Lets get rambling and incoherent for Macsas

Start with the non-macsas, to be annoying.

Dear Diocese of Winchester,

Is there any sign of the Bishop understanding the impact of his abuse of me yet?

And any sign of him stopping being a coward and stepping forward to end my suffering?

The thing is, the church have shown ultimate hypocrisy in this, destroying me publicly while protecting abusers to avoid scandal for the church.

When I was part of the church, and one of my youth leaders was convicted of child abuse at the school where he worked, but presumably not in Romania where he was also allegedly abusing orphans, the church tried to keep it silent in the parishes and disconnect him from the church.

But I didn't know about the church being corrupt and dishonest, I was naive. So I expressed my horror at the man who had led our youth group doing such terrible things.

I was damned and told that God would judge me the same as the abuser.

And to punish me further, the Korris rubbish whimpered about me being 'unforgiving' for speaking out on something that the church had tried to keep silent. That was purely a vindictive lie by Jane Fisher, by the way I haven't had a reply to my complaint about her yet.

But the church didn't publicly destroy Malcolm Eastlake, they let him feel forgiven and go on with a normal life.

While the church destroyed me for years, and for three of those years it was public destruction. And before that, it certainly wasn't secret as I was slandered round my communities and driven out. I can't live a normal life as a fugitive who is still attacked and put at risk over what the Bishop has done, and with no access to help because of the way I have been branded to the authorities.

Eastlake, the abuser, was told he 'was a good man really' and the 'church forgave him' but unfortunately the church are selective in who they condemn and forgive, and as yet I see no sign of 'forgiveness' for being a church abuse victim.

Destroying me publicly while I screamed and screamed for help wasn't forgiveness, it was condemnation and hatred and you didn't inflict it on Malcolm Eastlake, so why did you inflict it on me?

When the Bishop steps forward to show integrity and explain why he has done this to me on top of everything I have survived, would he like to explain why the church have treated me worse than a man who gets sexual gratification from children? Those children will be affected by the abuse for life, as I am.

The Bishop and Archbishop, with all their grandeuer and falsehoods to the press and media, appear to have no respect for God or a vulnerable human life.

The Church needs to be regulated so that lawless crooks such as Dakin, Wilmott and Welby would face immediate and proper police action for the kind of abuse that they have inflicted on me, and instant dismissal. They are not ordained by God, they are chosen by 10 Downing Street and the Queen, and nothing in what they are or do, represents Jesus or His teachings, it is a terrible sham, that in this day and age shouldn't continue at the expense of the vulnerable.

Please remind the Bishop that he is still abusing me by leaving me suffering and not taking responsibility for his destruction of me for and with the Jersey Deanery and the lack of investigation into what happened to me in Jersey, his silence doesn't make his liability go away, it simply increases his horrific negligence which is killing a vulnerable adult in suffering beyond bearing or healing.

JJ

Dear Charities Commission,

I would like to proceed with my formal complaint against Macsas. Please could I have the forms. I fit the category of a vulnerable client and former client of this charity who is speaking up about their misconduct. If I don't speak up, they may kill other vulnerable people, if they haven't already. Other survivors have shared their concerns about macsas with me.

I have had contact with Macsas, the 'clergy abuse charity' for just under a decade, and they have never behaved well or professionally, and have acted at all times in favour of, for and on behalf of the church of england, my abusers. Which is hardly surprising as one of the leaders of Macsas is also a church of england employee, and my experience is that macsas are akin to a branch of the church, and certainly in their siding with the church at all times and facilitating slander of me in the church times, this would appear to be the case.

The most recent incident involved a drunk male member of macsas alone with me, trying ignorantly to push the church of england's slander of me onto me, trying to uphold the church in their destruction of me as an abuse victim to cover their backs, and when I said what about my side of things, he said he 'had tried to read it but it was rambling and incoherent'.

Two points to make there, why if he didn't understand my story, did he continue to uphold the church's? Are they autistic and profoundly traumatized and psychologically damaged? No, so why does their story get macsas's priority, to the point where macsas nearly killed me by facilitating slander of me in the press? Why didn't this man and his colleagues, knowing of my disability, make the effort to clarify my case? After all, they kept involving themselves?

Why would anyone, try to force on an abuse victim, their abusers' side of things like that drunk macsas man did? Why would a charity for abuse victims behave like this? As if the victim was a fake and had no side to things? 

Charities commission, this link below is a rather angry but perfectly relevant description done after Macsas facilitated the church times, who had already slandered and defamed me for two years for the church, in continuing to harm me in the incident that nearly caused my suicide. This letter is from two years ago, and sadly under Macsas's biased eye, the harm to me has continued unchecked. They claim to care about mandatory reporting but have allowed a victim to be publicly destroyed on the abuser's word that the victim is mad and bad, would they survive being publicly destroyed if they were vulnerable and broken and abused? 

http://www.opnlttr.com/letter/open-letter-bishop-paul-butler-and-macsas

At the end of this email I also attach a letter to the macsas man who destroyed me when he was drunk, there is extensive reference to Frank Beck, because the macsas man decided to squash up to me in the pub, where he and his friends were drinking and I wasn't, and talk about Frank Beck, triggering dangerous flashbacks for me.

Macsas have yet to answer this letter and to answer my complaint, they have tried to set their solicitor on me, indicating that they have done wrong and know they have done wrong.

The damage to me by the church is horrific, the church spent a million pounds whitewashing my case, and macsas have upheld the whitewash at all times, even eagerly contacting me in 2013, forgetting to apologize for their horrific damage to me previously, in their eagerness to uphold what was essentially a church-centred, church-completed, whitewash of my case.

When macsas eagerly contacted me to thrust that horrific public attack of a 'report' onto me, they didn't appear to realize that a church version of events, carried out by a church member, without my side of things, and thrust into the press and media to trigger hate attacks, was not a report, it was an attack, and macsas supported this attack to me.

They failed, when contacting me to support the attack, to even consider the impact on me, and they also failed to apologize for breaking the law in 2011, by enabling my abusers to have my location and slander me out of all homeless services and outreach when I was homeless because of the church and macsas had refused to help me to restrain the church who were still harming me to cover up for their actions which had made me homeless.

