn't do well as a Parish priest anywhere as he is not a people person but thinks very highly of himself, far more highly than everyone else thinks of him.

Here is the letter that made him whimper about the Bishop owing me and the Dean of Jersey and apology in 2013, after he himself had behaved outrageously to me, slandering me on BBC Jersey:
http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2014/01/the-letter-to-jersey-deanery-as.html#.VMWuRtKsXqc

And here is Bob's illustrated version of it:

http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/jerseys-dean-hgs-guest-posting-open.html

I think it is time that the Diocese of Dover dealt with all the safeguarding issues, including Gavin Ashenden, and if Bishop Willmott can't face actually doing anything about the Channel Islands situation, as appears to be the case, then he needs to hand it over to someone who can. Because, hey, I am not counsellor to the poor Diocese of Normandy who he has been trying to burden with his arrogant presence and I am tired of hearing their dismay as he marches in with his nose in the air.

The Church of England really aren't representative of Christianity any more. Ashenden is a real marker of that.

The Church are keeping very quiet about...

'Savile had ties with Calderdale. He often used to visit St John’s Church, Cragg Vale, for which he raised thousands of pounds, and was an honorary church warden. He was a popular figure in the Calder Valley right up until his death. In the 1970s he had a caravan parked outside the Hinchliffe Arms Cragg Vale..'

Which may be one of the reasons why Butler is so keen to hijack the national CSA inquiry, and why the Church have already got through two National CSA inquiry chairs, Woolf and Butler-Sloss, and will probably elect the next one very soon. Will it be Heather Steel?
The church of england have made such a loud noise about safeguarding but as they continue to destroy me, there is no sign that they even know what safeguarding means, and their noise and their excuse for tampering with historic files is only to prevent outside inquiry and mislead people into thinking all is well in the church.

http://www.achurchnearyou.com/cragg-vale-st-john-the-baptist-in-the-wilderness/

As yet, no-one has ever mentioned this link, the church are keeping very quiet while making such a huge pretence of caring about abuse and victims, all while destroying me for my abusers,
The situation in Jersey is that big powerful men like Savile are getting what they want and killing a silenced victim.

The Bishop of Winchester's lawyer dies suddenly

Er, no, he wasn't a lovely man, he aided the Bishop of Winchester in LYING TO A COURT OF LAW.
You sent another man to hell, Dakin, now he has to line up behind Scott-Joynt to explain his wickedness in aiding you in destroying me.
How did I find out that this unlovely man had died, well I contacted him about taking the Bishop back to court.
He died suddenly ten days ago.
I am normally respectful of the dead, but not of any of the increasing numbers of dead church of england members who abused and destroyed me and have never faced justice.

http://www.salisbury.anglican.org/news/statement-on-the-death-of-andrew-johnson

My sympathies to his family, if they are Christians they sadly won't see him in the afterlife because of his deliberate dishonesty in harming me on behalf of the Diocese of Winchester.

I guess this is also why the Deanery of Jersey are baying for my blood again, maybe they think a different lawyer will advise the Bishop differently.

Here is the 'Jersey Synod's 'demand'

And isn't it funny how, after their complete failure to act in a Christian way, including dishonesty, they think it would be 'Christian' to destroy me by having their dishonest and conflicted report published.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-europe-jersey-30972876

A brief letter to Trevor Willmott

Dear Bishop Willmott,

I hold you personally responsible for the continued harm to me.

I would like you to explain why one of your church members, Michael Birt, is using his position as Bailiff to continue to harm me, and why your Jersey Deanery are so keen to have a report published if they don't know what it in it? Of course they do, because the Steel report was a whitewash concocted by a little circle of freemason-judiciary-lawyer-church members including Dame Steel, Michael Birt, Philip Bailhache, the Dean and Gavin Ashenden, the last of these, Ashenden clergy-lawyer, is apparently causing a lot of trouble in the Normandy Diocese, just to add to his life's work of hurting people and not being in the slightest bit concerned for their humanity.

Now that you are 'in charge' you can launch a proper investigation.

