Showing posts with label Graham Tilby. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Graham Tilby. Show all posts

Sunday, 9 July 2017

Safeguarding in the Church of England

29/05/2017      CC Tilby, Butler, SCIE, IICSA, Murray, Venables

Dear Graham Tilby,

I am writing again regarding my extreme concern over the Church of England's very poor, indeed non-existent, safeguarding, and the harm to me which you seem unable to address. I do not feel that I have a future or will survive or want to survive what I have experienced and I am suffering, but I would like to see things change before I die. I would also like, and have asked, for the Church of England to pay for my attendance at Dignitas to make my suffering shorter as I have been publicly and utterly destroyed by the Church's terrible safeguarding stunt gone wrong, the Jersey and Winchester whitewash.

You allowed me to be publicly destroyed, and incredibly tried to tell me that this was none of your business and you had no control over it. Allowing a vulnerable adult to be driven to suicide by public discrediting and smears is your business, it is a safeguarding issue, and if you didn't understand that, then you should have realised this and resigned, not gone on badgering me for a meeting as you do with vulnerable people - this is a grave concern of mine, instead of safeguarding, your job and your colleague's job is to force meetings on unwitting vulnerable people, making them feel that they are being listened to and something will be done, to meet Church targets and legislation and insurance needs rather than any care or concern.

This is wrong, especially if you badger someone into a meeting as you tried to with me, with all those emails full of fake warmth and sympathy for show after allowing and aiding my public discrediting. You have psychologically injured me and when you didn't get your meeting and I continued to complain about the open and glaring safeguarding failure of me being publicly destroyed and discredited, you battened down the hatches and have refused to act upon the massive safeguarding failure of which you were part and condoned. 

I am speaking up for the voiceless vulnerable and not just me, I don't know how many vulnerable people have been bullied into meetings to close their complaints down and meet insurance needs but it must stop, and you must address my case as I have been left suffering and knowing that you and Moira Murray condone my suffering and uphold the wrongdoers in my case, who all still have access to the vulnerable and pose a risk to them and have not been dealt with,

I know from the things that you said on the phone that you did not know what had happened to me and you were not interested, you upheld Gladwin and his upholding of the Jersey Deanery with the help of a conflicted Jersey advocate, you upheld Elaine Rose's illegal interference in the whitewash Jersey Safeguarding Partnership report that was set up between Jane Fisher and the police as part of the mutual absolving of wrong partnership that they had been running since 2008, and you tried to excuse what had happened to me in being publicly destroyed instead of addressing it. Not good safeguarding.

 You didn't get your meeting as you and Jane Dodds were unable to explain why you so urgently needed to meet me or why it was 'for my welfare' when you had watched and even taken part as I was publicly destroyed, after ignoring my anguished pleas for help for seven months and only contacting me during my public destruction by the Church, and for their sake and not mine, to tick boxes and close the matter down.

The Church of England do not safeguard, and while you have been part of this atrocity and have decided to stay in your positions while ignoring my distress because you were 'advised' to, thus further branding and shaming me, the Church of England can't safeguard. No matter what denials and condonement of wrongdoers you have made, the fact that you are still in your positions and refusing to respond properly to my distress and leaving me carrying the burden of the Church's wrongdoing, you are not safeguarding, you are covering up, you are condoning horrifying misconduct by senior clergy such as the Archbishop and Bishops, and while you do that, nothing has changed in Church of England safeguarding. And you should be ashamed of yourself for being part of this and leaving me falling under the intolerable weight of injustice and the blame for all of the wrongdoing that I have suffered and reacted to.

The whole of my adult life has been affected by abuse and prejudice in the Church of England and the most appalling lack of safeguarding possible, for which I have been made to blame. And for more than a year you have, by your actions and attitude to me, rammed that blame down my throat, you have taken advice from wrongdoers with the Church's interests at heart and not mine, and have made my suffering worse, as did your colleage Jane Dodds, who before she finished moonlighting as safeguarding caseworker for the Church of England and returned to her real job, inflicted the worst distress possible on me by upholding the church of england and their wrongdoing to me, excusing them and telling me that she and you 'wanted to make my life how it was before'. I cry when I remember such an awful crass thing being said to me after I had been unhealably destroyed.

And then after you and Dodds had finished chewing me up, upholding the harm to me and trying to badger me into a meeting, you didn't get what you wanted so instead of calling an independent inquiry - which you did discuss in order to try to get me into that meeting that you badger alleged victims into - you decided you would do nothing and leave me destroyed and suffering unhealably, you decided to ignore my calls and letters asking for my case to be referred outside the Church to an independent agency who would not be biased as you were against me on advice given to you and a one-sided Church of England version of my case. You and Jane Dodd's replacement have ignored my distress and in the case of Moira Murray, Jane's replacement, putting the phone down on me is the solution.

 There is no safeguarding in the Church of England and you and Dodds and Murray failed me and refused to refer my case outside of the church once you decided you wouldn't engage with me as you would not get your meeting. To make things worse, despite you knowing (or not knowing the true picture) of the police being used against me persistently and one-sidedly by the church to try to silence me, doing lasting damage, I have had the police on my doorstep ruining my life, another part of the new safeguarding failure routine, hound the church's victims with unsolicited and harmful efforts by the police to try to get victim statements, the same police who beat and imprisoned me for the church for years. 

