Hey peeps,
I remember how I was still alive and mischeevous when I used to do new year's revolutions such as converting the Church of England to Christianity, but now my back is broken, I am finished and dying branded and shamed, my only revolution is to finish writing my books before the church and their police finish killing me.
Saturday, 31 December 2016
The Year 2016
It has been an incredibly hard year, not that there have been any easy years. I am only doing a brief recap of the year this year as I am moving house and am very tired and ill.
I feel I should still do an account of the year even if my heart isn't in it. And in a way I am worried that I am repeating what is already in the books 'Coming Home' and 'Homecoming'.
January.
In January this year I was somehow surviving on almost no money at all due to unfairly losing my tax credits and my work was very low as well, the winter is a hard time for gardeners and for me it was my first year back in work and I had been living hand to mouth and unable to prepare for winter. So I was in absolute poverty in January.
I was doing my best with my second term at university but it was a sad hard time. Christmas Day 2015 was the last time I saw my friend alive and she died in January of this year.
I continued to fight to rebuild my life despite the sadness and poverty, as I had no idea that the Church of England would destroy me and make it all worthless a few months later.
There was that disastrous day in January when I woke up to a leak in the roof and water dripping onto my laptop, and then Florence broke down in the pouring rain and floods in the middle of nowhere as I delivered the papers round the villages. Thankfully I managed to bump start her and get her home, but she needed a new starter motor.
I was coming to the end of my work delivering papers on the rural routes now anyway as it had been too much stress for me and Florence, and we swapped for a smaller, local round.
The wet weather and local flooding continued.
I joined a running course and was running well but it was badly arranged and hard to keep up with. When my friend died, I remember running and crying, and I renamed the blog 'The Journey Home' for some reason. Partly because Jane Fisher seemed to have vanished and I felt almost as if I had a right to live again despite losing my best friend.
I didn't get on with all my friend's family and I chose not to attend the funeral, I couldn't cope with them and I was too weak myself.
I was doing my best, despite my terror, to endure hospital appointments about my jaw as I now had a good dentist and he had been concerned about my jaw, the hospital backed up this concern and wanted to splint my jaw and do biopsies and things, but I was so tired, so ill and so I bottled out of hospital treatment. Quite apart from anything, I couldn't afford to get to the hospital and pay for parking or bus fares, I had no money and no-one was helping me.
I was attending gym regularly and getting on with a lot of exercise, and I was working a very quiet delivery driving shift and getting a lot of study done while I sat and waited for deliveries.
February
In February I started some more work to tide me over, leaflet distribution. Hard and unrewarding work but at least it kept me fit and started to bring money in.
I was treated dreadfully bu the first company I did leaflets for but I was spotted by someone who got me to take on a leaflet job for them as well, they paid me properly and I applied to get my tax credits back, and eventually I ended up doing delivery driving for them when I was treated too badly by the other place. These jobs aren't nice or permanent but what mattered was that I was earning a living.
The weather turned from wet to icy and I continued to try to lower my blood pressure after the crisis with Bob Hill's collapse had sent me into blood pressure crisis.
I decided to go ahead with my sponsored 70 mile walk even though I felt awful, depressed and ill, and I knew it would be hard doing the walk without my friend or any support.
I was walking to raise money for a charity that my youth group used to support when I was younger, because that charity came up in my university studies as a case study. I planned the walk for Easter.
I went out with my social group, a rare thing now because the damage by the church had been such that I just didn't want to go out any more. I was sad that the social group were reluctant to support my walk.
It was a leap year but I didn't propose to anyone, so my poor old neighbour downstairs remained unmarried until he died, despite the fact that he called me beautiful every time he saw me.
March
March appears to be quite nondescript. On March 8th I fell and my house keys went flying and I did a little
I had a dream in March, it seems to have almost been a prophecy, about the police. As you know, the police turned up in September this year and I hit the roof.
This is from the dream I had in March
And the police turned up.
The police actually took things seriously and wanted to question me on what I had seen, imagine if that happened in real life!
Anyway. In the dream I was furious with the police because they have treated me so badly in real life.
So I raged at them for what they have done to me, and they stood there looking surprised.
Poor dream-officers, it wasn't all their fault!
Anyway, I woke up thinking 'What on earth!' Because that was way too vivid and cohesive.
March was nondescript, and I was short of money, and at one point I accidentally let Florence's battery go flat.
The Channel Islands were having ferry problems so I wrote them yet another poem.
The plight of the condor:
Engine failure
mechanical issues
weather issues
new boat detained
Goodwill under water
Clipper in for repair
Liberation captured
and Islanders in Despair
I started the sponsored walk on Good Friday, trying to get ahead of the forthcoming bad weather. I didn't feel like walking or celebrating Easter, but the first day or two of the walk was good weather so I survived, I took time off from all my work except delivery driving as I was the only driver. But later in the week the weather turned very bad with wind and rain and it was hard to complete the last Great Walk.
The sponsored walk put me in the mood for a spring clean and clearout of the rubbish I owned, and that is how March ended.
April
My friend was taking me to Opera and ballet, and I liked ballet but not opera at first.
Justin Welby decided that he would announce to the world that he spat on Jesus, by using the press and media for a stunt about his various fathers. Amazinly the world let him do this and limelight seeking leaders in other churches 'supported' him.
I made a complaint to the papers and ofcom and ipso that as Welby's corporation were under investigation for systemic child rape, they should not be advertising themselves but should have the decency to be quiet while under investigation, even for the sake of their victims.
The fact that I was delivering newspapers and had to deliver Welby's narcissistic stunt to so many houses left me off work ill. And of course Welby doesn't care if one of his victims starve, as long as people are mistakenly worshipping him.
I started to try to arrange a support worker for myself but it was impossible in my poverty and the unstable situation that the church were keeping me in.
Towards the end of April I was starting to revise for a music exam and end of term assessments for university, and my landlady got me to clean a filthy flat with a dying resident in it, cleaning that flat made me ill and I was under stress over revision as well, so it wasn't an easy time.
Hillsbourough Campaigners started to win a much-deserved victory in April, and Junior Doctors started striking.
I wrote a blog post about Bob Hill, and I felt better for it, because I felt to blame for his collapse even though he had hurt me a lot in his efforts to 'solve' my case.
My landlady went through a weird phase of offering me a downstairs flat and withdrawing the offer repeatedly, leaving me confused and upset, she appeared to be having major problems in her own life and was acting bizarrely.
May
This was the month of my exams and also the month that the church destroyed me. It is hard to write about.
I am not sure I want to go through it all again. I have been destroyed and waiting to die ever since.
The music exam was at the beginning of the month, and there was already a problem with the landlady hanging around the house and being weird and I was under stress. Then the day before the exam I witnessed an accident outside the house, a collision between a van and a motorbike, which left me shocked.
I still got the exam and passed it.
But then I was ill with stress, tired and in pain from the injuries seizing up with stress.
Immediately the Church of England launched upon me as I tried to pull myself together and do my end of term assessments.
It might be easier for my health if rather than go into details of the evil committed against me by the Bishop of Winchester and Archbishop of Canterbury, aided by the National Safeguarding Team, I post this, which sums up why there was a million pound cover-up that condemned me and my life and upheld criminal wrongdoers
And so I was destroyed to cover up for evil. And there is no safeguarding in the Church of England.
The church had spent a million pounds covering up for their evil and doing so at the expense of my life and health, and they wanted to bring it to a close, at my expense, in the press and media, discrediting me and upholding the wrongoders.
The damage is done and it would have been better if I had died in May. They continue to refuse to redact their discrediting and bring an independent investigation into my case, well if they did allow an investigation a number of people would have to resign or be arrested.
June
I managed to scrape through my university exams despite there being no point in life any more.
And it was all only getting worse.
I was being plagued by an idiot called Jane Dodds who wanted the Church cover-up neatly swept away and me co-erced into saying that being utterly destroyed was fine. She was caseworker for the national safeguarding team of the church on a voluntary basis before she suddenly vanished after adding to the harm to me.
But it was all worse, the situation where I lived had already been precarious before the church destroyed me, and I felt that I had no choice but to give notice, and I did.
My work was falling apart as well, and Florence, the car, was due her MOT and I was sure I couldn't get her through the MOT.
I was going to lose Florence and my home and the rest of my life was already destroyed by the church, it felt as if all my work in rebuilding my life had been for nothing.
Bob Hill came out of hospital after many months but he couldn't speak, he wasn't quite the same Bob.
And then my tax credits were restored, so Florence went back to her old owners to be overhauled and sold on, I took Max, her younger brother, off their hands for a bit more than I paid for Florence.