As I write this, I recall the drunk macsas man telling me he 'glanced' at my emails about the church.

For four years the church of england have destroyed me publicly since the launch of that whitewash 'report' that destroyed me to cover up for the now removed rogue safeguarding official in the church of england who destroyed me to cover up for abuse of me, to protect the church's image.

I have emailed macsas many times about the situation, but they have only ever involved themselves in my case on behalf of other people, mainly the church of england, and have ignored anything I say.

Macsas really are not a charity for abuse victims, they are a branch of the church of england, a branch linked through one of their key members being a church employee, and his job, presumably, for the church and macsas, is to protect the church, warn them of victim's intentions and distress, and make sure no justice is ever realized.

That being the case, that has been extremely effective in my case.

So while Macsas have persistently been involved on behalf of the church, and harmed me, anything I say is 'glanced at' or treated as rambling and incoherent, as the drunk macsas man said as he rubbished me alone in that car park.

Is this letter rambling and incoherent? I am autistic and have survived, but barely, a childhood of severe abuse, an adulthood of being abused and destroyed to cover up in the church of england, and most recently a four year public smear campaign by the church that involved a million pounds of whitewash reports, lawyers, PR firms and press and media, all of that was the church's, I was alone and voiceless throughout. 

My writing, on my blogs and in books, is only as rambling and incoherent as this letter, the reality is that macsas were geared towards protecting the church, believing the church, not least because they didn't want to be responsible for their own atrocious failings, and so the man from macsas and his colleagues simply 'glanced' at my emails, and did nothing as I was destroyed.

Macsas, having involved themselves right at the beginning of the recent three year smear campaign and million pound whitewash, contacting me unsolicited with no apology for previous behaviour, to thrust the church's lying defamatory report that was made public in the press and media, then went back to ignoring me, no reason given, 'glancing' at my cries for help, and facilitating lies and attacks on me, such as that in the church times, the ignorance and danger of a man who claims he cannot see the victim's side 'because she is rambling and repetitive' is horrendous. The charity are obliged and should anyway, have some understanding of disabilities and vulnerability, and should never make comments like that, especially not after repeating her abuser's side back to her.

What Macsas have done, culminating in leaving me having a breakdown at the beginning of October as the drunk macsas man upheld the lies about me, blatant lies, ignorantly and stating them as if they were truth, without my side, is they have aided abusers in harming their victim.

The drunk man followed that up by rubbishing my side of things, now is this brief paragraph rambing and repetititve? Or do Macsas need some training and education regarding abuse and vulnerability and how abusers behave? From everything they have done to me, leaving me at the mercy of my abusers 'because I was homeless', enabling my abusers to trace me while I was homeless, driving me from homeless services with slander, bursting back into my life without apology to uphold the church's public smear attack on me, refusing my cries for help and facilitating attacks on me in the press such as the church times, with no objection to the attacks, especially the one that nearly caused my suicide, and then more recently rubbishing me on lies of my abusers and rubbishing my side of things, the drunk macsas man alone with me, destroying me over again and leaving me in collapse. 

Is that a good charity for abuse victims? No. It is one that has, throughout, aided abusers and helped them to destroy a victim.

I wake up from nightmares and in distress at the way macsas has treated me, and they have tried to set their inter-conflicted macsas-member solicitor on me rather than deal with my complaint, and as yet their solicitor's law firm also hasn't commented on this new abuse of power.

No matter what happens, a report will be produced and published that includes Macsas harming me. That is a very succinct and not at all rambling statement. But I would like the charities commission to deal with macsas first. The harm to me by the church has been bad enough, Macsas actively harming me, to the point of slandering me to my family and aiding my abusers in destroying me, is not something to be left any longer, even if they do think they can do as they please and hide behind badly behaved barristers and solicitors. No organization is above the law in the country, apart from the church of england, who truly are.

Macsas should not have facilitated the lawless church in harming me, the church were very capable of extensive damage on their own, and if you think about how macsas have blindly believed the church in my case, think about the hate attacks I have suffered and do suffer, as a result of the church's open vilification of me, it leaves me as a destitute fugitive, who at any time can be forced to flee, can't earn a living, can't claim benefits, can't have therapy or support, because their is no safety or permanence because of the church. I slept rough for years not just because of trauma, but to keep myself safe as macsas eagerly helped the church to continue to trace and destroy me.

When I went to Canterbury it was a leap of faith and hope, to hope to be part of, and support, change and justice for church abuse victims, I didn't know that a badly behaved macsas man would be there to drunkenly tell me that my life story was one of the worst abuse cases he had ever heard, before he destroyed me for the church of england and left me having a breakdown. If I had known that macsas would be at canterbury for the abuse protest, I would have known that the protest was a complete sham. Macsas would be there on behalf of the church, no other reason.

Macsas need to be regulated, they are very aimless, lawless, and dangerous, especially to church of england abuse victims as they are basically an undeclared and harmful branch of the church.

I will never recover from my recent experience at Canterbury, being destroyed when I couldn't take any more ham.

This is the letter I enclosed to the macsas man, macsas and the church who they work for, are silent about Bob's account of my case, because they can't rubbish him as 'rambling and incoherent' when they attack me in the church times or drunkenly in a car park:

http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2015/11/jerseys-dean-letter-to-archbishop-of.html

The other letter the macsas man was given after his attack on me was my psychological report, also attached.

I have attached the hill report as well, but it is heavy reading. A bit beyond Macsas' limited capabilities. Macsas can get about as far as reading the lines that the church of england send them 'This is what happened, please parrot this for us'. 

It is time for Macsas to go, I spent last night in nightmares over their harm to me, and woke this morning in severe distress. 

Macsas, this will be posted on my blog, you may rate it for rambling, incoherence, and any other criticisms of it not meeting your needs as a special cover-up branch of the church of england. I do not know how many other victims have been put off standing up for themselves against you and your employers, the church of england, but what I do know is that people who have not been drunk like your member at Canterbury, have told me that my work helps and inspires them and encourages them to speak out. 