I am not accepting the church trying to force me to be a sexual abuse victim and not a victim of very severe and enduring misconduct of which you have been part, condoned, upheld and excused, leading to lasting damage to me. My distress and pain will never be gone, and I have asked the Church who have destroyed me beyond healing to pay for my attendance at Dignitas, it would be the first humane treatment they have ever offered me if and when they agree. You haven't safeguarded me, you have failed me on the advice of misadvisers and a 'case file' that you boasted that doesn't include my story and you have upheld wrongdoers at my expense. You should step down, what happens to the voiceless vulnerable?

I believe that SCIE should make a freedom of information request, as should I, and look at that 'case file' and both they and I are entitled to copies of all the whitewash reports into my case. Unless the Church willingly provides those reports, something is very wrong with Church of England Safeguarding. Well something is very wrong with Church of England Safeguarding, but Paul Butler and Justin Welby, with no conscience or remorse for destroying me and leaving dangerous people such as Bob and Daphne Key in positions where they can access the vulnerable, intend to go on using safeguarding as a falsehood and a vainglorious boast for the Church of England in the public spotlight.

Bob and Daphne Key and other people involved in the harm to me remain a risk to the vulnerable and that is the clearest indication possible of your bias and unwillingness to safeguarding properly because you uphold and endorse harm to me and blame me, as you did in everything you and Jane Dodds did and said regarding the matter. You have behaved atrociously in pushing the blame onto me after failing to even contact me until asked to do so by the people who had harmed me, for their benefit.

It was clear that you didn't want to meet me to take my account of things or act upon it, as you would have already been acting swiftly against the wrongdoers had you been in any way willing to act, and one meeting would not resolve anything. I am horrified that you have tried to badger me into the meeting that you badger and bully vulnerable survivors into, without doing anything about the harm to me, and ignoring my cries for help before you contacted me on behalf of the wrongdoers, you wanted to meet me for the Church's benefit and not mine, and when I challenged you and your open repeating back to me of the mis-advice you had been given about how to respond to my distress when you provoked it with your crass mishandling of your part in the cover-up, you dropped me like hot coals. You horrify me, you have played a part in destroying me, you have upheld wrongdoers and you appear to think that this is acceptable and that the Church are protected while I will suffer until I die. Apparently, to you, that is safeguarding.

Would you please do as asked for a year and refer my case to a safeguarding body outside of the Church of England, make sure that they contact me instead of whitewashing my case over again, and then it really will be best if you and Moira Murray take stock of your terrible attitude to me and the damage you have done in protecting the wrongdoers in my case and upholding them while I have been publicly destroyed, and you should both step down and go to jobs where you will not be insulting victims by blaming them and their distress and upholding wrongdoers.

And don't forget the request for me to attend Dignitas. If you really think that I am worse than abusers or Bishops and Deans who destroy the vulnerable, if you really think that I should go on carrying the vicious branding that the Church have inflicted on me through police, press and other authorities, I don't want to live. I don't want to live in a world where people like you uphold evil from an organization which still stupidly and emptily uses the Name of Jesus' for limitless abuse of power and destruction of the vulnerable. 

I don't want to live enduring Justin Welby's lies in the press and media when my destruction is the reason he shouldn't be there to lie any more, but no authority stands up to the corrupt and Godless Church of England, you are even having a fake safeguarding audit done, one in which my case is carefully airbrushed out, lied about, so that the Child abuse inquiry's strategic delay for Welby's sake can be used for the PR campaign over the fake audit presumably.
I don't want to live in the same world as the church of england and their use of the word 'safeguarding' to mean self-glorification and cover up, while I suffer and suffer with no relief and no way that there very can be relief because you uphold what has happened to me, you condone it, and you blame and shame me for my distress.

Let me know when you are willing to deal with the wrongdoers and abusers in my case and take away the burden of shame and branding that I carry. Let me know when you and Moira Murray are willing to fulfil your title and record my story and redact the public discrediting of me by the Archbishop and Bishops and apologize for your failure to contact me until they demanded it on their behalf. Let me know when you stop taking mis-advice that puts the blame on me and when you are willing to record my side of things. If you can't do any of this, step down because you are not safeguarding, you are taking part in harm and abuse of a vulnerable adult. Probably more than one.
Finally, remember to 'advise' your church that reaction to sustained harm by the Church is not a 'mental illness' whereby the victim can be discredited. Advise yourself this as well.



JJ/HG        - Victim of the massive Jersey and Winchester safeguarding stunt, smear campaign, whitewash and discrediting

Saturday, 4 February 2017

Caroline Venables

04/02/2017

Formal Letter to Caroline Venables.

Dear Caroline Venables,

Please excuse my rudeness and distress, or don't if you don't want to. On Thursday you tried to phone me, the first time my abusers at Lambeth Palace have ever tried to phone me. And at a time of very deep distress due to the Archbishop's repeated use of abuse to glorify himself and the Church of England when he has been asked enough times not to behave like that.
There is nothing that the Church can say to me, and phoning me when I am being re-abused by the man who publicly destroyed me, Justin Welby, is not a good idea.