I wrote this: http://lifeafterthediocese.blogspot.co.uk/2016/06/archbishop-abuse-case.html
Jersey's failed and disgraced safeguarding partnership started harassing me in earnest over their whitewash report into my case and trying to force me to agree to it's publication, just as I prepared to move house and just after the move.
The house move and buying Max left me short of money and I nearly became dangerously ill with low blood sugar when food ran out.
I moved to the new house at the end of June. I was utterly exhausted, destroyed by the church and not sure what to do, I knew that the new place wasn't going to be a permentant home, it was right by a pub and with no parking and was mainly benefits tenants and a lot more run down than the old place. But what could I do? Everything I had built up was smashed down.
July
I started looking for more work despite the state I was in, I couldn't afford to sit around, but I was too unsure of most of the work that was on offer, but a gardening team who I had been in contact with in the past offered me sub-contract work and I took them up on it and have been working with them part time ever since as well as doing my own gardening rounds.
Max started having catalyst problems, and as I write this, we intend to change his catalyst in the new year. But it was worrying to start with as I didn't know what was wrong.
I started writing and preparing Manuscripts, and in July I started writing 'Coming Home' which kept me sane and occupied after my whole world had collapsed and been swept away, and I managed to keep going as a result, even with increasingly vile attacks by Jersey safeguarding partnership, culminating in their famous troll attack instigated by Ian Gorst.
August
On the same day as Battle of Flowers in Jersey, I marshaled for the local carnival. I hadn't marshaled since I used to marshal for Battle when I was in Jersey. If I wasn't in such a broken state then I would have said that this was a positive sign but after the horrific unhealable wounds inflicted by the church and Jersey Safeguarding Partnership, I wasn't recovering, I just happened to marshal, and it wasn't brilliant really, I just got posted outside a local church who I had been helping and they treated me like royalty, apart from that I didn't enjoy marshaling and wasn't fit to be there. I pretended it was great and wonderful but I felt like death.
On August 22nd I published my first three books, 'Goodnight Anna', 'Coming Home' and 'The Silent World'. And the books haven't stopped. I think including some in private circulation, there are about 18, and some of those are duplicated into other forms as well, such as e-books.
I re-started my music lessons which had been ruined by the church and poverty and I was revising for a grade 5 exam.
I had no idea what was about to happen.
September
Before the world shattered, I was preparing a new book, and I was starting to do short story competitions as well as preparing for university and revising for my grade 5 exam.
On September 3rd, in a grotesque parody of my old life, I stewarded at a local horticultural show, but to me it was just going through the motions, what I had before is gone forever, my community, my friends, my shows, the church destroyed it all, and I felt more sad and useless than anything else, but the people wanted me to start showing again for next year and they were trying to arrange me some land, which would have gone ahead if the police attack hadn't happened.
You may remember I posted this:
I feel I should still do an account of the year even if my heart isn't in it. And in a way I am worried that I am repeating what is already in the books 'Coming Home' and 'Homecoming'.
January.
In January this year I was somehow surviving on almost no money at all due to unfairly losing my tax credits and my work was very low as well, the winter is a hard time for gardeners and for me it was my first year back in work and I had been living hand to mouth and unable to prepare for winter. So I was in absolute poverty in January.
I was doing my best with my second term at university but it was a sad hard time. Christmas Day 2015 was the last time I saw my friend alive and she died in January of this year.
I continued to fight to rebuild my life despite the sadness and poverty, as I had no idea that the Church of England would destroy me and make it all worthless a few months later.
There was that disastrous day in January when I woke up to a leak in the roof and water dripping onto my laptop, and then Florence broke down in the pouring rain and floods in the middle of nowhere as I delivered the papers round the villages. Thankfully I managed to bump start her and get her home, but she needed a new starter motor.
I was coming to the end of my work delivering papers on the rural routes now anyway as it had been too much stress for me and Florence, and we swapped for a smaller, local round.
The wet weather and local flooding continued.
I joined a running course and was running well but it was badly arranged and hard to keep up with. When my friend died, I remember running and crying, and I renamed the blog 'The Journey Home' for some reason. Partly because Jane Fisher seemed to have vanished and I felt almost as if I had a right to live again despite losing my best friend.
I didn't get on with all my friend's family and I chose not to attend the funeral, I couldn't cope with them and I was too weak myself.
I was doing my best, despite my terror, to endure hospital appointments about my jaw as I now had a good dentist and he had been concerned about my jaw, the hospital backed up this concern and wanted to splint my jaw and do biopsies and things, but I was so tired, so ill and so I bottled out of hospital treatment. Quite apart from anything, I couldn't afford to get to the hospital and pay for parking or bus fares, I had no money and no-one was helping me.
I was attending gym regularly and getting on with a lot of exercise, and I was working a very quiet delivery driving shift and getting a lot of study done while I sat and waited for deliveries.
February
In February I started some more work to tide me over, leaflet distribution. Hard and unrewarding work but at least it kept me fit and started to bring money in.
I was treated dreadfully bu the first company I did leaflets for but I was spotted by someone who got me to take on a leaflet job for them as well, they paid me properly and I applied to get my tax credits back, and eventually I ended up doing delivery driving for them when I was treated too badly by the other place. These jobs aren't nice or permanent but what mattered was that I was earning a living.
The weather turned from wet to icy and I continued to try to lower my blood pressure after the crisis with Bob Hill's collapse had sent me into blood pressure crisis.
I decided to go ahead with my sponsored 70 mile walk even though I felt awful, depressed and ill, and I knew it would be hard doing the walk without my friend or any support.
I was walking to raise money for a charity that my youth group used to support when I was younger, because that charity came up in my university studies as a case study. I planned the walk for Easter.
I went out with my social group, a rare thing now because the damage by the church had been such that I just didn't want to go out any more. I was sad that the social group were reluctant to support my walk.
It was a leap year but I didn't propose to anyone, so my poor old neighbour downstairs remained unmarried until he died, despite the fact that he called me beautiful every time he saw me.
March
March appears to be quite nondescript. On March 8th I fell and my house keys went flying and I did a little
I had a dream in March, it seems to have almost been a prophecy, about the police. As you know, the police turned up in September this year and I hit the roof.
This is from the dream I had in March
And the police turned up.
The police actually took things seriously and wanted to question me on what I had seen, imagine if that happened in real life!
Anyway. In the dream I was furious with the police because they have treated me so badly in real life.
So I raged at them for what they have done to me, and they stood there looking surprised.
Poor dream-officers, it wasn't all their fault!
Anyway, I woke up thinking 'What on earth!' Because that was way too vivid and cohesive.
March was nondescript, and I was short of money, and at one point I accidentally let Florence's battery go flat.
The Channel Islands were having ferry problems so I wrote them yet another poem.
The plight of the condor:
Engine failure
mechanical issues
weather issues
new boat detained
Goodwill under water
Clipper in for repair
Liberation captured
and Islanders in Despair
I started the sponsored walk on Good Friday, trying to get ahead of the forthcoming bad weather. I didn't feel like walking or celebrating Easter, but the first day or two of the walk was good weather so I survived, I took time off from all my work except delivery driving as I was the only driver. But later in the week the weather turned very bad with wind and rain and it was hard to complete the last Great Walk.
The sponsored walk put me in the mood for a spring clean and clearout of the rubbish I owned, and that is how March ended.
April
My friend was taking me to Opera and ballet, and I liked ballet but not opera at first.
Justin Welby decided that he would announce to the world that he spat on Jesus, by using the press and media for a stunt about his various fathers. Amazinly the world let him do this and limelight seeking leaders in other churches 'supported' him.
I made a complaint to the papers and ofcom and ipso that as Welby's corporation were under investigation for systemic child rape, they should not be advertising themselves but should have the decency to be quiet while under investigation, even for the sake of their victims.
The fact that I was delivering newspapers and had to deliver Welby's narcissistic stunt to so many houses left me off work ill. And of course Welby doesn't care if one of his victims starve, as long as people are mistakenly worshipping him.
I started to try to arrange a support worker for myself but it was impossible in my poverty and the unstable situation that the church were keeping me in.
Towards the end of April I was starting to revise for a music exam and end of term assessments for university, and my landlady got me to clean a filthy flat with a dying resident in it, cleaning that flat made me ill and I was under stress over revision as well, so it wasn't an easy time.
Hillsbourough Campaigners started to win a much-deserved victory in April, and Junior Doctors started striking.
I wrote a blog post about Bob Hill, and I felt better for it, because I felt to blame for his collapse even though he had hurt me a lot in his efforts to 'solve' my case.