I may never recover from your harm, but I know that I have and can go on overriding your attacks, because it is what the people who have given feedback on my blog says that matters, not your hatred and contempt on behalf of your employers, the church of england.

JJ - victim of the church of england and their macsas

A letter send to churches in the Diocese of Winchester and the Police

A letter to the Bishop of Winchester regarding his abuse of me and abuse of power in public office, sent CC the police, who cannot continue to withold action against the Bishop. 22/10/17

Dear Bishop Tim Dakin,

You are aware of my distress at your wrong behaviour, and you are aware of Bob Hill being forced to defend my life with his own, nearly losing his life, and being left severely disabled. As you are aware of this, and of your dishonesty in publicly destroying me, there is no excuse for your silence as I go on suffering. You have a duty of care, and your dishonesty against me publicly has not been resolved. So your silence is inappropriate and an abuse.

In 2013 you launched on me and you launched on the man who had me destroyed. I was street homeless, profoundly traumatized, and without any access to help due to your Diocese having me branded and driven from services that would have helped me. However, the man who destroyed me, who you also launched upon, had money, power, a home paid for by the church, lawyers, powerful friends in government, and all the tools needed to ensure that your attack on us both was turned solely upon me, and I was destroyed publicly for three years by him and his clergy and laity, and by you, as you scapegoated me to cover your misconduct in your public launch against me.

Your scapegoating because you were unwilling to be responsible for your wrongdoing, led to Bob Hill giving up his retirement to fight for me, his integrity and courage earned him 31 years in the MET police with a BEM for his work with the vulnerable, and nearly 20 years in the States, challenging the evil and corrupt men who you enabled to destroy me. 

Your dishonesty and cowardice cost a good man his life, a man who didn't wear frocks and stand in front of an elderly and narrowminded congregation as part of an untruth as you do, but a man who instead lived what Jesus preached and exampled while you treated and treat what Jesus taught and exampled with contempt, indeed what you have done is abuse, and 18 months of you continuing to preach and hold office after what you have done is a very terrible thing in God's eyes. You took my life to protect yourself, and you think you can represent Christ? In order to represent Christ, you have to take responsibility and punishment for what you have knowingly done.

In everyday life, if I am recognized, people repeat the church's hateful public condemnation of me back to me, because my side wasn't recorded to balance things out, each time that happens, I am destroyed and it nearly causes instant suicide, and will cause instant suicide at some point as I am worn down You are responsible, you had me destroyed over the destruction of me already carried out by the church.

What you have done against me is a prolonged act of criminal harm, abuse, harassment. 

Your predecessor, Scott-Joynt had already destroyed me for his failures, having me brutalized, imprisoned, left homeless, slandered to homeless services, my community, friends and family, but he died in denial but without being able to escape the fact that he had done wrong, all the applause for him on earth is worth nothing as his lack of repentance has taken him to hell. 

But you took everything he and the rogue safeguarding director Jane Fisher did to me and used it to publicly destroy me, spewing their side of things into every press and media without redaction, apology or mercy. You ignored my screams of anguish with a coldness that belies your more recent forced pretences of care, and you destroyed everything I tried to build, taking my life, friends, home, work, and most recently my university studies, because I couldn't sustain those things against your harm to me.

During the three years in which you had me publicly destroyed and hid behind your expensive PR firm and lawyers, spewing out discrediting lies about me and my case to protect yourself while I suffered beyond belief, you failed to make sure I had the same voice and PR representation, you had a lone homeless vulnerable adult destroyed, without apology, without redactions or corrections and without her voice being published in her defence, what you did was an ultimate act of cruelty and abuse, on a par with chaining a dog and kicking it in the face relentlessly, and yet the police would have been quicker to take action if you had done that to a dog, than they are being with what you have done to a human being.

The National Safeguarding Team's liaison with you to hush the matter up at my expense and defend your open abuse of me, has severely damaged me and invalidated them, they have reverted to your and their policy of silence to make the victim go away, a national church of england policy, but, it has not made your responsibility or the injustice go away. They should all have left their positions for aiding you in your attempt on my life and the cover-ups as well as behaving as they have, and putting a vulnerable life in danger and condoning your abuse. But you remain unrepentant, unpunished, and most importantly, liable.

Your silence will never make this matter go away, what it will do will make people ask why you were silent as I suffered, when your liability is obvious, and why you went on officiating without a conscience.

You remain obliged, if you are to go on officiating, to provide equivalent money and resources for my side of things to be heard in the press and media on the same level as you allowed my abusers and their supporters to be upheld in the press and media for three years. You are also obliged to remove the Korris report from online, state my views on it and offer a public apology and redaction, you haven't done so, and your fake apologies for the benefit of your back-covering press releases don't count.

You need to show integrity in explaining that your public whipping of me stemmed from the cover up of your rogue safeguarding officer who destroyed me to protect the church, while she was also a reader in your diocese, and although her wrongdoing was open, you ignored my complaints against her and didn't publicly flog her or anyone else who had harmed me, I alone was publicly horsewhipped for the church's crimes, on top of the church's cruel and remorseless destruction of me which the Korris report was created and shared internationally to cover up for and permanently shame and silence me.

I gather you were banking on my suicide in the first year, 2013, so that you could unchallenged destroy me in  death, it hasn't worked out, although I am living death, and I want justice before I die, and I hold you solely responsible for the whole matter. 

I want your resignation and I want police action against you. And I don't care that the church's vast interconflicted power and fear of the church has meant that the police and all other agencies and bodies have refused to act upon your harm to me so far, you have taken my life and left me living death, and you go and stand in church and try to preach about Jesus, when no risk assessment has been done on you for your callous severely destructive harm to me. You have shown such disregard for my life and wellbeing, despite all your incredibly hypocritical pretences, that, as I told the University of Winchester, no matter what their bias in favour of the church is, you pose a safeguarding risk to vulnerable students.