You can investigate why the Dean 'apologized' and was cleared after 'apologizing' , you can also explain why the Dean 'apologized' to empty air, and failed to inform me, as did the Diocese of Winchester, of this 'apology' and then you can tell me what the 'apology' was for when he was then cleared, and then you can tell me why the Church of England, still having not told me of this 'apology' kept this apology up on their website for many months, at least until I objected and asked for it to be removed as the Church had no right to be glorifying themselves through a fake apology that I never received, when they had 'cleared' the Dean anyway.

It is interesting that you have taken over the overseeing of the Channel Islands but have never contacted me about my experiences there, and have allowed the Church Times and Jersey media to go on harming me as a result of the inaccurate rubbish known as the Korris report, and that you have not made sure that the Jersey and general public know that the Korris report is not an accurate representation of events, neither is the conflicted Steel report. Maybe it is about time you did.

Maybe it is time you, as Bishop of the Channel Islands, let the conflicts of interests be known to the public. 

Start with these few:

• According to Juliet Montague, you were infatuated by her and took every opportunity to spend time with her, she made it into a joke in the church room. She took me out of college to replace her step-daughter, Sally, who looked just like me but who Juliet's violent husband, Sally's Father, had driven from the family after allegedly abusing her as well as taking his temper out on her for years. I then suffered abuse at the hands of Juliet's husband, and his temper, while Juliet, who was supposed to be my counsellor but obviously wasn't, blamed me. As you can imagine, already deeply damaged and vulnerable, this meant my young adulthood was the same as my childhood and as a result my problems became more severe. Nothing has been done about your sweetheart, Juliet, or her husband, who laughed at me in the street when I returned homeless from Jersey, I was homeless and branded whiel Jane Fisher protected him and I lost all my old friends in Winchester while the church protected him, paid for his keep, and destroyed me beyond belief, it is only a miracle that I am here to recount that, I survived only by going on the run and changing my name, and in two years before Jane Fisher and the church launched on me again in 2013, I recovered enough to fight back stronger this time. I saw you in Jersey one time, at one of the abusive cult churches, and again you are conflicted because you went along with their games, so of course you wouldn't see their manipulation as a safeguarding issue. You were told what to say by Heather Warren, as people with 'signs' and 'words' usually are, and you told people you 'sensed that some people there had 'fear' so you told them to come up. So how can you oversee wrongdoing in the Channel Islands and bring justice? You can't if you are on the side and in agreement with people who manipulate and spiritually abuse the vulnerable. Is any of this in any report by the Diocese of Winchester yet? No, do you know what the Korris report accuses me of? Abusing my abusers.  Does it include my side? No, so as Bishop of the Channel Islands, you need to comission a report that gives my side, to counter the slander I have suffered and the damage I have suffered.
• Is the General public aware of the Chief Minister being part of a church closely allied to the cult churches where I was harmed in Jersey? Are they aware of how the Steel report was arranged by the church-lawyer-freemason-states clique that included the Dean, Philip Bailhache, Michael Birt, Gavin Ashenden and others, abusing dual roles and none of them having met me but all of them playing a part in this report? 
• How exactly is a safeguarding report that ruins a vulnerable person for years and excludes her got anything to do with either safeguarding or what really happened? And How is a church counsellor who is not qualified to write a report and makes it clear she doesn't understand autism independent or competent to write a report, how is a Jersey judge who is close to the Dean's supporter's independent? How does the church explain the glaring conflict of the advert by the Church laity advertising Dame Steel as representing them? When did the UK  take into account their lack of knowledge of Jersey connections, for example why did they allow my abuser's nephew, a prominent man, to be involved in the Jersey investigation? 
• Why was there an illegal liason by Dame Steel and the police, who treated me unfairly and kept proven inaccurate reocrds, I have not consented to access of my police records by the church and it has been illegal as well as the same police officer 'appointed' by Dakin illegally influencing Jersey's sham safeguarding board to whitewash the terrible way I have been treated.

Now, this is a very very small sample of the horrific misleading of the press and general public by the Church of England, at my expense, the wrongdoing of the church has cost me my adulthood from age 19, after an even worse childhood, and now, aged 33 and still suffering at the hands of the Church of England, the question is, when are you going to let me live?

Would you like to act to stop this sick mess or do I have to take you to court? You are now the Bishop, along with Dakin who seems to still be involved, and I will take you both to court unless you stop your mouthy church members such as Sir Michael Birt, from causing me harm. 