My landlady went through a weird phase of offering me a downstairs flat and withdrawing the offer repeatedly, leaving me confused and upset, she appeared to be having major problems in her own life and was acting bizarrely.
May
This was the month of my exams and also the month that the church destroyed me. It is hard to write about.
I am not sure I want to go through it all again. I have been destroyed and waiting to die ever since.
The music exam was at the beginning of the month, and there was already a problem with the landlady hanging around the house and being weird and I was under stress. Then the day before the exam I witnessed an accident outside the house, a collision between a van and a motorbike, which left me shocked.
I still got the exam and passed it.
But then I was ill with stress, tired and in pain from the injuries seizing up with stress.
Immediately the Church of England launched upon me as I tried to pull myself together and do my end of term assessments.
It might be easier for my health if rather than go into details of the evil committed against me by the Bishop of Winchester and Archbishop of Canterbury, aided by the National Safeguarding Team, I post this, which sums up why there was a million pound cover-up that condemned me and my life and upheld criminal wrongdoers
And so I was destroyed to cover up for evil. And there is no safeguarding in the Church of England.
The church had spent a million pounds covering up for their evil and doing so at the expense of my life and health, and they wanted to bring it to a close, at my expense, in the press and media, discrediting me and upholding the wrongoders.
The damage is done and it would have been better if I had died in May. They continue to refuse to redact their discrediting and bring an independent investigation into my case, well if they did allow an investigation a number of people would have to resign or be arrested.
June
I managed to scrape through my university exams despite there being no point in life any more.
And it was all only getting worse.
I was being plagued by an idiot called Jane Dodds who wanted the Church cover-up neatly swept away and me co-erced into saying that being utterly destroyed was fine. She was caseworker for the national safeguarding team of the church on a voluntary basis before she suddenly vanished after adding to the harm to me.
But it was all worse, the situation where I lived had already been precarious before the church destroyed me, and I felt that I had no choice but to give notice, and I did.
My work was falling apart as well, and Florence, the car, was due her MOT and I was sure I couldn't get her through the MOT.
I was going to lose Florence and my home and the rest of my life was already destroyed by the church, it felt as if all my work in rebuilding my life had been for nothing.
Bob Hill came out of hospital after many months but he couldn't speak, he wasn't quite the same Bob.
And then my tax credits were restored, so Florence went back to her old owners to be overhauled and sold on, I took Max, her younger brother, off their hands for a bit more than I paid for Florence.
I wrote this: http://lifeafterthediocese.blogspot.co.uk/2016/06/archbishop-abuse-case.html
Jersey's failed and disgraced safeguarding partnership started harassing me in earnest over their whitewash report into my case and trying to force me to agree to it's publication, just as I prepared to move house and just after the move.
The house move and buying Max left me short of money and I nearly became dangerously ill with low blood sugar when food ran out.
I moved to the new house at the end of June. I was utterly exhausted, destroyed by the church and not sure what to do, I knew that the new place wasn't going to be a permentant home, it was right by a pub and with no parking and was mainly benefits tenants and a lot more run down than the old place. But what could I do? Everything I had built up was smashed down.
July
I started looking for more work despite the state I was in, I couldn't afford to sit around, but I was too unsure of most of the work that was on offer, but a gardening team who I had been in contact with in the past offered me sub-contract work and I took them up on it and have been working with them part time ever since as well as doing my own gardening rounds.
Max started having catalyst problems, and as I write this, we intend to change his catalyst in the new year. But it was worrying to start with as I didn't know what was wrong.
I started writing and preparing Manuscripts, and in July I started writing 'Coming Home' which kept me sane and occupied after my whole world had collapsed and been swept away, and I managed to keep going as a result, even with increasingly vile attacks by Jersey safeguarding partnership, culminating in their famous troll attack instigated by Ian Gorst.
August
On the same day as Battle of Flowers in Jersey, I marshaled for the local carnival. I hadn't marshaled since I used to marshal for Battle when I was in Jersey. If I wasn't in such a broken state then I would have said that this was a positive sign but after the horrific unhealable wounds inflicted by the church and Jersey Safeguarding Partnership, I wasn't recovering, I just happened to marshal, and it wasn't brilliant really, I just got posted outside a local church who I had been helping and they treated me like royalty, apart from that I didn't enjoy marshaling and wasn't fit to be there. I pretended it was great and wonderful but I felt like death.
On August 22nd I published my first three books, 'Goodnight Anna', 'Coming Home' and 'The Silent World'. And the books haven't stopped. I think including some in private circulation, there are about 18, and some of those are duplicated into other forms as well, such as e-books.
I re-started my music lessons which had been ruined by the church and poverty and I was revising for a grade 5 exam.
I had no idea what was about to happen.
September
Before the world shattered, I was preparing a new book, and I was starting to do short story competitions as well as preparing for university and revising for my grade 5 exam.
On September 3rd, in a grotesque parody of my old life, I stewarded at a local horticultural show, but to me it was just going through the motions, what I had before is gone forever, my community, my friends, my shows, the church destroyed it all, and I felt more sad and useless than anything else, but the people wanted me to start showing again for next year and they were trying to arrange me some land, which would have gone ahead if the police attack hadn't happened.
You may remember I posted this:
“I sit alone in a dead world. The wind blows hot and dry, and the dust gathers like particles of memory waiting to be swept away. I pray for forgetfulness, yet my memory remains strong, as does the outstretched arm of the oppressive air. It seems as if the wind has been there since the beginning of the nightmare. Sometimes loud and harsh, a thousand sharp needles scratching at my reddened skin. Sometimes a whisper, a curious sigh in the black of night, of words more frightening than pain. I know now the wind has been speaking to me. Only I couldn't understand because I was too scared. I am scared now as I write these words. Still, there is nothing else to do.”
Christopher Pike - Whisper of Death
September 5th 2016, it was raining in the morning, just enough to delay my work, so I was out and about, doing other things.
It was when I came back that my world stopped. I don't know if the shock and revulsion and terror will ever fade.
All was well, well as well as it could be after the horrific damage by the church and safeguarding partnership, and I was walking up to the flats, my landlord was working on the shop below the flats and he said hello and smiled, and I said hello and smiled, all normal, and then the world stopped and never re-started.
My landlord said to me 'You see that car there? That car belongs to two police, a woman and a man and they have come to see you'.
I am crying as I write this. I am severely traumatized. It was the end of my home, my safety and the last remnants of the life I had rebuilt, my safety and welfare depended on being a fugitive, and the bastards had found me.
My landlord told me that this man and woman had come all the way to find me, quite a journey, and they were 'concerned for my welfare'. They had come all the way from Jane Fisher's local police station, Jane Fisher, who repeatedly had me beaten and imprisoned to silence me for the church.
Those of you who don't know what 'concern for my welfare' means, it means the police consider you to be insane and meriting a beating and imprisonment for your abusers.
The most horrifying things about this were that the bastards had actually been discussing me with my landlord, but worse, they had been able to trace me after all my efforts to be in hiding. I was done for, my new identity was my safety, the thing I relied on to not be branded and driven out, and the bastards would probably have ripped through my whole life, friends, community and private records and privacy and contacts, in order to destroy me again as they were doing now.
The one and only advantage I had was that the bastards had left their car and gone off somewhere.
I was hungry and I couldn't flee without my ID and food and things I needed, so I had no choice but to go into my flat.
Unfortunately the bastards came back as I did so, I had told the landlord that when they came back, to tell them to leave and never come back or I would make a harassment complaint.
But unfortunately he had given them my phone number. And I was trapped in my home because they wouldn't leave.
Instead of leaving, the bastards tried to phone me.
I told them to leave or I would make a harassment complaint.
They weren't taking no for an answer and tried to text me.
I emailed professional standards and told them to get their bastards off my doorstep.
The bastards tried to leave but their car broke down and my landlord had to help them bump start it as they didn't know how! He never stopped laughing but I wasn't laughing, because when they showed no sign of leaving, I climbed out the skylight and onto the roof, and I am scared of heights, I was terrified, traumatised and sobbing as my world shattered again.
I haven't recovered even now, as you may have noticed, I am very ill, and the police and professional standards have done nothing to rectify anything, nor explain this illegal violation of my home.
Well actually although the bastards left, they have been really nasty about my complaint, as have professional standards, and have jeered by sending letters in my old name for me to sign for when I am not allowed to and to see letters turning up in the flats under my old name and breaching the law and my identity change added to the horrific trauma, and as yet nothing has been done, and professional standards, knowing my new name as the police who turned up here did, also sent letters to me under every name but my own.