You also pose a risk to the vulnerable in any church-related organization, and children in schools, one of the reasons that offending by clergy is so prolific is that the church don't safeguard, and no organization dares to stand up to the church, and all of you abusive clergy can access the vulnerable easily through church-linked organizations, and that will continue until the church are regulated to prevent lawless interconfliction and clergy use of institutions for the vulnerable as unpaid brothels. What you have done to me is on a par with any clergyman abusing a vulnerable adult in those settings, no worse, most don't boast about their abuse in the press and media as you did while you abused me.

Your more recent safeguarding officer, Jackie Rowlands has exampled how nothing has changed in safeguarding since rogue safeguarding officer Jane Fisher, who destroyed me, left quietly without being subject to any embarassment for her conduct, think of that in the context of the way you destroyed me, Fisher broke the law with impunity to drive and hound me even after she had made me homeless, her actions would have driven most to suicide, just as yours would. You tried to ignore the complaint against her and allowed her to go on being harmfully involved against me in your destruction of me, until she quietly left, no defamation of her in the press as there was with me, nor too, was the real reason Bob Key left his position advertised, he was also lauded and upheld, not even held to account by the press and media who you destroyed me with.

Jackie Rowlands has tried to ignore my disclosure of abuse against you, tried to do as your staff and the national safeguarding team do to me and other victims, put the phone down and ignore emails. Safeguarding who? Well, the wrongdoers in the church, as ever. Jackie Rowlands in blocking me and upholding you, has, the same as the national safeguarding team, failed in her position, harmed a vulnerable adult and declared herself unfit to work with the vulnerable as she protects abusers.

On the subject, the police need to ask about your most recent police attack by the way. More questions about who set it up, and at what time, because your police attack was an act of harassment, based on dishonesty, you lied to the police, again, and on top of your police attack last year, leaving me homeless for the second time in a year, needs to be looked at very closely, the church do not have the right to be above the law or use the police for their own service, and you have lied to the police in order to entrap me to suit yourselves. You have used the police against me with impunity, adding to your destruction beyond anything a human being can cope with, and yet, they have so far, jumped at your orders and failed to investigate you or charge you with abuse. And they must now do so.

The damage that you and every complicit agency or authority have done in abuse, allowing abuse, branding me, and not stopping harm to me, is so severe and so compounded that there is no recovery, hope or future for me. Your dishonesty-based attempt to tell the police that I would self harm is absolutely ludicrous and hypocritical considering the callous way you have taken my life, left me living death and destroyed everything I built up.

Your safeguarding officer, Jackie Rowlings has been obliged to investigate and take action, and she hasn't done so. It is time for her to leave for a more suitable position that does not involve the lives and safety of the vulnerable, and it is time for you to stop hiding behind the other  criminal wrongdoers such as the Archbishop and the Bishop of Bath and Wells or your lawyers or PR firms or 'advisors', what you have done is wrong, criminally so, and it hasn't gone away and it won't go away, it is time for you to do the decent thing, make sure my side is heard, resign from ordained positions - the church are obliged to remove you but haven't - and make sure the police hear the full story of your abuse of me.

While I wait for justice and you to take responsibility, I suffer, and you know I suffer, and you know that you are responsible. And yet you have continued to officiate at services, and even show off in the press, with that silly posed picture of yourself. Narcissism and psychopathy are not pretty qualities and do not look good posed in the press.

Please don't keep me living death. Ultimately, as I have said to you, the best thing for me will be my death, because my soul is destroyed beyond healing, and if only the police had done their job and restrained you and your clergy and laity in 2013, I could still have lived, damaged forever, but I could have rebuilt, I know that because I went on trying, building, even as you destroyed me, but you kept on and on taking my life away, until it got too late.

You repeatedly made it impossible for me to continue therapy, I invested time, money and trust in that therapy, and to see it broken because of your agenda in destroying me and covering up for the church's wrongdoing was catastrophic.

Are you aware, as the police should be, that I intend to go to Dignitas because your three year abuse of me took my life beyond healing? And are you also aware that suicide is legal in the UK, as long as it isn't assisted? This being the case, why did you and Jackie and Jane and Graham act dishonestly over claiming I was harming myself? The police need to know times, who was involved, and why. Self-harm of any kind is not illegal, abuse is, and you have abused me. You destroyed me, now why didn't the police call on you to arrest you for assisted suicide when your attempt on my life 18 months ago should have killed me.

Now, the police must act. And bring this horror story to an end. The police have been told very clearly to stop harassing me for you, they have been told the consequences, and they have been told to deal with you. Your silence regarding your harm to me, and your persistent use of the police against me illegally and without question, is to be investigated. If you and the police continue to make me out to be nuts to excuse you, what about your psychopathy that took my life? Your turn to be beaten and imprisoned.

I sit here and suffer, and you really couldn't care less. Your silence says so, and yet you can attack me with the police in pretence of care. Enough is enough, and I have told the police so. The Church of England have harmed me since I was 19 years old, I had 17 years of the worst childhood possible, and then an adulthood of the church destroying me for their crimes. I don't want to live, I can't live, with what you have done to me, your blame and condemnation of me through whitewash reports and lies and press and media smears.

Do you really not comprehend what you have done, and do you really intend to continue officiating without bringing any justice to my case? You have had me publicly smeared, discredited and destroyed, for no apparent reason at all except to protect wrongdoers, and why was that necessary? I was already effectively destroyed, branded, silenced, and left homeless to die? The point of violently re-punishing me publicly escapes me, but it is abuse, it is a criminal offence. The fact that the national safeguarding team and Jackie Rowlands uphold you and have harmed me further and without mercy says that they uphold abuse, are a danger to the vulnerable and are without morals or conscience.

Make sure you answer me, and the police must contact you and start to deal with this now. Every day that goes by without justice and with me smeared and branded and a fugitive is a day that you are an abuser who hasn't been brought to justice, and a day that I scream in anguish and wait for living death to become death.

