After Winchester written 11/06/201

This was the very first post on 'The Wanderer' blog, which is now merged with 'life After the Diocese', this was written about 5 months after I fled Winchester
 http://lifeafterthediocese.blogspot.co.uk/2011/10/a-new-town.html

As I said, my life since this first post is mainly covered by 'Life After the Diocese' with some more complex issues not covered in full, such as the way medical, homeless, and other services, and people, treated me because of the Diocese and the record that they got me, I will write about these in due course.

Here are some of the posts about London:

I was not in London for that long, I had hoped to escape the Diocese there, but sadly, as I said before, if you register somewhere or seek help, they look up your history, and you cease to be a good person and become the mad and bad branded person who is treated with disgust and feels shame and distresss, I had a terrible time with outreach hounding me and even at the times when I voluntarily sought help and housing, I was in a state of severe trauma and was treated as mad and bad and 'mentally ill' and was unable to tell my own story. It was and is a nightmare in which I have no voice, trapped, branded, unheard and helpless.

The problem with posting a number of links is that the feed always shows that only a few people read a few links, but nonetheless, what you can do is start with the first link, and instead of coming back to this page, just scroll back through life after the diocese by selecting 'newer post' each time.Or look for London posts in the archive after the first two:

1. http://lifeafterthediocese.blogspot.co.uk/2011/10/this-post-is-transferred-from-homeless.html
2. http://lifeafterthediocese.blogspot.co.uk/2011/10/a-few-rather-uninteresting-things-to.html
3. http://lifeafterthediocese.blogspot.co.uk/2011/10/memories-of-london-continued-it-is.html
4. http://lifeafterthediocese.blogspot.co.uk/2011/10/more-memories-of-london-i-thought-that.html
5. http://lifeafterthediocese.blogspot.co.uk/2011/10/memories-of-london-continued.html

1. http://lifeafterthediocese.blogspot.co.uk/2011/10/more-memories-of-london-by-popular.html
2. http://lifeafterthediocese.blogspot.co.uk/2011/10/the-cult-part-1.html
3. http://lifeafterthediocese.blogspot.co.uk/2011/10/the-cult-continued_23.html
4. http://lifeafterthediocese.blogspot.co.uk/2011/10/the-cult-continued.html
5. http://lifeafterthediocese.blogspot.co.uk/2011/10/the-cult-final-chapter.html

I will continue the London links and After Winchester later.

But basically, 2 years of most of my story after Jersey is available on  'Life after the Diocese'.

Anything and everything

I wrote this on the day to day blog, but I thought it would be relevant on here.

Good morning,

Well I slept and I dreamed that Fisher had me flung in prison again, Stuart Syvret was in the prison and we were resigned to the fact that the wrongdoers would keep putting us away rather than taking responsibility for themselves.
I woke up into flashbacks of Fisher's malice and deceit, especially in Sussex, not good, the cold horror of it, and the fact she would happily wipe out my new life, put me away and do a report like Korris that pretends it is all someone else and violate me bysending some airheaded idiot of a chaplain to violate me when I ask for a real chaplain like I did in LaMoye, where I specifically asked for a Mathodist or Catholic Chaplain and instead, Fisher was able to override that and send some airhead CofE idiot who SHE wanted to see me. How absolutely sick.

I can never really recover from Fisher, and she is free to continue to violate and injure me despite my complaints.

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Someone asked again recently if the diocese were in any way involved in housing me!
NO!
The violations and interferences and slanders of me by Jane Fisher and Michael Scott-Joynt led to me being long term homeless and on the run because they kept setting the police on me in response to my response to their violations and interferences.
It still sickens me, it was like being raped when they kept violating me.
If the diocese were in any way involved in my life, I would flee.
I still feel at risk from them and my life is limited by that, I am a refugee.
Why would I ever let my destroyers be involved when they have the power to turn a whole community against me, as they did? I remain anguished and psychologically injured by that.

The problem

Here is the problem.
While I am waiting to be wiped out by the Church of England again, with no reassurance that they wont wipe me out. How can I build my life or be assured of anything in it? You can't build a life while waiting in limbo, and it is tremendously psychologically damaging.