I haven't recovered. And there has been no resolution. I never felt safe in my home and the shock, the trauma, the revulsion, of being violated and having my new identity and new clean record ripped from me has left me deteriorating and depressed and afraid. Every time I heard a car engine I rushed to the window.
You will see from September's blog posts and lack of blog posts, that things were very bad.
My relationship with the landlord and fellow tenants was never the same again, and to be honest the whole street, gossips that they were, and the pub, knew all about it, but the police and professional standards have not apologized.
Instead of going on the run and sleeping rough permanently, I decided to hang onto my home and stand my ground. But I didn't re-settle in the flat, it stank of shame and revulsion, and the problem of the noise from the upstairs neighbour became worse and I stopped sleeping properly.
October
I continued to publish books. The Wanderer Series was halfway now.
University started and I just had to do my best despite everything.
I continued work as well.
On the Anniversary of being left homeless, I went to Southampton Airport as usual.
While working with the team we survived being pulled over at a police checkpoint.
Then I got some sad news that an old Christian friend had died.
I went to a day school and I tried to prepare for my grade 5 exam but I was struggling so much.
November
November started catastrophically with professional standards jeering at me over my police complaint on the eve of my grade 5 exam, I broke a tooth the same evening, and also the same evening I coughed blood as my esophogus started bleeding again.
I went and took the exam and then my adoptive mum who was supposed to meet me afterwards didn't turn up and Max redeveloped his catalyst fault as I headed for Winchester to celebrate North Walls.
I could hardly enjoy North Walls as I was too ill, and someone parked illegally, blocking Max in and I had to risk him getting a puncture as I had to bump him over kerbs.
When I got home I was violently ill, vomiting without stopping until there was only blood and bile coming up. It was supposed to be such a special weekend and there had been no good in the year at all and the weekend had been as bad as it could be, and yes, I failed the exam. I am mortified. My exams mean so much to me and I have to pay so much for them. I won't say things can't get worse, because the next church or police attack will be my horrible and messy death.
Anyway, work and university continued, even if I wasn't doing well at university. I went back on omeprazole and my esophogus stopped bleeding.
I got befriended by an old lady but she was extremely demanding and I couldn't cope with her, she wanted me to move in and be her housekeeper and all sorts, but I will tell you in full another time about that, it was totally unsuitable even if I was looking for another home.
My old dentist who was the only good dentist I ever saw, had left the practice and the new one filed my broken tooth down and had a bridge made up, but she kept ramming this bridge onto my sore gum and she wasn't English and didn't seem to understand that she was hurting me, I never wore the bridge in the end.
It is so unfair that I had found a good dentist and then he left.
December
December started with a bang. The bangs and crashes were from the upstairs neighbour at 2.45am in the morning, and I gave my notice when the landlord wouldn't do anything about this.
So I spent December looking for a new home and packing up my stuff.
I was very depressed and unhappy, but work and university continued, and I was offered a temporary home.
I was relieved at the thought of leaving the home that the police had destroyed, I was terrified every day that I remained there.
I tried to keep my life normal and prepare both for Christmas and the house move. It was stressful and I messed up a music assignment but scraped a pass.
My books about homelessness were beginning to grow a following.
Christmas arrived, and it wasn't too awful in some ways.
I enjoyed all the Christmassy television and the lights and decorations, I was worried about money, because having put a deposit on the new place etc, I hadn't enough even for food, let alone celebrations, but several people stepped in and all was well.
I had just been to midnight mass and as I walked home, the police had closed the road and there was a dead man there, he had been murdered. That cast a shadow over Christmas a bit.
On Christmas morning I went to church and then spent the day with some people who live nearby, it was a nice enough day.
On boxing day I went to support the boxing day swim and came home, there was a strange man hanging around and I asked the police if it was a crackpot or one of their DCs, because this man hung around for ages and rang my doorbell but I didn't recognize him, he may have been a parasitic reporter about the murder up the road.
Anyway. I moved house a few days later and I am here at the new house, just finishing telling you about this terrible devastating year, and it sounds like many people have had a bad year.
The USA have a new president and the UK are leaving the Eurpoean Union and everyone us stressed and uncertain, it hasn't been a good year for anyone. But for me it has been pure hell and there seems to be no way it can get better, the damage to me can't really be repaired.
Happy New Year.
Friday, 30 December 2016
Gavin Ashenden
I deleted the post about Ashenden because it was offensive.
Offensive to Muslims.
However. If you want to know more about the offensive unchristian clergyman who worships his own ego, there is a guy in Jersey who writes about him and his offensive behaviour.
http://tonymusings.blogspot.co.uk/search/label/Gavin%20Ashenden
You have to wonder what Bishop Willmott thinks safeguarding means when Ashenden attacks any vulnerable group and Willmott spouts to the unquestioning press and media about safeguarding being good?
Especially as Ashenden tends to view my blog when he has been looking at porn sites, his feed always comes up as transferring from porn to my blog. Weird or what?
I remember one of the former students at Sussex telling me why Ashenden went insane, his wife was very ill and he tried to look after her, she got better and left him.
He has been nuts ever since, apparently, and he is the church of england's advert as they uphold his persistent narrow-minded and prejudiced rants.
As yet the church of england, especially the joke of a national safeguarding team, are doing nothing about him and have condoned his attacks on me and on muslims, other races and nations, disabled people, homosexual people and any minority group he feels able to attack to meet his own needs.
Anyone who thinks the man's behaviour is Christian has never read or understood the New Testament or Jesus' teachings.
Offensive to Muslims.
However. If you want to know more about the offensive unchristian clergyman who worships his own ego, there is a guy in Jersey who writes about him and his offensive behaviour.
http://tonymusings.blogspot.co.uk/search/label/Gavin%20Ashenden
You have to wonder what Bishop Willmott thinks safeguarding means when Ashenden attacks any vulnerable group and Willmott spouts to the unquestioning press and media about safeguarding being good?
Especially as Ashenden tends to view my blog when he has been looking at porn sites, his feed always comes up as transferring from porn to my blog. Weird or what?
I remember one of the former students at Sussex telling me why Ashenden went insane, his wife was very ill and he tried to look after her, she got better and left him.
He has been nuts ever since, apparently, and he is the church of england's advert as they uphold his persistent narrow-minded and prejudiced rants.
As yet the church of england, especially the joke of a national safeguarding team, are doing nothing about him and have condoned his attacks on me and on muslims, other races and nations, disabled people, homosexual people and any minority group he feels able to attack to meet his own needs.
Anyone who thinks the man's behaviour is Christian has never read or understood the New Testament or Jesus' teachings.
Wednesday, 21 December 2016
The Christmas Prayers
Good evening peeps,
I am doing the Christmas Prayers a few days early due to the rather uncertain and transient situation I am in.
It isn't easy for me to pray any more, due to being destroyed by the Godless Church of England, so why don't I pray for them to start with. The Bible says pray for your enemies, and those people who have destroyed me make a show of praying for me, condescendingly and convince themselves of their innocence and good motive by doing so.
I am doing the Christmas Prayers a few days early due to the rather uncertain and transient situation I am in.
It isn't easy for me to pray any more, due to being destroyed by the Godless Church of England, so why don't I pray for them to start with. The Bible says pray for your enemies, and those people who have destroyed me make a show of praying for me, condescendingly and convince themselves of their innocence and good motive by doing so.
- I pray for them, that the scales will fall from their eyes. I pray in Jesus Name that all those involved in harming me, especially Justin Welby, Tim Dakin and Trevor Willmott and their associated staff and clergy are divinely guided in 2017 by their God to 'resign' as the Dean did. And I pray that they are blessed, no matter how evil and corrupt and psychopathic they have been. Because that is what Jesus wants, for us to bless our enemies and destroyers, and that is a theme throughout the Bible, it does not remove what they have done, I just pray a blessing on them, because I am perverse. Amen
- I pray for anyone feeling as awful as I am or having survived or not so much survived complex and prolonged harm. No-one should ever have to feel like this. I pray for a better life for anyone who has been destroyed, especially those destroyed by powerful abusers who are above accountability. Amen
- I pray for anyone who is dreading this Christmas due to loneliness, hardship, abuse of any kind, illness, bereavement, separation or any loss or tragedy. In Jesus Name, amen.