Of course he wants the report that he and his colleagues spent hours and thousands of pounds on at Jersey tax payers expense, of course he wants it published, they worked so hard to utterly destroy my character as if the Korris rubbish, Jane Fisher's personal cover-up, hadn't done that already, of course they want to triumph publicly at my expense, and on the subject of conflict, you were the Bishop of Basingstoke, working with Jane Fisher all those years while Juliet kept me as 'her daughter' and ran to you for help when her husband got nasty because she said that 'Wolvsley were cold to her'.

sincerely

Third Formal Letter to the Bishop of Winchester

Dear Bishop Dakin,

I was already drafting a third letter of warning to you as I have had no assurance from the church that you will stop harming me.

Then the news from BBC Jersey is that the churches in Jersey are pushing for the publication of your whitewash Steel report.

Please bear in mind that the Steel report is nothing to do with what actually happened in Jersey and is a cover up by Steel, done in conjunction with her colleague Philip Bailhache, a strong supporter of the Dean, and a church officer as well as a lawyer and states member.

You are not to release any defamatiory report that breaches my human rights and leaves me ill, broken down or in danger of death, as the Korris report did, the Steel report is a very expensive act of wrongdoing on behalf of the church, at my expense, and the only reason the Jersey church would be so keen for it's publication is that it was done to cover up at my expense and 'exonorate' the Dean, and was done without my input because I was told it was conflicted, if I had not been told, then despite the blatant cover up of Jane Fisher's misconduct in the Korris report, I may have been naive enough to go along with Steel and let her do as Butler-Sloss did in the Chichester report. 

The Steel report, as it is nothing to do with my case and what happened to me, is a breach of my human rights and is taking my name in vain and deliberately ruining me when I am already broken and living in abject poverty.

Therefore, you are not to release it, or any other report or oversee the release of it or any other report, if you warn me that you are going to, threaten me that you are going to, or release any report, I will take you to court again, or I may apply to the court for protection as a result of the Jersey church pushing for this whitewash to be released.

And think about it, why would they push for a report that could potentially defame their Dean? Well, because they, and the Dean know, the report clears the wrongdoers at my expense, and contains no input from me, the report is done by the clergy-lawyer-church-freemason group in Jersey, who have limitless power, it is not independent as Dame Steel is proven not to be.

Throughout this matter you have not been independent, you have not included me or my side of things, not in the Korris report, which you refused to even amend when I did hear about it and make a complaint, and not before that, when, if you could have me traced by the police to try and intimidate me after the release of the Korris report, you could have had me traced by the same to include me in it, instead of lying to a court of law that efforts had been made to include me in the report.

The same goes for the Steel report and the Gladwin report, I was not included, Gladwin made a token effort because Bob Hill pushed for it. Steel tried to illegally access my advocate's records regarding things she was not even investigating, and caused me trauma, before snottily inviting me to meet her when I complained, despite the fact I was asking her to step down as she was conflicted.

You are to stop allowing me to be harmed by threats of this conflicted report and other whitewashes including the Gladwin whitewash mark 2, he did one for Chichester, and the sham safeguarding board in Jersey's whitewash, done in conjunction with Jane Fisher and your 'appointed officer' who you had no right to appoint to illegally access my inaccurate reocrds with Steel. Your actions have no only been illegal but have been a severe breach of my human rights, and I am going to fight you until the risk of me being defamed and destroyed yet again is over.

You have not bothered to respond to my concerns and you lied to a court of law at Winchester about the situation, and that and all the other factors show that whatever this charade has been about, it has not been about safeguarding. You have destroyed me over and over and over again, left me crippled, ruined, and living in fear, and actually it is time that this living in fear is stopped, it is time that the police or courts or a national agency stepped in, prevented you from harming me and launched a REAL independent investigation into this whole matter. 

As yet there has never been an outside investigation into the church of england, at all, and the church misuse the word 'independent' with people like Gladwin, Steel, Korris, Butler-Sloss and others, to mislead the public and to prevent outside investigation. A notable case of this was the recent effort to tamper with historic records to do with confession and clergy, with the claim that these would be 'independently audited', well if the church don't know what independent is, and they keep angling to avoid investigations such as the National CSA inquiry, which incidentally elected two Church of England position holders in a row, both of whom had to step down because of other conflicts of interests, then it is time an outside agency stepped in, investigated personally what the Diocese of Winchester have done to me and covered up for years.