Jane Dodds and Graham Tilby, followed by Moira Murray, injured me as much as they could in their dismissal of my anguish and their efforts to excuse themselves for allowing, aiding and abetting the massive public destruction of me by Welby and Dakin and the press. There is nothing you can say to me. However, you do have a duty of care and a duty to take action.
Nearly a year has gone by since Dakin and Welby publicly destroyed me after three years of severe harm, and you haven't made a press redaction, you haven't removed them for their harassment of me, you haven't done anything. So you have no right to phone me. Phone back when every wrongdoer is dealt with and not before, and by wrongdoer, you have to include yourself and your safeguarding team.

I do not know why you phoned me but let me guess:
• You want to silence me, my speaking up is a nuisance. I will not be silenced until you kill me, and the more damage you do, the more I will scream.
• You want to excuse the Church. Well what's new? Get Tilby to do that, he is a great liar, very believable, unlike Dodds. The two of them telling me different things would have been a comedy if their collusion in destroying me wasn't so evil.
• You want to warn me that you are trying to release any of the whitewashes or want my consent, agreement or co-operation. No. If you even try, I will destroy the Church of England outright. Shred the vile evil lies and stop harassing me. What you have done to me is contemptible.
• You want to pretend to care? Get stuffed, how many times?!
• You have been prompted to contact me by an outside agency or church or individual who has heard some of my story, you will now go back to them with a whine about trying to contact me but I screamed at you. I did. I will scream at you some more if you like. It releases some of years and years of anguish and anger at being destroyed over and over. Tell the agency to read my blog, I will post this letter on it.

I don't know you and I don't want to, you are part of the organization who destroyed me and upheld my abusers. You have a duty of care, especially as you claim (albeit falsely) to be to do with safeguarding.
So you will ensure that the upcoming press and media attack on behalf of the criminal you uphold, the Dean of Jersey, is forestalled, and you will make sure Gladwin retires properly and shreds the lies he has created in collusion with Steel and the Deanery of Jersey.

If I am further harmed, this letter will be available and you will be held liable.
Now go back to that snivelling corrupt coward Welby and make sure he hears this letter in no uncertain terms before he resigns. If he continues to shout and rant and lie in the press and media because of his desparation not to be exposed for his own crimes, his fall is going to be much harder.

Don't call me HG when you contact me. You named me as a spit of contempt and I now own the name. You call me JJ as asked previously.
When the press lies kick off or I have contact from the Church of England or press or media, it affects my work and studies, I am close to having to quit university and I end up starving and in danger of homelessness if you destroy my work through these matters. My whole life, relationships and tenancies are affected by the Church's harm of me.

HG/JJ

Sunday, 12 June 2016

Email safeguarding

Dear 'Safeguarding'

The Open Letter in this link was written in March this year, can you explain the difference between the slammed down phones and ignored emails then and the sudden sickly pretence of care now at the same time as the public attack on me?
I think you have a lot of explaining to do with the contents of this open letter and all the other open letters before there is any further annoyance or nuisance from Jane Dodds and the abuser Bishop who she is protecting:


HG

Wednesday, 8 June 2016

Safeguarding Failures

Formal complaint against Jane Dodds And Graham Tilby for re-abusing and distressing and already severely distressed and destroyed vulnerable adult.  Serious Formal complaint of harm and abuse by the Church of England and unchecked public abuse and harm by the Archbishop of Canterbury and Bishop of Winchester

Dear recipients, 

Please could all recipients who are not members of the Church of England make sure this email is sent to any authority with the power to intervene and safeguard. A vulnerable adult's life is at severe, genuine and ongoing risk at the hands of the Church of England, and this is being compounded by Jane Dodds and Graham Tilby, Safeguarding Directors of the church of england who are effectively condoning and compounding abuse and harm, trivilaising and excusing it and have refused to act to protect me and have watched as yet another one-sided Church abuse of the press has smeared, discredited and destroyed me, leaving me homeless, destitute and in collapse yet again. Three years of this is too much and too serious, no-one can go on standing by now.

I do not want contact from Jane Dodds, who is acting on behalf the seriously compromised  Bishop of Winchester and is causing me inordinate harm and distress while playing her part in yet another cover up after yet another public and press attack on my character and public discrediting of me. I refuse to meet with these people who have harmed me, and Dodds as well as trivialising the very serious and prolonged harm to me and refusing to act on it, is trying to force a meeting on me on behalf of the Bishop, further explained later in the email/letter/blog post and is trying to force intervention on me, violating me and undermining me. I am barely able to stay on my feet after the latest onslaught by the press over the whitewash of the abuse case, and Dodds is compounding a very serious situation.

Jane Dodds and her  upholding and taking part in  the most recent murderous attack on me is increasing the catastrophic damage from which I really don't think I can recover anyway.
Let me dispel a few myths in an email that will be sent to the courts in the event of my death or otherwise.

Each pre-meditated and deceitful press release by the Bishop and Archbishop is a serious safeguarding failure with no thought for my welfare whatsoever, indeed the Bishop and Archbishop are well aware that it harms me, and they do not arrange for my side to be heard, indeed they send what they like to the press and media, who use the name of the church and publish the press releases without question or investigation, the press and media attack me, the press and media ignore what I have to say and allow and even encourage attacks on me by strangers, as seen last year when Bob collapsed with the stress of trying to defend me, the lies and attacks are evidenced.