- I pray especially for the homeless, my street brothers and sisters, those who will be reached by outreach this Christmas and those who won't. I pray that some of them will feel valued enough to start their journeys home. I pray that all will be able to survive the winter. Thank you Lord that one of our homeless couples have been housed. Amen
- Thank you Lord for those who look after the homeless. Especially the two charities that I am in contact with. Bless them Lord. Amen
- I pray about the toy appeals and their work, that no child gets missed out. I pray for all those children who have very little to look forward to this Christmas, I remember my own homeless childhood. Lord bless the children this Christmas, You and I know what it is like to be homeless and have nothing at Christmas and no child deserves nothing for Christmas or at any time. Bless them Lord, amen.
- Lord look after the elderly, those who are cold or alone and feel left out or isolated this Christmas, send warmth and light and love. Amen
- Lord, it is hard to ask because the Jersey Deanery are over to Satan and a lost cause, but please change that, if you can, turf the evilangelicals out or close the defunct churches down to prevent injury to any more children or vulnerable adults. Amen
- Lord bless my friends and the people in my life, especially those who have blessed me by reading my books and giving helpful feedback. Amen
- Lord I pray for vulnerable people who are scared by the news and the EU exit and other issues such as terrorism. Amen
- I pray that the Church of England stop being able to use news and current affairs to glorify themselves as it upsets their victims and the general public. Amen
- I pray for justice and resolution and peace for abuse victims, especially those suffering barriers to justice and miscarriages of justice and being treated badly for speaking up, and I pray for all the victims and survivors who have spoke up recently, as the old wounds will be re-opened. Amen
- I pray for everyone going out celebrating this Christmas, those who celebrate with alcohol and parties and those who celebrate by going to midnight Mass, may there be no collisions between them. May everyone return home safely. Amen
- I pray that 2017 will be a better year for me and for us all. I pray that 2017 will be the year that the Church of England repent and take responsibility for their evil or that they will be held accountable by another authority. In Jesus Name I beg and pray this, amen.
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Wednesday, 14 December 2016
The Dean, in response to so many questions
Dear Peeps,
The stats are up because of the Dean's 'Resignation'. Just as the stats went up when in the summer the Archbishop and Bishop smeared me and upheld the Dean earlier this year. More death threats, hate attacks and lies against me always result from these one-sided press shows.
The Dean, as you know, has had the freehold of the Deanery and would have stayed until retirement, but was made to step down. The big show in the press and the resulting troll attacks on me are to do with the same thing as the Bishop and Archbishop upholding the Dean and his engineered Steel report earlier this year.
It is all catastrophic dishonesty and safeguarding failure, cover up and show, because the Church's image matters more than anything else.
The Dean and his wife jeered at me that they had freehold of the Deanery and would remain until retirement, in the same conversation with me where they called me evil and tried to use one-sided accounts of abuse and harm I had suffered in the past against me. This conversation was not recorded or dealt with by Jane Fisher and was blatantly lied about in court where I had no voice.
In 11 years has Jersey become more Christian, less unequal, more honest or kind or Christian? No, from what I have seen of Stuart and Trevor and Shona being destroyed and the terrible behaviour of the Bailhache Brothers and others. The Dean has achieved nothing for his free house and massive salary, and he is a danger to the vulnerable through his dishonesty and his acts of destroying a vulnerable adult to save his own skin. It is astounding that the Church are upholding him and giving him other positions where he will be a safeguarding risk, after they spent a million pounds covering up for him and destroying me.
No lessons have been learned. The Church of England with their loud noise and hot air about safeguarding and habit of employing people 'from a social care background' to create an image but not good safeguarding, is as dishonest and corrupt as it always was.
There still needs to be an independent review into my case and why I have been publicly destroyed, and the church are still hiding behind lawyers and insurers and even if they were to be forced to allow a review, they would choose a conflicted person and call them independent, no lessons have been learned. The complicit press print whatever the church say, and have told me so, and my side is only printed in distorted snippets.
The Church need to be audited by the government, and use of the press and media for the Church's own ends needs to be investigated and regulated.
No lessons have been learned. The million pound Jersey farce is a disgrace that the Church can't even find the grace or Christianity to take responsibility for.
The Dean is upheld and there is no safeguarding in the Church.
But once the Dean returns to the UK, taking legal action against him will be much simpler. I hate trying to deal with paperwork for two different countries.
http://www.opnlttr.com/letter/open-letter-very-reverend-bob-key-dean-jersey
The stats are up because of the Dean's 'Resignation'. Just as the stats went up when in the summer the Archbishop and Bishop smeared me and upheld the Dean earlier this year. More death threats, hate attacks and lies against me always result from these one-sided press shows.
The Dean, as you know, has had the freehold of the Deanery and would have stayed until retirement, but was made to step down. The big show in the press and the resulting troll attacks on me are to do with the same thing as the Bishop and Archbishop upholding the Dean and his engineered Steel report earlier this year.
It is all catastrophic dishonesty and safeguarding failure, cover up and show, because the Church's image matters more than anything else.
The Dean and his wife jeered at me that they had freehold of the Deanery and would remain until retirement, in the same conversation with me where they called me evil and tried to use one-sided accounts of abuse and harm I had suffered in the past against me. This conversation was not recorded or dealt with by Jane Fisher and was blatantly lied about in court where I had no voice.
In 11 years has Jersey become more Christian, less unequal, more honest or kind or Christian? No, from what I have seen of Stuart and Trevor and Shona being destroyed and the terrible behaviour of the Bailhache Brothers and others. The Dean has achieved nothing for his free house and massive salary, and he is a danger to the vulnerable through his dishonesty and his acts of destroying a vulnerable adult to save his own skin. It is astounding that the Church are upholding him and giving him other positions where he will be a safeguarding risk, after they spent a million pounds covering up for him and destroying me.
No lessons have been learned. The Church of England with their loud noise and hot air about safeguarding and habit of employing people 'from a social care background' to create an image but not good safeguarding, is as dishonest and corrupt as it always was.
There still needs to be an independent review into my case and why I have been publicly destroyed, and the church are still hiding behind lawyers and insurers and even if they were to be forced to allow a review, they would choose a conflicted person and call them independent, no lessons have been learned. The complicit press print whatever the church say, and have told me so, and my side is only printed in distorted snippets.
The Church need to be audited by the government, and use of the press and media for the Church's own ends needs to be investigated and regulated.
No lessons have been learned. The million pound Jersey farce is a disgrace that the Church can't even find the grace or Christianity to take responsibility for.
The Dean is upheld and there is no safeguarding in the Church.
But once the Dean returns to the UK, taking legal action against him will be much simpler. I hate trying to deal with paperwork for two different countries.
http://www.opnlttr.com/letter/open-letter-very-reverend-bob-key-dean-jersey
Monday, 5 December 2016
Setting the record straight
The abuse I suffered in the Church was certainly wrong.
But the cover ups ever since have done much more damage.
But the cover ups ever since have done much more damage.
Thursday, 1 December 2016
A formal letter
Formal Complaint against the Archbishop of Canterbury and the failure to record the matter properly by phone this morning CC: IICSA and to be published online.
Dear William Nye and Archbishop's council,
This complaint is copied to the police, who for years have beaten and imprisoned me to try to silence me for the Church of England. I am alive but horrifically damaged and eventually I will collapse as Bob Hill did while trying to defend me against the Church.
The Church haven't taken responsibility for Bob's collapse or the harm to me, but the police have a duty to deal with the Church, the police are afraid to deal with Bishops and Archbishops and their hefty and Godless legal teams that invalidate the Church of England, as is seen in the cases of Peter Ball and Bishop Bell and the former Bishop of Gloucester, the police prefer victim suicides and silencing victims because they are afraid of the Church and it's massive and abusive power.
But nonetheless they do have my complaints and they will be asked why they didn't deal with them as well as why they refused for so many years to stop the Church of England from harming me. What the police can do to start with, is formally ask the Church to refer my case to a competent safeguarding body outside of the Church of England, which is what I have now be requesting for three months.
Police please note, the Bishop of Winchester has breached a court agreement over the Steel report. He was not allowed to publish or distribute the Steel report without having first got agreement on its accuracy and consent from me, and instead of telling the press and media and general public this, he has claimed that the Steel report is valid and that he is handing it over to the conflicted and biased Bishop Gladwin to include in his report.
Handing it over to Gladwin breaches the court order instantly. The Bishop has still failed to send me my copy of the Steel report, which despite being written by a conflicted member of the Jersey circle and not including me, was supposed to be about my case.
This morning I phoned the office of the Archbishop's council as it is obvious that nothing is being done about the open corruption, deceit and abuse by the Archbishop of Canterbury and Bishop of Winchester in my case and the very serious harm that he and the Bishop of Winchester have done to me.