I will return you to court within the week if I feel in any way threatened by this continued threat of being destroyed beyond repair, your non-independent Korris report nearly finished me off and this continued threat to me after everything you have made me suffer, is too much, it is time these attacks on me stopped, it is unChristian, it is dishonest, it is illegally to destroy a vulnerable adult this way and leave her living in fear and suffering severe psychological harm, and it is to stop. It doesn't matter if the condition of 'The Dean being delighted' about the Canterbury agreement in the press was that you release your whitewashes in reply, what matters is that the church are continuing to behave in a devious, unChristian illegal and abusive way, and I remain omitted from all reports and silenced as acts of contempt and destroyal such as the attack on me in the Church times and the jeer by the unpunished Jane Fisher adding me on twitter and this recent 'request' by the unpunished and unrepentant Jersey churches continue.

Eventually my side will break into the media, even if you do as I strongly suspect you would try to do to during this matter, silence me as before, have me arrested and imprisoned, eventually, no ,matter what you do, I will speak and be heard, and I will keep speaking, because you have throughout this matter, done me grave and serious harm. Anyone else among the vulnerable, who can't speak or write, would be silenced and destroyed, and many have, in the church's history of abuse, many have committed suicide, branded mentally ill by the church as a result, and many have ended up homeless and in psychiatric wards, and Jane Fisher did her very best to discredit me as mad and have me put away, but here I still am, speaking, and I will speak, even if only through the Jersey bloggers even if I die or am imprisoned. I won't be silenced and I won't let you destroy me.

Now please announce that the Steel report is not valid, announce in the news that these whitewashes are not valid, stop making me live in fear, announce that these reports that exclude me are not viable and make that an end to your horrific harm to me, I am copying the police who you have used to destroy me in on this email and despite Hampshire constabulary being openly corrupt, they are a police force, they do have a duty of care to the vulnerable and they are to stop you harming me, or the court are to stop you harming me, either way, I am asking for protection, from the corrupt police, from the court, from all recipients of this email, from all national agencies and I am asking you to stop leaving me at threat of harm. No-one onthis earth is made to endure this kind of serious harm, not a murderer, not a rapist, so why should I keep being under fear of press and public slander and destroyal? It is wrong. The Steel report is nothing to do with what happened to me in Jersey nor was it ever intended to be, if it had been you would have met with me instead of lying about that, and you would have made sure I was heard, and you deliberately didn't, instead you threatened me when I begged you not to violate my life as Jane Fisher did in 2010 and 2011, acting illegally and getting me a record for my reaction, a record and the police brutality that I will NEVER be able to live with, and yet you then went on to illegally violate my life some more AFTER threatening me.

If you like I can send a copy of this to every diocese in the country so that they can act as witnesses, it cost me about £50 to do that last time but the more people who know I am living in fear as a result of your misconduct, the better.

Bishop Dakin, you, your and Bishop Willmott's  Jersey Deanery under your joint juristiction, your staff, employees, safeguarding officer, and anyone in connection with you are to cease to harass and annoy me with defamatory and inaccurate reports and the threat of their release, you made those reports using my name in vain and without my side being included, you are not permitted to take information from my blog to claim you included me, you are to announce that these pathetic attacks on me, these defamatory whitewashes that include illegal liasons with Jersey police, are at an end and no further defamations and attacks on me are to occur.

The action of making me suffer the threat of these defamatory reports counts as abuse and counts as harassment, it is a matter for police and safeguarding authorities it is a matter for the courts, to make someone suffer this way for this long is henious, it is serious abuse and the damage to me physically, mentally and materially is serious and severe.

Please note that this is a written warning and will be followed by  court action if the police and national authorities do not act. Please also note, that my psychological report is freely available, both the one done in Jersey before I was made homeless and the more recent one, so continuing to use the 'madness' slur that church and government traditionally use against victims is not going to excuse this. I am not mad, I am autistic, suffering severe trauma, I have behavioural and psychological issues, I was dangerously regressed to childhood in Jersey by my second abuser in the church, and then Jane Fisher destroyed me to cover up. Nothing has been done by church or police about Fisher, it seems both are protecting her.