The whole 17 years of church of england harm to me, especially the million pound three year reign of hatred that you led against me, has yet to be investigated, and as you are the lead attacker and abuser, who gave every wrongdoer a voice against me in the press and media, how about you provide the same money and press and media for me to answer that attack for three years, and I will do to you and the people who you enabled to hate and smear me, what you have done to me, but what would be the difference? You all have homes, families, money, lawyers, stability and a foundation, I had nothing, you took my family, friends and community in your hatred, and I had nothing else, and what little I built, you took, you have taken my access to medical help, therapy, support of any kind. Living condemned utterly and without access to help, a fugitive, living dead, is no life.

Your victim,

JJ 

A letter to the Archbishop and Bishops regarding abuse and cover up.

cc National 'Safeguarding' Team and IICSA

10/01/2017

Dear Bishops Willmott and Dakin and Archbishop Welby,

I enclose the reminder of the formal complaint sent to Bishop Willmott last year, unfortunately he decided to try and fob me off through his secretary, adding to his image of dishonesty, deceit and cowardice.

Please make sure that both my formal complaint against the behaviour of yourselves and the Godless, evil and criminal Jersey Deanery are now either addressed or passed to a competent safeguarding body, as it is clear from the pronouncements without evidence of the Archbishop and Bishop about safeguarding in Jersey being good, while I was being destroyed, that neither the Archbishop nor Bishop have the faintest clue what safeguarding is.

That is reinforced by the fact that the Archbishop and Bishops themselves have led a public attack on my character through a million pounds worth of criminal and illegal whitewashes slurring me and covering up for wrongdoers. If you consider safeguarding to be good when you have been effectively forcing me to my death and branding me publicly for the abusers who you have openly aided and upheld in harming me. Then at very least you don't know what safeguarding is.

You met with and condoned the powerful criminals from Jersey and spoke with them on the phone and allowed them to condemn me in the press and media, you provided legal and PR help for yourselves, and you never met with me, spoken to me (apart from the Bishop of Winchester threatening me) or provided me with legal or PR help as you destroyed me publicly while I was voiceless. 

So how is safeguarding good in the Church of England? Are you going to answer? Are you going to answer the person who you have scourged and crucified publicly?

You spent a million pounds glorifying yourselves at my expense and upholding each and every wrongdoer and abuser and branding me publicly for life, flinging your and their version of my personal life all over the press and all over the world. You made it clear you condone abuse and will always protect abusers and wrongdoers. Do you really believe this is safeguarding?

Now, where is the million pounds for an investigation into what happened to ME? And also into the illegally accessed records of the whitewash.

If you continue to refuse to take responsibility for your actions and the severe, life-limiting and permanent harm to me, then each one of you must step down.

Even if you genuinely believed the Dean to be innocent of wrongdoing, you had no right to turn the matter into a discrediting press stunt at my expense, having never met me or heard my side and having only listened to the money and power of the powerful circle of lawyers and dignitaries surrounding the Dean. Including those who illegally accessed and tampered with already inaccurate police and other records.

What you should have been doing rather than destroying me for the sake of the Church's image, was holding these men, including the Dean, to account for their Godless and criminal behaviour instead of adding and to it and including your own Godless and criminal behaviour.

The Dean of Jersey, without remorse or any sort of reprimand for his serious criminal and dangerous actions, especially in conjunction with his circle over the past four years, is to go on to positions where he will remain a danger to the vulnerable, and you have lauded and upheld him, so tell me how safeguarding in the Church of England is good?

You nearly ended my destroyed and shattered life with your public attack on me and upholding of wrongdoers and I remain in utter anguish and waiting for death. Obviously from your onslaught without mercy, you have made it clear that you want me dead, and indeed it would be best, because I couldn't recover from the previous harm to me, the last four years is something that no human being could come back from, no human being, be they whole or crippled. No-one could survive what you have done to me. You have utterly condemned me.

So, why have you received my requests for you to pay for my attendance at Dignitas to be humanely put to sleep, and not answered them?

 You had a million pounds to pay for glorifying yourselves at my expense and publicly destroying me, you had that money to pay for cover-up of your wicked and criminal actions against me, and you are reluctant to pay a few thousand for me to fly to Switzerland to be killed, after your sustained efforts left me shattered beyond healing but still unable to die? 

Please explain this. No-one can deny that your efforts at publicly vilifying me and spewing your version of my life into your complicit press could be anything other than a constructive murder, and in fairness I should now have been dead for three years, but sadly for you I am not, and I have offered you a solution for your failed murder, because I am never going to heal.

 A mutual solution would be dignitas, and it would be better than having to endure another Christmas ruined by Justin Welby, the man who destroyed me, trotting out another load of vain and empty lies written for him at Christmas, waffling the vain empty cliches about the poor and homeless while his victim, in poverty and anguish and having endured three years sleeping rough because of his church, goes on suffering.

Jesus Wept. Justin the Narcissist must be silent eventually, surely?

The things that strangers said about me and the lies that your criminal clergy and laity have broadcast in the press and media, leading to hate attacks and threats against me while I was voiceless and jeered at when I even tried to answer this hatred, will never heal and can never be justified by you as anything but your wish for my death in shame and brokenness, as has nearly occured and will eventually occur.

Please make sure that there is an independent investigation into all of what has happened to me, make sure it includes me and my voice, from my books if I am dead by the time it occurs, I have written my books to ensure that I am heard in death if not in life.

Make sure that your collective actions of the past four years is stringently and completely investigated.

This includes investigation into the Steel report being continued when she was chosen by and acting for, the Jersey Deanery, why she was not withdrawn when requested, with evidence of her confliction, why the Korris report was published and labelled independent when it wasn't and why Korris broke the law and why her report was not withdrawn until I took the Bishop to court. 

Also why the Bishop kept on and on discrediting me over the Steel report, claiming to withold it for my welfare when he had not sent me a copy, but was basically telling the general public that the report was genuine and I was in the wrong. 

Claiming to care about my welfare as he and the Archbishop nearly caused my suicide and he told the general public he was feeding the conflicted lies of Steel into the conflicted Gladwin report was an act of evil. My consent for that has not been granted. I have not agreed.