 The Archbishop and Bishop not only continue this persistent and relentless pattern of attack knowing very well what it is doing to me, but they have continued after costing Bob Hill his life, with no apology and no redaction, no attempt to ensure that my side is included. Total and utter disregard for both safeguarding and human life and welfare.  Presumably Dodds thinks she can excuse this not only to me but also to a court of law? And then can she explain why She and Graham Tibly ignore the attacks and their effects when they are a very very serious safeguarding failure, and why did neither she nor Graham Dodds responded to the attack on me and Bob Hill last year and didn't respond to ANYTHING sent to them until the Bishop of Winchester started intimidating me with fake apologies and bombarding me with emails and continuing to IGNORE MY REQUESTS FOR HIM TO STOP, JUST AS HE HAS IGNORED ALL WARNINGS TO STOP HARASSING AND HARMING ME, and then he went ahead with his press attack in conjunction with the Archbishop. 

I took the Bishop of Winchester to court in 2014 as he continued to discredit me with claims that the conflicted Steel report that he intended to publish at my expense and without my views 'would harm me' he failed to add to the press and media that Steel was conflicted and her report, just as Korris's, didn't include my story at all, both reports were whitewash coverups and Tilby and Dodds have failed to act either on these whitewashes or the press onslaught, the Bishop and Archbishop have publicly repeated their discrediting of me with Tilby and Dodds compliant.  Dodds has started a very see-through series of chummy and frothy emails to me, excusing the church and trying to force a meeting on me. She has to make sure this formal complaint against herself and Tilby is actioned and the proceedings to remove the Bishop of Winchester and Archbishop of Canterbury are from positions where they can abuse their power and destroy a vulnerable adult are dealt with first first. The evidence is there, a lot of it, so there is no excuse for this to be ignored any more.

Dodds does not need to contact me in order to deal with the above serious safeguarding failures, but obviously she has no intention of ever dealing with them. Now lets look at her emails in context of court evidence. Do you think her whimpering defence of the church will in any way be credible when she has refused to take immediate and serious action against the Archbishop and Bishop's serious safeguarding failures over the past three years? No, she will be seen and a loopy airy-fairy cover-up merchant, especially when three years of the press and media releases are presented to the court. 'What do you mean the church meant well?!' The church meant well in needlessly attacking a vulnerable adult in public and unchecked and knowing very well the distress they were causing? The church meant well in very serious discrediting and defamation and misleading of the general public? 
The church meant well in knowingly launching a prolonged and unchecked hate attack which no authority dares to challenge? This Dodds should resign immediately, why is she still there? There will be no safeguarding in the Church until Police, Social services, safeguarding agencies and other support agencies stand up to the Church of England solidly and without fear of reprisal. Why should one vulnerable adult who is likely to be driven to death, have to fight for her life for years on end because no agency will override the lies of the Church of the danger or standing up to an all-powerful and very dangerous and corrupt organization? Does it really have to take my death to end this terrible dictatorship? It won't be long now if so, because I simply cannot go on withstanding this, and what Dodd's has done in excusing the church is a jeer at someone who is crawling to their grave.
What about the safety of Children and the voiceless vulnerable when the church allow me to be attacked in the street by making me recognizable in their smear and discrediting campaign in the press?

There have been no apologies for the press and media attack and trolling and hate comments, there have been no apologies for the very very serious impact on my life, and Dodds may be able to froth and soft-soap and lie, but she is unable to come up with a credible excuse for the safeguarding board standing by and allowing this attack on me when I remain weak from the very serious prolonged attack last year that felled Bob Hill as he fought to defend me, and also weak from the following event of my best friend, a pillar of support, dying very quickly from an aggressive cancer.

What the Archbishop and Bishop have done in publicly discrediting me for three years in one-sided whitewash investigations and press releases and resulting smears of me is they have abused me, and they have abused me openly and knowingly, they have allowed me to be named and recognised within communities and have followed that up by having me traced and forced upon. This is ABUSE.
And while Jane Dodds has no reason whatsoever to go on and on acting on behalf of the Bishop and Archbishop as she is doing in contacting me on behalf of the Bishop, being deceitful and trying to change reality into more deceit and cover-up, she is obliged to stop lying and faking about what has happened and treat the Archbishop and Bishop's actions as abuse and act accordingly. It needs to be passed to an outside agency as Dodds and Tilby are showing open and blatant failure and bias.

You remember Jane Fisher, the deceitful and abusive safeguarding director who destroyed me? Dodds is carrying on the tradition. Apparently she thinks she can claim that no hurt was meant. You do not publicly attack and destroy someone and go on and on and on and on doing it as the Bishop and Archbishop have, and claim that no hurt was intended. You do not ever launch an attack on a vulnerable person in the press and then persist for over three years while they remain voiceless and suffering anguish, you simply do not, it is abuse, it is pre-meditated, and in the case of the Bishop and Archbishop, it started with a sham pretence of safeguarding and geared up into their self-defence as they clashed with some of the most powerful people in the world, the thugs that run Jersey, no thought for me or my welfare has been in evidence as the press releases and whitewash reports have continued to be upheld, made to look credible, fought over at my expense, and what have the safeguarding team done throughout this, and most notably during the recent attack? Nothing, although the recent attack has involved Jane Dodds liasing with the Bishop of Winchester as he proceeded with the press attack after ignoring my screams for him to stop contacting me.