Steamrolling the poor and vulnerable is a horrific thing to do, you have done it to me, and to others, and yet you collectively claim to be followers of Christ. 

The reason I send this email to so many people is the reason I always have, because I want witnesses to how I have been treated and am being treated. I have suffered the Church of England since I was 19, and that is so many years of abuse and cover-ups, and it should have stopped when Jane Fisher drove me from the Church of England and from my home town by slandering me after having me imprisoned and left homeless in 2011.

Due to the very serious nature of this ongoing destroyal of me, a copy of this will be sent to 10 Downing Street and the Queen and the Home Secretary. Eventually, after years of pleading, someone, somewhere must stop this destroyal of me by the Church of England, and wipe out all the whitewashes and lies and inaccurate reports and let me live again. My whole adult life has been marred by abuse, cover ups and blame by the church, and being patronized, controlled and sexually, emotionally and spiritually abused by well off old church people has prevented me from getting the help I need to develop into a healthy adult, unfortunately the damage is done, and for life because of the record the church got me while protecting my abusers, I do not need to be destroyed by reports, I am crippled and my life is limited forever.

The Diocese and Jane Fisher have had years to cover up, tamper with evidence and prevent themselves facing any action for what I have suffered, but I still have a story to tell, and I am waiting for the very very belated outside investigation into this matter. The Korris report was a classic example of uncontrolled cover up, published internationally and sent to the police as fact, all illegal in many ways, and yet, nothing has been done, the Korris report and the Dean's apology were used by the diocese and church to show off at my expense, until I objected and took the diocese to court, there has been no apology.

Jesus please protect me from my destroyers, who stand up and preach in Your Name while guilty of destroying me and remorseless about it, no conscience, no love for You or justice.

Surely other people can see how ridiculous it is for the church to be allowed to go on destroying me and making me live in fear unchecked,with my side being ignored despite my request to be interviewed independently of Steel, who was known to be conflicted, and while the Bishop refused to add my amendments to the Korris report, while he lied to the court that Korris had tried to contact me to include me in her report?!

I have been abused and destroyed in the Church of England as a vulnerable adult since age 19, I am 33 and they have robbed me of my adulthood and character and left me ruined in grinding poverty and living in fear, it is time someone stepped in and stopped this criminal theft of my life. The Church do not know how to safeguard as they are generically a club for the elderly and well-off, they treat the poor and vulnerable as less and subject them to an apatheide where the poor and vulnerable are not allowed in church people's houses and not told why, it meets the insurance conditions but segregates the poor and yet abusers who are well off and keep the church running are allowed in church houses. The Diocese of Winchester have never safeguarded me, they destroyed me and safeguarded my abusers, Jane Fisher is responsible for me being branded for life and thus limited for life, by an inaccurate and terrible police record that does not tell the real story. Why should I be subject to further damage? It is laughable that AFTER I made my second formal complaint against her, she was allowed to illegally refer me to the NSPCC without my consent, as if they could help me or I would accept help from anyone influenced by her, and it was done only because the Bishop needed to claim in yet another inaccurate press release and to the authorities that I had been 'offered help'. 

Those not familiar with the case need to read these links below to my first two warnings to the Bishop of Winchester and Bob Hill's blogs on Heather Steel being conflicted, here is also my psychological report.

Previous letters of Warning to the Bishop:

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2013/11/formal-letter-of-warning-to-bishop-tim.html#.VMTRaNKsXqc

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2014/05/formal-letter-to-bishop-dakin-2.html#.VMTR2NKsXqc

Psychological report:

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2014/03/13082013.html#.VMTSC9KsXqc

These links are to some of Bob Hill's account of Heather Steel's Conflict and conduct:

http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/05/jerseys-dean-diocese-of-winchester.html

http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2014/05/jerseys-dean-they-have-learnt-nothing.html

http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2014/05/jerseys-dean-steel-report-fit-for-waste.html

http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/08/jerseys-dean-laitys-jep-advert.html

http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2014/09/jerseys-dean-steel-and-gladwin-reports.html

http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/jerseys-dean-dame-heather-saint-or.html

http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2014/10/jerseys-dean-unhappy-anniversary.html

http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/jerseys-dean-truth-whole-truth-or.html

http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2014/03/jerseys-dean-steel-and-gladwin-reports.html

sincerely,

'HG' from the Korris report.