The Bishop failed to tell the general public that I was forced to take him to court to save my life, he failed to tell the general public that he was supposed to make sure I agreed with the content of the Steel report before it was released. He failed to ever send me a copy of the Steel report.

None of this matter has been about safeguarding, or protecting the vulnerable, or anything meriting a million pound waste of trusting congregants' money. The outcome for me has repeatedly been near death, it has been permanent and very severe harm to my health and a lifetime of being branded that makes me long for death. There is no recovery from the kind of hatred from strangers, threats and lies that have been broadcast, none at all.

And to make it worse, the whitewash by Jersey Safeguarding partnership, cooked up by the intermeshed States, police and Deanery and used by the church to harm me further, And then the use of the 'National Safeguarding Team' to try to sweep up the pieces and cover it up, rubbing my raw wounds with sandpaper while refusing to do anything about any of your collective criminal and dangerous harm to me.

They are still refusing to act, because apparently you have 'advised' them not to, and they are employed by the Archbishop and his council, presumably to cover up while duping vulnerable victims by whining about caring about them and learning from them, as Jane Dodds did with me. I was already in enough anguish and suffering in a way that will never now relent, I didn't need that insult to injury that was the National Safeguarding Team.

 And I am continuing and will continue, to ask them to act upon your serious and criminal safeguarding failures that should have led to you collectively being removed, and one day someone will see my emails and letters to them and ask them why they didn't act.

That is evil, it is wickedness, and it beggars belief that instead of resigning, You remain, still a risk to the vulnerable and after committing such evil.

Either the Church has no clue what safeguarding means or you men should resign. As long as you stay, after taking part in such evil and refuse to take responsibility for yourselves, you know that your church isn't safeguarding anyone and isn't anything to do with God.

You completely lack integrity and you compound that by making false claims and misleading the general public while upholding dangerous men in your church and leaving me destroyed.

I have a formal complaint. It starts with abuse when I was 19 and runs to the present day, it comprises of lack of safeguarding, sexual, physical and emotional abuse, slander, illegal actions, abuse of power over the press, false claims about safeguarding, very serious harm to me, me being exposed to hatred and slander, police brutality and intrusions, homelessness and imprisonment because of your safeguarding failures, it is exhaustive, it contains a list of people's names already sent to you. I have had no adequate response. I am waiting, I am suffering.

The longer you leave it, the worse your failure in safeguarding becomes.

I will be producing and publishing a report about the National Safeguarding Team's part of this, which will be sent to the CSA inquiry no matter whether you can or cannot bribe them. But you do need to call an overarching investigation into my case, and every day that you ignore that, you harm me. While you don't safeguard, the risk of abuse is high.

The Archbishop's lack of understanding of safeguarding led to him claiming that safeguarding in Jersey is good, he appears to mistake a prolonged and power-abusive smear and discrediting campaign using the press and media against a vulnerable adult by his clergy as 'Good safeguarding'.

 Obviously his lack of understanding of safeguarding is so serious that it is a risk to vulnerable lives, he certainly nearly caused my death and until and unless that is dealt with properly, then there is a serious safeguarding breach, worse even, a complicit act of cover-up carried out by Bishop Willmott and Archbishop Welby.

And again, if most vulnerable adults are more voiceless than me, how many are being killed this way, and with the blessing of the National Safeguarding Team, who yatter lies and rubbish at the victims to try and placate them as the victims commit suicide.

If the National Safeguarding Team, who are well aware of the wrong in this matter and have said as much to me before being gagged when it was realised that I couldn't be duped and silenced, do not arrange for the resignations of the the Bishops and Archbishop over their serious harm to me, then a court or inquiry must do so, and the National Safeguarding Team should also resign.

 They are following up their failure by allowing the Dean to 'resign' lauded and honoured, again at my expense while I endure a re-awakening of the threats and attacks on me over this, some people are fooled by this resignation and the Archbishop and Bath and Wells employing that criminal, but not all.

The Archbishop claims that the Dean is a 'Godly Man', really? Has the Archbishop ever read a Bible? Didn't I send him one the other year as he continued to uphold the harm to me relentlessly? Does deceit and lies and hiding behind people of power and lawyers constitute Godly? Oh yes,  because the Archbishop does it too.

Does destroying someone the way the Dean has destroyed me count as Godly? Maybe someone switched the Archbishop's Bible for a Satanism Manual. Because what the Archbishop himself has done is evil.

There is no God or Christianity or integrity or good or safeguarding in what the Archbishop and Bishops and Archbishop's Council have done in destroying, threatening and publicly ruining me. I was already destroyed before the public attack on me was launched and I have suffered without relief while a million pounds was spent on the church's image, lawyers, PR firms, press releases and four whitewashes that are nothing to do with what happened to me.

It is time for you Godless and terrible cowards to step down. Do a lie like the Dean's 'Resignation', do it any way you want, but before you go, make sure that there is an overarching inquiry and also that Peter Ould and Gavin Ashenden who continue to attack the vulnerable unafraid, because in the Archbishop's eyes that is good safeguarding and Godly behaviour, are removed, along with Elaine Rose and all staff and clergy who have harmed me.

The Church currently don't safeguard, because they mistake safeguarding for image and segregation to protect the church. How can the comfortable middle class know what safeguarding means when they don't understand vulnerability or suffering, to the extent that they have an apartheid against the vulnerable to protect themselves?

All the high profile employment of 'people from social care backgrounds' does not remove the apartheid or the fact that these new employees are not allowed to actually safeguard because the church must be protected first.

The horrifying behaviour of Dodds, Tilby and Murray in my case, thinking they could mislead me after allowing the Bishop and Archbishop to destroy me publicly and then gag it all, is all the proof you need of that.

Make sure that I receive my copy of the Steel report as requested, you have no excuse whatsoever to withold it, and make sure any agency asking for a copy if they are concerned for my welfare, are given a copy of it, and also do not lie to any agency about being in contact with me, trying to include me in reports or trying to help me.