The Bishop should not be contacting me at all except through a solicitor after I took him to court and especially not when I scream at him to leave me alone, so Jane Dodds is even more of a safeguarding failure to allow and uphold this.

An analogy I used to often use with Jane Fisher was: When you are destroying someone and you pretend to care as you do it, it is like a rapist trying to tell their victim that they love them and want to be their friend while raping them.
And remember, I can say that from experience, because as you know, Jane Fisher helped to leave me homeless on the streets with no access to the police due to her and the Bishop making me out to be mad and bad, so I couldn't report rape and believe me, none of those men were my friend or cared or worried about hurting me, and the archbishop and Bishop have no more concern for me than those men did, the Archbishop and Bishop, the same as those rapists(as well as being responsible for the rapes), know exactly what they are doing and how much harm they are doing, but their need to save their own skins means that a voiceless vulnerable adult is the weakest link, and even if they snuff me out, their priority is themselves. And do keep this email for that day, that day when Graham Tilby and Jane Dodds allow the next press attack, the one that kills me, and Dodds whitters about 'how no one meant to hurt me'. She isn't fit to be in safeguarding, but that is alright because she isn't really, she is covering up for abusers such as the Bishop and Archbishop.

There has been no apology or redaction from the Bishop or Archbishop, obviously the fake apologies come before press attacks and not after. The Safeguarding team have not issued an apology for allowing me to be attacked or an explanation of the following:

Why have there been only one-sided reports and press releases with no provision for me?
Why hasn't the independent report that I have asked for for years occured?
Why have the church not taken responsibility for forcing me into rough sleeping and actively preventing me from being housed and forcing me to flee through Fisher and Scott-Joynt's illegal violations of homeless services I tried to access and defamation of me whilst they also had me destroyed by the police for my objection to their interventions?
Why do safeguarding continue to allow the Bishop and Archbishop to abuse me?
How on God's earth can Tilby and  Dodds try to excuse the attacks that are killing me and allow them to continue?
How can Dodds or Tilby even delude themselves that there is any safeguarding after the way I have been publicly crucified?
Why is Dodds contacting me to whitter and whitewash instead of dealing with this very serious safeguarding failure, that she and Tilby are now openly party to?
Why is Dodds contacting me when she knows I know she is acting for an abuser, the Bishop of Winchester and she has enough evidence to launch an inquiry without contact?

Misleading the general public seriously and persistently through the press is a serious safeguarding failure, and Welby, with no shame at all, has gone on to throw tantrums and be pathetic in the spotlight over the Europe referendum, which is none of the church's business, but my narcissistic abuser, Justin Welby is desparate for attention.

Dodds already has this evidence, why has she not acted as an emergency?: The Bishop of Winchester has never met me and refused to, but lied to the press and media, implying that he had. He has persistently and relentlessly used the press and media for his own personal version of events ever since he showed very very serious disregard for safeguarding by launching my case into the press, he then stood by and let me be publicly destroyed, allowing the press and media and thus total strangers to attack me, he allowed members of the Jersey Deanery to print horrifyingly untrue and defamatory letters about me in the JEP and Church Times while my responses were ignored, and despite my complaints that became cries of anguish, he did nothing, well actually he threatened me for contacting him in anguish. The press and media attack has continued relentlessly and every time I have tried to get back on my feet, the attack has recurred. Don't you think Jane Dodds is not fit for her job when she tries to whitewash this reality out of the picture? Because this is cold hard and evidenced reality. 'The Church didn't mean to hurt me'? What is Dodds, a teenager sent for work experience by the jobcentre? Definitely not fit to be working with someone who is at risk for harm if she can excuse it like that! 

The Bishop has for three years, given powerful and connected wrongdoers a voice and left me silenced and condemned and feeling unable to believe in myself, I suffer 24 hours a day, with a lifetime of hurt publicly used to brand me, with the ignorance of the church to disability, vulnerability, dependence and poverty and the way abusers work compounding this. To the point now where the damage is so severe that I have lost my home and work and university and my body and mind are trying to shut down because the damage is so bad. Think about the people in concentration camps who didn't have family outside the camp as a reason to go on living and keep their identity for, in the end they couldn't persuade their minds and bodies to go on, and I am getting to that point after fighting for my life and rights against a so-called 'Christian' Church for so long.

I think Jane Dodds is either insane or not fit for her job to suddenly start acting to defend this public destroyal of me, and this email, this blog post, this letter, is to be produced to an inquiry and court when the time comes, be it in my death or otherwise, this letter is to be produced alongside her emails. Because I know, I learned from Jane Fisher, how the Church of England uses falsehoods in emails and letters and in the press and media, I learned from Jane Fisher how the Church's deceitful 'show' emails are used to protect the Church, and now I know how to respond. 