Surely it is the biggest safeguarding failure in the Church of England apart from the Peter Ball and Kendal House cases, and yet my case is unique in that the harm was carried out while the Archbishop and Paul Butler have been keeping up this front about the Church 'caring about safeguarding'. And less unique in that the Church of England intend to keep silence and not act while the wrongdoers involved are still in office.
There is no good outcome of the Church spending a million pounds to publicly destroy a very broken and homeless vulnerable adult and uphold her abusers publicly, there is no good conclusion and no glory in it for the Church of England, all they have achieved is a statement that they will protect abusers, publicly at any cost, even at the cost of the life of a brave man and a vulnerable adult and they will discredit the victim after carrying out a number of biased whitewashes that they incredibly try to label independent. Someone needs to define both safeguarding and independent to the Church as they consistently mis-use these words.
The Church don't care about safeguarding, they care about covering up, looking good, and using anything they can as PR and limelight stunts. The Church have been persistently using the crime of sexual assault as a limelight stunt since the current Archbishop took his position, which reflects very badly on him indeed. But anyone who saw him use his 'Father/s' as a press stunt will know that he has never been fit for his office as he doesn't represent Jesus in his twisted use of his personal life to gain attention. Why are the police and authorities not challenging the Church on these serious abuses of the public and the vulnerable?
This morning's phone conversation reflected the fact that nothing has changed in the closed fortress of cover up and denial in the Church of England. I doubt with all my heart that anyone will 'phone me back' as suggested by the terrified woman who was breaking the 'no communication with HG' rule' this morning. And if only it was just me, Eli Ward, Graham Sawyer and every victim who has contacted me has been treated this way.
The Archbishop's persistent use of church sexual assaults as a PR stunt whilst not changing the Church's horrendous treatment of victims means that he isn't really in a position to continue, but his very blatant and open favouritism in the Jersey Deanery case means he certainly should step down, and this is a formal complaint to that effect.
The damage to me of the public discrediting by the Archbishop and his refusal to deal with open wrongdoing in the Jersey Deanery and by the Bishop of Winchester means he cannot be upheld as a Godly man or an example of Christianity, and his habit of using current affairs as press stunts to get limelight for the Church annoys a lot of people.
What kind of human being does as the Archbishop has done, in upholding both the Jersey Deanery and the Bishop of Winchester in open and blatant deceit, abuse of power and very serious harm to a vulnerable adult and claiming that no wrong has been done? I am still suffering the way the Church has publicly destroyed me, and neither the Bishop or Archbishop have met me or recorded my story, what a terrible way to waste a million pounds, on destroying a vulnerable adults who has already suffered too much.
And although the lady I spoke to this morning was perfectly polite, it became clear that she wanted to get off the phone and close the matter down quite quickly once she realised who I was. So nothing has changed in the Church's fortress of denial and corruption. Branding a vulnerable adult is never acceptable, branding them when they are homeless and destroyed by the Church is as far from Christianity as you can get.
Why, in this day and age is the Church still allowed to abuse its power this way? And incidentally why is this wealthy corporation allowed to have dual roles as charity and government department and why does the Synod hoard billions and make local churches waste sermons on begging money to keep the church running? Why if the Church is a 'Christian Church' are they not dealing with abuse and abusers properly and making provision for victims?
When the Archbishop publicly destroyed me earlier this year, with the help of the Bishop of Winchester, he had never met me, neither had the Bishop.
The National Safeguarding team added to the injury caused by the Bishop and Archbishop and their complicit press by claiming that 'The Church didn't mean to hurt me' what a stupid thing to say to someone who has been publicly destroyed for three and a half years by the Church through the press and media, what exactly did they mean to do then? The National Safeguarding Team are invalid until or unless they are independent of the Church of England and not under the people who are doing the wrong and are not acting complicit with wrongdoers to cover up and excuse wrongdoing.
This morning on the phone the woman started out as all Church of England people do, all polite, she asked if it was a safeguarding or general complaint, well it is both but the National Safeguarding Team were told to ignore me when they didn't get what they wanted from me. Graham Tilby actually told me he was told to ignore the distress that he and Jane Dodds provoked in their denial of my situation and efforts to force a meeting on me rather than deal with my complaint.
They wanted me to be complicit in the Bishop's discrediting attack on me, and tried to make me and the Bishop communicate despite the fact that I took him to court in 2014 to stop him from killing me by handing the whitewash steel report over to William Bailhache, one of the conflicted Church-States members who had elected Steel for the cover up.
The Bishop and Archbishop, while misleading the press and public with impunity, seem unable to tell the press or the public about how Steel was conflicted and I was forced to file against the Bishop as litigant in person when I was so ill.
The National Safeguarding team have refused to address this massive safeguarding failure of the past three and a half years and kept on and on trying to get me into a meeting 'To support me', and no doubt other vulnerable victims fall for this part in the Church's cover-up machine, but not me, I won't meet with people who are complicit in cover-up and harm to a vulnerable adult, who have stood by and knowingly allowed harm as Tilby, Dodds and Murray have, and who have been engaged in this harm as well, for example liaising with the Bishop of Winchester to cover his back. How terrible that anyone who claims to be in safeguarding would act this way.
If the National Safeguarding Team can't see the very serious misconducts and harm to me by the actions of the Archbishop, Bishop and Jersey Deanery and complicit press, they can certainly see the harm to Bob Hill for defending my life with his own, the only reasons they have not acted is because they don't understand safeguarding or they are unwilling to deal with the powerful wrongdoers, both of these things invalidate them and while the wrongdoers remain and I have not had an equal voice in the press and media who carried out the Church of England's massive abuse of power in this case, then I remain suffering.
You can't get all abuse victims, vulnerable as they are, to obligingly trot into the cover-ups and cover-up meetings that Dodds and Tilby kept putting me under pressure to bow to and attend. I wonder how many other victims have been silenced this way?
On the subject, Tilby claimed that Elaine Rose, the woman who has defended and condoned the bad behaviour of the Jersey Deanery, had any right to liaise with the conflicted Jersey Safeguarding Partnership over their whitewash serious case review, and he claimed he could get a copy of the serious case review whitewash.
He didn't have my consent, and no-one has had my consent to view that set-up whitewash. It is another defamatory cover-up created by a woman who is facing charges for perversion of the course of justice, and it was created for and by the same dignitaries in Jersey who engineered the Steel whitewash. It is invalid and since the failure of the Steel report, those dignitaries in Jersey have clamoured for the release of this whitewash and even launched a troll attack on me using a fake gov.je email address.
This morning the lady on the phone was taking my details as normal until I mentioned the Korris report, and all of a sudden, whoever was in the office with her tipped her the wink and she rapidly tried to close the matter down and started talking about how 'someone would give me a response' rather than anything being done about my complaint. No-one will 'give me a response' because the Church take legal advice against their victims and their legal advice is to ignore me and not speak to me.
Safeguarding? No, they destroyed me to close the Jersey matter down and now they are ignoring me, so the best thing the Archbishop can do is stop using sexual assault to try to glorify the Church in the press and media at the expense of victims, and step down.
The Church recently had another feeble effort over their inadequate and conflicted 'independent inquiries in the press', they chose a man who protected Greville Janner and shared an office with another high profile paedophile, to lead an investigation into the Bishop Bell case, which will undoubtedly harm the victim, and yet they haven't arranged an independent investigation into the misconducts of the Archbishop and Bishop in my case, where a million pounds was spent, mainly on lawyers and PR firms because of the complete and utter mess they made in launching the non-independent and unqualified 'Korris' report into the press and allowing me to be publicly destroyed. The police need to respond to the illegal release of the Korris report as it was sent to them to compound the cover-up that they took part in through harming me and not protecting me from the Church of England when asked.
This matter isn't going to go away through the Church ignoring me, and the Safeguarding team who failed me have been asked to refer my case to a safeguarding body outside of the Church of England and to make sure an independent inquiry is called, and presumably the reason that they can't call an inquiry in my case as they did in the cases of Bell, Ball, etc is because the wrongdoers involved are still in their positions!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Nonetheless, this is a repeat request for an independent inquiry and this letter and everything I have said will not go away, nor will the open and glaring wrongs of the Church of England.
I wouldn't put it past the Church to do another whitewash without telling me and claim the same results as well as claiming an independent inquiry was carried out. No, as yet no inquiry has included me, no action was taken over conflicts of interests, no appropriate action was taken, and in Jersey they allowed open and free tampering with my records to cover up and aid the whitewash, how horrifying. The Church of England needs to be properly regulated, the authorities need to stop bowing to this massive power-abusive corporation which is akin to a Nazi regime, no-one should stand by now, because my case and the open abuse of power and illegal actions is a step too far.