Please send a copy of the Steel report to the IICSA and explain to them that this is how you classify an independent safeguarding report, a report carried out by a member of the conflicted inner circle of Jersey's States, Judiciary, lawyers and Town Church who protected the Dean and destroyed me.

Let me just remind you of the blog that Bob Hill created just before he collapsed while defending me from hate attacks instigated by your Steel whitewash and the conflicted circle's need to have it published and snuff out my life with their hatred in the form of a report. Your million pound safeguarding failure and cover up cost this man his life.

http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2015/11/jerseys-dean-letter-to-archbishop-of.html

Your pretences of care for my welfare while you destroyed me were the same as a rapist telling his victim he loved them as he raped them. Despicable and inexcusable,  you can't cold-bloodedly destroy someone and pretend to care about them for the sake of PR, it is despicable.

And do you really think you can excuse yourselves based on what you have heard about me? It beggars belief.  You've never met me. You must resign.

sincerely,

HG/JJ -  Church of England safeguarding failure victim.

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A formal letter

Formal Complaint against the Archbishop of Canterbury and the failure to record the matter properly by phone this morning CC: IICSA and to be published online.

Dear William Nye and Archbishop's council,

This complaint is copied to the police, who for years have beaten and imprisoned me to try to silence me for the Church of England. I am alive but horrifically damaged and eventually I will collapse as Bob Hill did while trying to defend me against the Church.  

The Church haven't taken responsibility for Bob's collapse or the harm to me, but the police have a duty to deal with the Church, the police are afraid to deal with Bishops and Archbishops and their hefty and Godless legal teams that invalidate the Church of England, as is seen in the cases of Peter Ball and Bishop Bell and the former Bishop of Gloucester, the police prefer victim suicides and silencing victims because they are afraid of the Church and it's massive and abusive power. 

But nonetheless they do have my complaints and they will be asked why they didn't deal with them as well as why they refused for so many years to stop the Church of England from harming me. What the police can do to start with, is formally ask the Church to refer my case to a competent safeguarding body outside of the Church of England, which is what I have now be requesting for three months.

Police please note, the Bishop of Winchester has breached a court agreement over the Steel report. He was not allowed to publish or distribute the Steel report without having first got agreement on its accuracy and consent from me, and instead of telling the press and media and general public this, he has claimed that the Steel report is valid and that he is handing it over to the conflicted and biased Bishop Gladwin to include in his report. 

Handing it over to Gladwin breaches the court order instantly. The Bishop has still failed to send me my copy of the Steel report, which despite being written by a conflicted member of the Jersey circle and not including me, was supposed to be about my case.

This morning I phoned the office of the Archbishop's council as it is obvious that nothing is being done about the open corruption, deceit and abuse by the Archbishop of Canterbury and Bishop of Winchester in my case and the very serious harm that he and the Bishop of Winchester have done to me. 

Surely it is the biggest safeguarding failure in the Church of England apart from the Peter Ball and Kendal House cases, and yet my case is unique in that the harm was carried out while the Archbishop and Paul Butler have been keeping up this front about the Church 'caring about safeguarding'.  And less unique in that the Church of England intend to keep silence and not act while the wrongdoers involved are still in office.  

There is no good outcome of the Church spending a million pounds to publicly destroy a very broken and homeless vulnerable adult and uphold her abusers publicly, there is no good conclusion and no glory in it for the Church of England, all they have achieved is a statement that they will protect abusers, publicly at any cost, even at the cost of the life of a brave man and a vulnerable adult and they will discredit the victim after carrying out a number of biased whitewashes that they incredibly try to label independent. Someone needs to define both safeguarding and independent to the Church as they consistently mis-use these words.

The Church don't care about safeguarding, they care about covering up, looking good, and using anything they can as PR and limelight stunts. The Church have been persistently using the crime of sexual assault as a limelight stunt since the current Archbishop took his position, which reflects very badly on him indeed. But anyone who saw him use his 'Father/s' as a press stunt will know that he has never been fit for his office as he doesn't represent Jesus in his twisted use of his personal life to gain attention. Why are the police and authorities not challenging the Church on these serious abuses of the public and the vulnerable?

This morning's phone conversation reflected the fact that nothing has changed in the closed fortress of cover up and denial in the Church of England. I doubt with all my heart that anyone will 'phone me back' as suggested by the terrified woman who was breaking the 'no communication with HG' rule' this morning. And if only it was just me, Eli Ward, Graham Sawyer and every victim who has contacted me has been treated this way.

The Archbishop's persistent use of church sexual assaults as a PR stunt whilst not changing the Church's horrendous treatment of victims means that he isn't really in a position to continue, but his very blatant and open favouritism in the Jersey Deanery case means he certainly should step down, and this is a formal complaint to that effect. 

The damage to me of the public discrediting by the Archbishop and his refusal to deal with open wrongdoing in the Jersey Deanery and by the Bishop of Winchester means he cannot be upheld as a Godly man or an example of Christianity, and his habit of using current affairs as press stunts to get limelight for the Church annoys a lot of people.

What kind of human being does as the Archbishop has done, in upholding both the Jersey Deanery and the Bishop of Winchester in open and blatant deceit, abuse of power and very serious harm to a vulnerable adult and claiming that no wrong has been done? I am still suffering the way the Church has publicly destroyed me, and neither the Bishop or Archbishop have met me or recorded my story, what a terrible way to waste a million pounds, on destroying a vulnerable adults who has already suffered too much.

And although the lady I spoke to this morning was perfectly polite, it became clear that she wanted to get off the phone and close the matter down quite quickly once she realised who I was. So nothing has changed in the Church's fortress of denial and corruption. Branding a vulnerable adult is never acceptable, branding them when they are homeless and destroyed by the Church is as far from Christianity as you can get. 

Why, in this day and age is the Church still allowed to abuse its power this way? And incidentally why is this wealthy corporation allowed to have dual roles as charity and government department and why does the Synod hoard billions and make local churches waste sermons on begging money to keep the church running? Why if the Church is a 'Christian Church' are they not dealing with abuse and abusers properly and making provision for victims?