How does Dodds explain that the Dean's safeguarding failures are evidenced and the use of in-house clergy-lawyers can't change either that or the Dean's apology or the fact that the Church in the UK do not have any power over the Jersey church and yet instead of clarity and integrity, the Bishop and Archbishop have smeared and discredited ME publicly because of their failure in launching my case into the press and not carrying out balanced reports? Well all she has to say is that 'The Church didn't mean to hurt me'
Does a rapist mean to hurt his victim?

It really doesn't matter what Dodds thinks of how wonderful and well-meaning the church is, it shows that she is naive, incompetent or very deceitful, if she can see the evidence of the harm to me, the incredible stacks of evidence, and responds by whittering and trotting out the church's usual deceit, she can't remain in her position and this matter needs to go to someone who understands abuse and cover-up and especially someone who is not naive enough to think that the attacks on me are acceptable and look on as they occur.

When my case was launched into the press with no thought for my wellbeing, the Archbishop made a vague peacock apology to me in the press, part of the two-faced 'apology' campaign to vulnerable groups who can't answer back as the church glorify themselves this way, he then failed to meet me or respond to my correspondence, there is no excuse that Andrew Nunn may have been able to block correspondence, he should have been disciplined for his actions against me when I was in Jersey and should not be in a position to act for the Jersey Deanery or block my correspondence, but anyway, the Archbishop has always ignored or blocked correspondence, which makes his theoretical apology to me in the press into an empty falsehood. 
He has not met me, not responded to complaints against the Steel report, but has repeatedly met with the Dean of Jersey and his circle of powerful church-states-law-judiciary figures, who are above the law and can abuse their power infinitely, even to the point of altering and accessing the corrupt and inaccurate police records. The meetings are invariably flung into the press to launch attacks on me for the Jersey Deanery.
Not once has the Archbishop or Bishop met with me, heard my story or expressed a wish to do so, indeed, the Bishop refused to meet with me when asked to in 2013, when it became obvious to me and to Bob Hill that the matter was a farce. 

Remember the Bishop having to re-instate the Dean because he had no power to suspend him? Remember who was discredited as the Bishop whitewashed that? And tell me, is Jane Dodds really involved in this matter without being aware of that? No, Why has the Bishop of Winchester not been suspended then?
I know they are rubbish at Safeguarding but not rubbish enough to forget that,  so why is she lying to me? The Dean 'apologized' publicly, but the apology wasn't aimed at anyone, it was just a press release, that the Bishop failed to ensure reached me, and then the Bishop sent me a message saying 'no unsolicited intervention confirmed' in response to me asking him to stop violating my privacy. And then he and Jane Fisher illegally referred me to the NSPCC so that the Bishop could do another press stunt claiming that 'They had been working hard across the Diocese to provide help for me' which led to another onslaught of strangers calling me ungrateful because the press hate the Bishop as much as they hate me and they quoted me as saying I hadn't asked for the Bishop's help.
The press notably quote me or misquote me to attack the Bishop or to make me look mad. The Jersey press hate him almost as much as they hate me.
Jane Dodds can't credibly go on claiming that my feelings have been or are taken into account in any of this. She looks stupid and fake and does she or the Bishop really think I have no memory, no recollection of similar arrangements to what she and the Bishop are now doing?

Let me remind you. In 2009, while I was being destroyed in Jersey and by Jane Fisher, my Dad had a second stroke and went into a coma, he and I hadn't been close most of his life, mainly because I was afraid of him, he was autistic and had spent my childhood violently beating me for small mistakes or my maths learning difficulty, this is one of the reasons I was not close to my family, who the church have estranged me from completely now by having me destroyed, imprisoned, left homeless and then the press and media attacks which my family saw, and now think I am totally insane, another glaring safeguarding failure that Dodds can't see. 
Anyway, I fell prey to abuse in the church because I was unable to be close to my family. In my Dad's last year of life he knew I was in serious difficulties, and despite being autistic, he tried to help me. When he went into a coma I sat with him after his life support was switched off, my brothers and sisters left us alone as they went to get drunk.

Christmas came and I had nothing left to live for, if I hadn't made emergency arrangements to be admitted to Maytree for that Christmas I would have committed suicide. And I wish I had, if I had known that the hope that Maytree gave me would be destroyed the way it was by Fisher and Scott-Joynt, I would have committed suicide anyway.
If you are wondering why I mentioned this, I will get to that but let me make a point. None of this is any of the whitewash reports or press releases that exclude me.

I started 2010 with a bit of hope from Maytree, they sent me home with a letter telling me about how incredible what I had survived was, and how incredible what I was doing with my life and work and volunteering and education was.  (all of which, as you know, has been destroyed).
The deceit from Joyce Cockell, Jane Fisher, Tracy Bromley and others that that used to trick me into a meeting is one of the thousands of wounds that I carry, I was lied to and misled, into a set-up meeting to cover Fisher and Scott-Joynt's backs, and worse, not only was it a standard Church of England procedure set-up, it was to get their responsibility out of the way so that they could have me destroyed with the police, the lies, deceit and dishonesty regarding that meeting is a wound among thousands, but gouged deeper by lies and cover-up over it in the whitewash Korris report. 
So, after the meeting, having covered their backs and done nothing for my suffering, they began the destroyal that left me imprisoned and homeless, and I will never come to terms with the imprisonment, I retch when I have flashbacks and I fight my mind back into dissociation otherwise I would take my life. Some of you who read my blogs in the early days on the streets will know I had to completely dissociate in order to live with the horror of what has happened, while Fisher and Scott-Joynt, not satisfied with my homeless and destroyed state, continued to slander and destroy me.