The Church need to decide whether they are a charity or a government department and be regulated either as a charity or a government department, and with their bad record and bad name, that regulation needs to be from outside the Church.
Police, please be aware, as I have told you before, that I am due to suffer another vicious onslaught from the press and media when the Dean announces his forthcoming retirement, which seems for some reason to be delayed. The damage to me by the press and media, since the Church have released my details and identity to the general public, is a criminal act and you are aware from my correspondence just how weak and destroyed I am.
This is a formal complaint and also a formal request for independent and police intervention into my case.
Sincerely,
JJ/HG - Korris report victim
Sunday, 20 November 2016
Friday, 18 November 2016
Read the comments before they vanish...
...as comments on CofE press articles always do at the behest of the CofE
http://www.hampshirechronicle.co.uk/news/14912703.Bishop_says_drop_in_international_students_would_be_against_British_interests/?action=success#comment_17337963
On second thoughts, lets save the comments for eternity. Eventually, someone will point out to the Church that when they do their PR stunts, they get a few blind sheeple holding them up and a few hundred normal people seeing through the PR stunts.
http://www.hampshirechronicle.co.uk/news/14912703.Bishop_says_drop_in_international_students_would_be_against_British_interests/?action=success#comment_17337963
On second thoughts, lets save the comments for eternity. Eventually, someone will point out to the Church that when they do their PR stunts, they get a few blind sheeple holding them up and a few hundred normal people seeing through the PR stunts.
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Southamptonian1960
Well said, Bishop Tim! ("In vino veritas").
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Spongewet19
Bloody Brexit!!!
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ladysaint
I agree universities should still be encouraged to recruit international students however only the brightest and the best. And they should have the same qualification criteria as uk students. One professor has recently said to me that sometimes as the foreign students pay full fees and massively help the finances of a university you can get wealthy students who affect the quality of the university graduation results as they buy their place rather than earn it through results to gain entry to their course.
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camerajuan 
ladysaint
ladysaint
This is why it would be against British interests - the overseas students & their seemingly bottomless pit of cash who are willing to spend £800 a month for a room in a purpose built block plus the higher tuition fees.
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Miguel Raton
Man with an invisible friend objects to government policy.
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Charlie Bucket Miguel Raton
Miguel Raton
Does his faith mean his opinion doesn't count?
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Trap Rap Charlie Bucket
Charlie Bucket
It means his opinion is of lower value as he is more gullible as a citizen. Hence why he supports Remain as well, since he is gullible.
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Peteshrimpton Trap Rap
Trap Rap
I think you will find it's the leavers that are gullible, so gullible that the out campaigners themselves couldn't wait to tell you just how gullible you had been the day after the result.
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JJNP Charlie Bucket
Charlie Bucket
He doesn't have faith, he has just spent a million pounds destroying a vulnerable adult publicly and covering up his own misconduct with a high-fee PR firm, Luther-Pendragon. Why was a million pounds of church money used to destroy a vulnerable adult in the press and media?
http://www.lulu.com/shop/safeguarding-review-team/hg-jersey-church-safeguarding-report/paperback/product-22899633.html
http://www.lulu.com/shop/safeguarding-review-team/hg-jersey-church-safeguarding-report/paperback/product-22899633.html
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richard Grant
How much student accommodation is under construction?
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Shoong urges you To Get to the Choppaaaa!!! richard Grant
richard Grant
Wrong city Richard.
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userds5050
Perhaps the Reverand should be more concerned with the residents in Stanmores lives' being made a misery by drunk students urinating, vomitting and having sex in the street.
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Peteshrimpton userds5050
userds5050
Hey, lets all go to Stanmore, sounds like there are wild parties every night.
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foresthorse userds5050
userds5050
My son's at university, and if he wasn't urinating, vomiting and having sex in the street I'd be demanding my money back!
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camerajuan userds5050
userds5050
Is this a ticketed event or can anyone attend?
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SilvanDryad userds5050
userds5050
What's a reverand?
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userds5050 SilvanDryad
SilvanDryad
Pulling people up on spelling mistakes, when you don't have anything useful to say, is so passé in 2016 #GrammarNazi
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Count Alarcos userds5050
userds5050
You obviously don't know about Stanmore - the 30 youths who were causing all sorts of problems around the Wavell Way shops some years ago weren't students but local kids. Nessie from Mildmay Street who was selling heroin was also local so don't think that its just students who cause problems. Most people in Stanmore (including the students) are upstanding responsible folk but to try and say that it's only students who are anti-social is very hitleresque and quite worrying.
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userds5050 Count Alarcos
Count Alarcos
I'm only repeating what Stanmore residents have told the local and national press. Obviously there was crime on the Stanmore estate before the studentification of the area but it must have gotten worse if people are moving out as a result. Also to compare criticism of students with the holocaust is pretty poor IMHO.
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For pity sake SilvanDryad
SilvanDryad
Strictly speaking, he's a Right Reverend but he's still an irrelevant unelected potificater however you spell it.
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stay local
Dear Tim, How about addressing the elephant in the room? The abuse carried out by representatives of your church. Why have not the clergy based in the house of lords been made to stand down in shame for their inaction, at reporting stopping or even admitting the problems that exist? Rather than pontificating, on items of no relevance to you.
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JJNP stay local
stay local
Are you aware of the massive abuse cover-up that the Bishop of Winchester himself has been involved in and been taken to court over?
His victim is suffering unbearably.
http://www.opnlttr.com/letter/letter-questions-dioceses-winchester-and-canterbury
http://www.opnlttr.com/letter/second-letter-questions-dioceses-winchester-and-canterbury
His victim is suffering unbearably.
http://www.opnlttr.com/letter/letter-questions-dioceses-winchester-and-canterbury
http://www.opnlttr.com/letter/second-letter-questions-dioceses-winchester-and-canterbury
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Petersoton
The bishop wonders why numbers are falling well maybe he should look at the fees that were imposed under a lib con govt at the request of the lib dems under nick clegg.
He then should study the new developments that are going to be built in Southampton, Winchester,Portsmout
h,
Salisbury, Brighton etc that are being built exclusively for foreign students.
Or maybe the DE could stop writing hysterical silly stories to grab a headline that reflects a lie!
He then should study the new developments that are going to be built in Southampton, Winchester,Portsmout
h,
Salisbury, Brighton etc that are being built exclusively for foreign students.
Or maybe the DE could stop writing hysterical silly stories to grab a headline that reflects a lie!
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JJNP
The Bishop of Winchester is not in a position to comment in the Hampshire Chronicle nor should they be upholding him. He publicly destroyed an abuse victim in a massive cover-up where he used a PR firm and lawyers very heavily, a million pounds was spent on whitewash, cover up and press and media vilification of his victim.
He allowed the victim to be publicly discredited and destroyed.
He has been taken to court, he has been asked to step down, he is well aware of the harm he has done, but in true Church of England tradition, he has refused to either step down or allow an independent inquiry into his conduct. He continues to support lies about the victim and her case.
I hope that the Hampshire Chronicle cease to uphold a man that no longer has the right to be ordained, let alone call himself a Bishop. He has left his vulnerable victim suffering in utter anguish with no relief while he has ensured that all wrongdoers have been let off, publicly.
More information: http://www.opnlttr.com/letter/1st-open-letter-bishop-winchester-0
http://www.lulu.com/shop/safeguarding-review-team/hg-jersey-church-safeguarding-report/paperback/product-22899633.html
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2015/11/jerseys-dean-letter-to-archbishop-of.html
He allowed the victim to be publicly discredited and destroyed.
He has been taken to court, he has been asked to step down, he is well aware of the harm he has done, but in true Church of England tradition, he has refused to either step down or allow an independent inquiry into his conduct. He continues to support lies about the victim and her case.
I hope that the Hampshire Chronicle cease to uphold a man that no longer has the right to be ordained, let alone call himself a Bishop. He has left his vulnerable victim suffering in utter anguish with no relief while he has ensured that all wrongdoers have been let off, publicly.
More information: http://www.opnlttr.com/letter/1st-open-letter-bishop-winchester-0
http://www.lulu.com/shop/safeguarding-review-team/hg-jersey-church-safeguarding-report/paperback/product-22899633.html
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2015/11/jerseys-dean-letter-to-archbishop-of.html
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JJNP
This is a message for the Bishop of Winchester, from your victim, HG, who you abused your power over the press and media in order to destroy and discredit her in the second biggest and most evil cover up since the Peter Ball case. For three and a half years you have lied and even contradicted yourself in your lies, for three and a half years you and the Archbishop have allowed me to be smeared and slandered in the press and attacked by strangers in the press and media, for three and a half years you and the Archbishop have lied and discredited me and given abusers and wrongdoers an audience, for three and a half years you have put the phone down on me but have spoken with my abusers and the conflicted wrongdoers in my case, you have destroyed me and left me suffering anguish, and I want you to resign with immediate effect.