When the Archbishop publicly destroyed me earlier this year, with the help of the Bishop of Winchester, he had never met me, neither had the Bishop.

The National Safeguarding team added to the injury caused by the Bishop and Archbishop and their complicit press by claiming that 'The Church didn't mean to hurt me' what a stupid thing to say to someone who has been publicly destroyed for three and a half years by the Church through the press and media, what exactly did they mean to do then? The National Safeguarding Team are invalid until or unless they are independent of the Church of England and not under the people who are doing the wrong and are not acting complicit with wrongdoers to cover up and excuse wrongdoing.

This morning on the phone the woman started out as all Church of England people do, all polite, she asked if it was a safeguarding or general complaint, well it is both but the National Safeguarding Team were told to ignore me when they didn't get what they wanted from me. Graham Tilby actually told me he was told to ignore the distress that he and Jane Dodds provoked in their denial of my situation and efforts to force a meeting on me rather than deal with my complaint.

They wanted me to be complicit in the Bishop's discrediting attack on me, and tried to make me and the Bishop communicate despite the fact that I took him to court in 2014 to stop him from killing me by handing the whitewash steel report over to William Bailhache, one of the conflicted Church-States members who had elected Steel for the cover up. 

The Bishop and Archbishop, while misleading the press and public with impunity, seem unable to tell the press or the public about how Steel was conflicted and I was forced to file against the Bishop as  litigant in person when I was so ill.

The National Safeguarding team have refused to address this massive safeguarding failure of the past three and a half years and kept on and on trying to get me into a meeting 'To support me', and no doubt other vulnerable victims fall for this part in the Church's cover-up machine, but not me, I won't meet with people who are complicit in cover-up and harm to a vulnerable adult, who have stood by and knowingly allowed harm as Tilby, Dodds and Murray have, and who have been engaged in this harm as well, for example liaising with the Bishop of Winchester to cover his back. How terrible that anyone who claims to be in safeguarding would act this way.

If the National Safeguarding Team can't see the very serious misconducts and harm to me by the actions of the Archbishop, Bishop and Jersey Deanery and complicit press, they can certainly see the harm to Bob Hill for defending my life with his own, the only reasons they have not acted is because they don't understand safeguarding or they are unwilling to deal with the powerful wrongdoers, both of these things invalidate them and while the wrongdoers remain and I have not had an equal voice in the press and media who carried out the Church of England's massive abuse of power in this case, then I remain suffering. 

You can't get all abuse victims, vulnerable as they are, to obligingly trot into the cover-ups and cover-up meetings that Dodds and Tilby kept putting me under pressure to bow to and attend. I wonder how many other victims have been silenced this way? 

On the subject, Tilby claimed that Elaine Rose, the woman who has defended and condoned the bad behaviour of the Jersey Deanery, had any right to liaise with the conflicted Jersey Safeguarding Partnership over their whitewash serious case review, and he claimed he could get a copy of the serious case review whitewash.

 He didn't have my consent, and no-one has had my consent to view that set-up whitewash. It is another defamatory cover-up created by a woman who is facing charges for perversion of the course of justice, and it was created for and by the same dignitaries in Jersey who engineered the Steel whitewash. It is invalid and since the failure of the Steel report, those dignitaries in Jersey have clamoured for the release of this whitewash and even launched a troll attack on me using a fake gov.je email address.

This morning the lady on the phone was taking my details as normal until I mentioned the Korris report, and all of a sudden, whoever was in the office with her tipped her the wink and she rapidly tried to close the matter down and started talking about how 'someone would give me a response' rather than anything being done about my complaint. No-one will 'give me a response' because the Church take legal advice against their victims and their legal advice is to ignore me and not speak to me.

 Safeguarding? No, they destroyed me to close the Jersey matter down and now they are ignoring me, so the best thing the Archbishop can do is stop using sexual assault to try to glorify the Church in the press and media at the expense of victims, and step down. 

The Church recently had another feeble effort over their inadequate and conflicted 'independent inquiries in the press', they chose a man who protected Greville Janner and shared an office with another high profile paedophile, to lead an investigation into the Bishop Bell case, which will undoubtedly harm the victim, and yet they haven't arranged an independent investigation into the misconducts of the Archbishop and Bishop in my case, where a million pounds was spent, mainly on lawyers and PR firms because of the complete and utter mess they made in launching the non-independent and unqualified 'Korris' report into the press and allowing me to be publicly destroyed. The police need to respond to the illegal release of the Korris report as it was sent to them to compound the cover-up that they took part in through harming me and not protecting me from the Church of England when asked.

This matter isn't going to go away through the Church ignoring me, and the Safeguarding team who failed me have been asked to refer my case to a safeguarding body outside of the Church of England and to make sure an independent inquiry is called, and presumably the reason that they can't call an inquiry in my case as they did in the cases of Bell, Ball, etc is because the wrongdoers involved are still in their positions!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nonetheless, this is a repeat request for an independent inquiry and this letter and everything I have said will not go away, nor will the open and glaring wrongs of the Church of England.

I wouldn't put it past the Church to do another whitewash without telling me and claim the same results as well as claiming an independent inquiry was carried out. No, as yet no inquiry has included me, no action was taken over conflicts of interests, no appropriate action was taken, and in Jersey they allowed open and free tampering with my records to cover up and aid the whitewash, how horrifying. The Church of England needs to be properly regulated, the authorities need to stop bowing to this massive power-abusive corporation which is akin to a Nazi regime, no-one should stand by now, because my case and the open abuse of power and illegal actions is a step too far.

The Church need to decide whether they are a charity or a government department and be regulated either as a charity or a government department, and with their bad record and bad name, that regulation needs to be from outside the Church.

Police, please be aware, as I have told you before, that I am due to suffer another vicious onslaught from the press and media when the Dean announces his forthcoming retirement, which seems for some reason to be delayed. The damage to me by the press and media, since the Church have released my details and identity to the general public, is a criminal act and you are aware from my correspondence just how weak and destroyed I am.

This is a formal complaint and also a formal request for independent and police intervention into my case.

Sincerely,

JJ/HG - Korris report victim