Anyway, what is the point in telling you this? The Bishop and Jane Dodds think that another such back-covering meeting can be set-up, presumably followed by me being viciously assaulted by police where it won't leave marks, flung in a cell, imprisoned, jeered at  and left homeless and fleeing from persistent violations and slanders of me to homeless outreaches as previously occured.

I am not going to meet with the Church after over three years of being publicly, relentlessly and blatantly, openly destroyed, Dodds can stop now and she can stop sitting there and making silly silly noises that don't relate to the matter and she can ensure that my two very open and proud abusers, the Archbishop of Canterbury and the Bishop of Winchester are disciplined and removed from positions where they can abuse with impunity.
Furthermore, she is to alert the authorities to the fact that these people have behaved as if they are above the law and are a very blatant and open risk to the vulnerable and feel that they are protected to abuse by their name and status, and she can ensure that a balanced and independent inquiry that includes me and is safe for me, is called.

Let me also point out, that due to the Julie Wallman dirty tricks campaign that left me in collapse while Fisher and the Bishop beset me from all sides, I am not STUPID ENOUGH TO WALK INTO meeting that will be AN AMBUSH OR A SETUP, I AM WAITING RIGHT HERE UNTIL THE BISHOP'S PET POLICE ARRIVE, BEAT ME, IMPRISON ME AS BEFORE, OR MORE LIKELY KILL ME IN THE WEAKENED STATE I AM IN. I am sure from what I have experienced, that the church do not care as long as I am disposed of. Fisher's efforts to kill me off were sustained and deadly, and I will never recover.

Jane Dodds is both biased on behalf of the church and Bishop, and she is conflicted, she has failed and is failing to safeguard me and acts as if she either has very little understanding of vulnerability and safeguarding, or is deliberately protecting the Bishop and Archbishop. She is not in a position to continue to distress me by contacting me to protect and uphold my abusers, nor is she in a position to act in my case. The fact that she and Graham Tilby blatantly ignored my cries for help during last year's onslaught in the press and media but made contact when the Bishop launched his most recent deceit campaign is a statement that speaks as clearly as possible.
Do you think Dodd's statement 'The Church never meant to hurt you' is even remotely valid or relevant? It doesn't matter what they meant, if they cannot understand what they have done and are doing, even when told for over three years then they are a serious danger to to children and the vulnerable, and Dodds really is in a position where she should step down just for making such excuses.  Look at the evidence, look at her statement, it is ludicrous, for her to say something like that to someone who is as destroyed as I am, it shows contempt, or lack of understanding of safeguarding, or simply that she is acting on behalf of the church to protect the church.

Dodds can make a statement like that, but now she knows and can tell the church that their 'accidental' hurt of me through public destroyal of me 'hurt' me, why has there not been a public apology, redaction of the whitewashes and the morally wrong public apology to the Dean and abuse of the press over it, and an assurance that the Church of England will stop harassing me and independently investigate my complaint?

I guess I have benefitted from Jane Fisher's years of lies only in that I have learned to shine a light on the Godless Church of England's lies, the lies so weak that anyone who can think can see through them but most don't stop to think.
An independent inquiry can be called without a back-covering meeting with the Church, there is no doubt legally and in truth that that is the case, so please make sure if you care about safeguarding, that that is what happens. Don't pretend and don't make excuses, the whole of my adult life has been damaged by the Church of England, and I am facing death if I am not protected, and even in my death, I want this email read out against Jane Dodd's emails and I want a list of the hundreds of cries for help that I made read out, the hundreds of letters I went hungry in order to print and post, the huge books of defamatory press releases and reports that sit in a file and make me retch if I accidentally open it. But what I don't want is Dodds imitating Paul Butler and 'paying tribute' to me when I am forced to my death, what Butler did is what Butler does, the same as what Dodds is doing in my case.

As far as I know, the church have never before kept up such a sustained and public attack on someone as they have on me, ever. I know the Bishop has publicly destroyed one of his Clergy, Reverend Hawthorne, and also a homosexual couple who worked for him, and certainly Eli Ward and Theresa Cooper and several others have endured years of harm and cover up for being abused, but I think my case is one of the most serious cases of sustained abuse because no other case has had this level of open and blatant press hatred and smears aimed at the abuse survivor.

Is Dodds going to set my police record straight, ensure I can gain medical help and live my life openly and freely being me and not a fugitive any more? Is she going to publicly annul the whitewash Korris, Gladwin, Steel and Johnstone reports? Is she going to call the independent investigations into the abuse and harm I have suffered in the church and the three year run of public smearing and discrediting of me by the Jersey Deanery, Bishop of Winchester, Archbishop of Canterbury and associated people and strangers who have attacked me? No. So Jane Dodds is not credible and is not involved in safeguarding me. And nothing the Church could do or will do will change my ruined work record, the way I am branded and my poverty and ill health. Dodd's response to my case is beyond the pale.