I took you to court two years ago, and I have begged and warned you to stop harming me and you didn't, in May and June of this year you had me utterly destroyed publicly and mislead the press and the public over the conflicted Steel report, failing to tell them about the court agreement and telling them that the conflicted and abusive Steel report was valid and could credibly be fed into the conflicted Gladwin report.
I am suffering unbearably from the harm you did to me, and I want you to resign.
I also want the Hampshire Chronicle to be the first member of the press and media to give me a voice on equal terms, as you and the Archbishop and Deanery's abuse of the press over the last three and a half years has been henious.
And please remember, that unless you put this right and remove the lies about me that are still circulating, I will be taking you back to court.
Please do as requested in emails, messages and letters and call an independent inquiry immediately and step down.
After all, when the abusers and wrongdoers contacted you, you bowed to their wishes. Isn't it my turn, after three years of of efforts to kill me through slander and defamation?
What kind of 'safeguarding' investigation employs only conflicted people and is launched as a press stunt at the expense of a vulnerable victim who is homeless because of the Diocese of Winchester?!
HG
I took you to court two years ago, and I have begged and warned you to stop harming me and you didn't, in May and June of this year you had me utterly destroyed publicly and mislead the press and the public over the conflicted Steel report, failing to tell them about the court agreement and telling them that the conflicted and abusive Steel report was valid and could credibly be fed into the conflicted Gladwin report.
I am suffering unbearably from the harm you did to me, and I want you to resign.
I also want the Hampshire Chronicle to be the first member of the press and media to give me a voice on equal terms, as you and the Archbishop and Deanery's abuse of the press over the last three and a half years has been henious.
And please remember, that unless you put this right and remove the lies about me that are still circulating, I will be taking you back to court.
Please do as requested in emails, messages and letters and call an independent inquiry immediately and step down.
After all, when the abusers and wrongdoers contacted you, you bowed to their wishes. Isn't it my turn, after three years of of efforts to kill me through slander and defamation?
What kind of 'safeguarding' investigation employs only conflicted people and is launched as a press stunt at the expense of a vulnerable victim who is homeless because of the Diocese of Winchester?!
HG
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JJNP
Last year Bob Hill, BEM, a former police officer, collapsed with a brain haemmorage while trying to preserve the life of Tim Dakin's abuse victim. A good man lost his life to a corrupt and deceitful Bishop and still Dakin hasn't stepped down. Dakin shouldn't be on any board of governors. He shouldn't be using the Church of England's generic abuse of power over the press for his PR stunts, he should have resigned as he has faced legal action and he has cost a good man his life and nearly caused a victim, who is suffering unbearably, to lose her life.
Here are some of Bob's articles before he collapsed.
https://cathyfox.wordpress.com/2015/03/30/open-letter-to-jan-korris/
http://opnlttr.com/letter/open-letter-jan-korris-church-england-counsell...
http://opnlttr.com/letter/letter-jerseys-external-affairs-minister-sir-p...
http://opnlttr.com/letter/letter-jersey-deanery-15-october-2013
http://opnlttr.com/letter/open-letter-bishop-paul-butler-and-macsas
http://opnlttr.com/letter/i-woke-and-wrote-bishop-morning
http://opnlttr.com/letter/archbishop-canterbury
http://opnlttr.com/letter/letter-jane-fisher-and-bishop-tim-dakin-0
http://opnlttr.com/letter/second-open-letter-bishop-winchester
http://opnlttr.com/letter/1st-open-letter-bishop-winchester-0
http://opnlttr.com/letter/open-letter-very-reverend-bob-key-dean-jersey
http://opnlttr.com/letter/jane-fisher-safeguarding-director-winchester-d...
No.1 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/03/bob-key-and-jersey-way.html
No.2 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/03/the-jersey-establishment-cl...
No.3 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/03/bob-key-support-and-recogni...
No.4 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/03/senator-philip-bailhache-le...
No.5 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/04/open-letter-to-bishop-of-wi...
No.6 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/04/dean-reinstated-press-relea...
No.7 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/05/business-as-usualthe-jersey...
No.8 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/05/philip-bailhache-independen...
No.9 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/06/senator-philip-bailhache-gr...
No.10 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/10/3rd-anniversary-of-abuse-vi...
No.11 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/11/jersey-dean-who-exonerated-...
No.12 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/12/exonerated.html
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/03/the-dean-bishop-and-good-she...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/04/the-dean-and-voice-in-wilder...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/04/jerseys-dean-and-victims-tal...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/04/jerseys-dean-victory-or-clim...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/05/jerseys-dean-did-punishment-...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/05/jerseys-dean-diocese-of-winc...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/05/jerseys-dean-red-letter-day....
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/06/jerseys-dean-meaningless-apo...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/07/jerseys-dean-doubting-thomas...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/07/jerseys-dean-another-meaning...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/08/jerseys-dean-and-silly-seaso...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/08/jerseys-dean-laitys-jep-adve...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/jerseys-dean-dame-heather-sa...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/jerseys-dean-dame-heather-sa...
More of Bob Hill's Blogs:
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/jerseys-dean-truth-whole-tru...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/12/jerseys-dean-unofficial-repo...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2014/01/a-reflection-on-2013.html
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2014/01/jerseys-dean-press-release-n...
http://introducingjersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/11/shafting-jersey.html
http://introducingjersey.blogspot.co.uk/2014/03/carry-on-jersey.html
Here are some of Bob's articles before he collapsed.
https://cathyfox.wordpress.com/2015/03/30/open-letter-to-jan-korris/
http://opnlttr.com/letter/open-letter-jan-korris-church-england-counsell...
http://opnlttr.com/letter/letter-jerseys-external-affairs-minister-sir-p...
http://opnlttr.com/letter/letter-jersey-deanery-15-october-2013
http://opnlttr.com/letter/open-letter-bishop-paul-butler-and-macsas
http://opnlttr.com/letter/i-woke-and-wrote-bishop-morning
http://opnlttr.com/letter/archbishop-canterbury
http://opnlttr.com/letter/letter-jane-fisher-and-bishop-tim-dakin-0
http://opnlttr.com/letter/second-open-letter-bishop-winchester
http://opnlttr.com/letter/1st-open-letter-bishop-winchester-0
http://opnlttr.com/letter/open-letter-very-reverend-bob-key-dean-jersey
http://opnlttr.com/letter/jane-fisher-safeguarding-director-winchester-d...
No.1 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/03/bob-key-and-jersey-way.html
No.2 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/03/the-jersey-establishment-cl...
No.3 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/03/bob-key-support-and-recogni...
No.4 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/03/senator-philip-bailhache-le...
No.5 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/04/open-letter-to-bishop-of-wi...
No.6 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/04/dean-reinstated-press-relea...
No.7 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/05/business-as-usualthe-jersey...
No.8 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/05/philip-bailhache-independen...
No.9 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/06/senator-philip-bailhache-gr...
No.10 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/10/3rd-anniversary-of-abuse-vi...
No.11 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/11/jersey-dean-who-exonerated-...
No.12 http://voiceforchildren.blogspot.com/2013/12/exonerated.html
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/03/the-dean-bishop-and-good-she...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/04/the-dean-and-voice-in-wilder...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/04/jerseys-dean-and-victims-tal...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/04/jerseys-dean-victory-or-clim...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/05/jerseys-dean-did-punishment-...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/05/jerseys-dean-diocese-of-winc...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/05/jerseys-dean-red-letter-day....
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/06/jerseys-dean-meaningless-apo...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/07/jerseys-dean-doubting-thomas...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/07/jerseys-dean-another-meaning...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/08/jerseys-dean-and-silly-seaso...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/08/jerseys-dean-laitys-jep-adve...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/jerseys-dean-dame-heather-sa...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/jerseys-dean-dame-heather-sa...
More of Bob Hill's Blogs:
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/jerseys-dean-truth-whole-tru...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/12/jerseys-dean-unofficial-repo...
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2014/01/a-reflection-on-2013.html
http://bobhilljersey.blogspot.co.uk/2014/01/jerseys-dean-press-release-n...
http://introducingjersey.blogspot.co.uk/2013/11/shafting-jersey.html
http://introducingjersey.blogspot.co.uk/2014/03/carry-on-jersey.html
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Who nose.
Bish-bosh,he likes student dosh.
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