Dodds, you can have your meeting, when Bob Hill is well and whole again, when he can walk and talk and smile again. When Bob, who the Church of England destroyed while 'accidentally' hurting me as a by-product of their coverup and narcississm and deceit, can speak and is healed, he can then sit in the meeting on my behalf and tell you what he thinks of you and then blog about it, so that the lies about the meeting can be countered by a man with the integrity and courage to stand up to an organization who are worse than Hitler's Nazi regime. The Church of England, who use God's Name in Vain for their deceit and corruption and abuse of the press and the vulnerable.
Nothing the Church ever says will be of value until Bob is whole and well and in Jersey caring for his wife and family. Never mind me being ruined and facing death, Mr Hill was a family man who sacrificed his life trying to save mine from harm by the Church of England and their press and media.


sincerely,


HG              


I will fight until I fall, with courage.

Thursday, 2 June 2016

Setting the record straight

Dear Church of England Safeguarding Board, especially Dodds and the Bishop of Winchester,

Although I haven't read the pack of lies sent to me by the Bishop in past weeks I do know that is all he is capable of and I understand that he has liaised with Jane Dodds of the safeguarding board to try to use her in whatever deceit and harm he has inflicted on me with the help of the press and Archbishop. I believe they intend to try and force on me as Fisher frequently did, which is illegal. 

Jane Fisher, Elizabeth Hall, Paul Butler, Jill Sandham, Daphne Green and others have all harmed me while calling themselves safeguarding representatives.
Indeed in Fisher's case, the Bishop upheld her in continuing to harm me, for example in the illegal referral to the NSPCC AFTER I had made a complaint against Fisher. The Bishop refused to deal with my complaint and left Fisher as a reader in his diocese as well as 'safeguarding' director, and he upheld her deceitful and destroying actions. He invalidated the Diocese's insurance and he lied by arranging the illegal refferal to the NSPCC in order to have something to lie to the press about helping me. What he has just done is the same sort of thing, so he hasn't learned anything, he thinks he can go on treating me this way over and over, year after year, he is mistaken, I am going to go on fighting until he leaves or he kills me, whichever comes first. But he will not use another crazy Jane to help him, unless she wants to face harassment charges for aiding the Bishop's harm to me. Lets see if we can turn the press spotlight on Dodds having to stand and stutter in court? Can I outbid the CofE's bribes?

I gather from the Bishop's drivel about being 'very concerned for me' while he publicly destroyed me through the press again.that it means what it generically means, he and Jane Dodds have been violating me or will violate me in the same way as he and Scott-Joynt and  Fisher repeatedly did. It isn't 'help' or 'care' it is cover-up, but the church has trouble distinguishing between the two. You can't destroy someone while pretending to care, that is exactly what Fisher did for years and it is still insane and to see the Bishop continuing such a horrifying fake makes me sick. The only things he can do to help is withdraw his three year attack on me and resign and make sure an investigation into what happened to me before and since he arrived is instigated, oh and he can annul his criminal whitewash report-harassment of me, all of them.

It amazes me that after all this time, the Bishop still thinks I am weak and stupid and will fall for his crap. It shows how stupid and arrogant he is, how nasty, how small, how psychopathic he is. He thinks, after all my objections, that destroying me and pretending to care still go hand in hand, in the press of course, and only with the light of the press on him. In real life he blocks my emails, puts the phone down on me, and allows whitewash reports while I am left silenced.

Be warned Dodds, I know what safeguarding means in the church of England, in the wider world we call it cover-up. Would you like to be taken to court? Leave my personal life alone, and any illegal referrals will be met with every atom of force I have. I will smash back until you leave me alone. For years Jane Fisher stalked me, violated me, broke the law and slandered me, she has left me completely isolated, humiliated, branded and unable to relate to people, so if you start doing the same, I will fight you in the same way I fought her. Rape Violations of my life do not equal help or care, they equal crime and you being a psychopathic risk to the vulnerable.

Now presumably this is to be the third week of Church Times unfettered attacks on me after they have been warned? That too will be presented to the court. Safeguarding? What a joke! Three years of completely pre-meditated and completely uncensored one-sided public attacks on a traumatised vulnerable adult with no investigation into the damage or into the abuse and misconduct, and what is coverup-Dodds doing about that? Whatever the Bishop tells her, presumably. Any friend of the Bishop's...Is a lying spineless coward, and I object to this Dodds woman being the next Jane Fisher, one was enough to leave me screaming in anguish and destroyed in endless night, why repeat it needlessly? Why? Coverup.

A final note on the new crazy Jane sidekick of the Bishop's. She is a the 'senior caseworker' for the CofE coverup crew, otherwise known as safeguarding. But her supervisor, Graham Tilby has ignored my case and my concerns solidly since I first contacted him during the press and media attack last year that felled Bob Hill. Has Tilby ever answered me? Nope, Dodds only recently got involved on behalf of the Bishop of Winchester. Safeguarding in the church remains a joke, even with liar Butler mysteriously jettisoned with a grenade up his behind. I wonder if this recent severe attack on me was his parting revenge for me wishing him good riddance because of the harm he has done to abuse victims in order to cover up for the Church? I am told that he was unable to coherently explain what his actual role in safeguarding was when asked and so it was assumed he was there to whitewash to the national inquiry.

HG