A Pastoral Letter to Justin Welby

This first link is from another victim, then the main post is my letter

https://cathyfox.wordpress.com/2018/03/25/survivors-reply-to-archbishops-pastoral-letter/

To Justin Welby, Archbishop of Canterbury regarding his continued use of abuse in the press and media.

 CC IICSA, SCIE, Bishops, Police, Victims Commissioner, the BBC and others. 26/03/2018

Dear Justin Welby,

First and foremost, you need to read all of this letter because it contains an initial warning of legal action against you, and your powerful and Godless lawyers won't be able to stop or prevent this as you are evidenced in the press and media to be knowingly breaking the law, causing harm and danger to the vulnerable, and aiding and upholding others in doing the same. Some say your PR stunts to do with abuse occur when you are contacted about my case and others and reminded of your criminal negligence and cover-ups.

Enough is enough. Enough was enough years ago when you publicly destroyed a vulnerable adult with the help of the unquestioning and complicit press and media in order to cover up the church's wrongdoings at the expense of the victim's life. To put out a pastoral letter that appears to jeer at victims giving evidence to the IICSA, after the IICSA have been asked to stop you from using abuse as a PR campaign during their inquiry, is the ultimate contempt, and again reinforces the image that you feel that the IICSA will protect you and your church as well as your callous disregard for victims' feelings. From the IICSA's part, they are allowing the image that you are going to go on being an unregulated and abusive organization, as they don't appear to have effectively restrained you.

Let me just scenario that. Imagine that you are a victim. You are struggling with life because you have been raped or buggered by clergy and laity in the church, and as a result you cannot have faith in God. You are going through a tough time as you finally hope to see justice through giving evidence to the IICSA. And you then see the organization who have not only abused you but treated you appallingly when you have asked them for justice, using the press and media for limelight over their 'prayers' for you. You will be disgusted.

As every victim knows, prayers from their abusers and the organization which abused them, doesn't un-abuse them, doesn't un-rape or un-bugger them, doesn't in fact make any difference, as I can assure you myself. Do you know what your prayers look like to an abuse victim? They look like you and your church live in another world, where you have no understanding whatsoever of the impact of your continued psychopathic lack of understanding of abuse and safeguarding.

You and yours 'prayed' for me publicly as you acted in great evil to destroy and nearly kill me. Believe me your prayers are an abomination, and if God exists, He will spit on you before sending you to hell, all you have achieved is cutting me off from God and leaving me suffering living death and unremitting anguish, day and night, so tell me, does God not hear your prayers? Or are your prayers just a worthless show from a bunch of dangerous over-powerful hypocrites? As I am sure you know, some church victims endured clergy saying prayers before or after they raped them.

What about my prayers for justice and for your silencing and removal, and for the same for those named below? Does God hear me? Does He hear me as I go on and on asking for you to be silent and be removed, and for the church to be held to account for their evil in my case? While I suffer and you and those involved aren't held to account, I see prayers as useless and your use of prayers that was as re-abuse.

As a victim, seeing this continued and relentless showing off at victims' expense while continuing to refuse to act upon abuse and wrongdoing you will feel that not only are the church confident of influencing the IICSA in making sure the church are seen in a good light over their abuse, but that they are jeering. Jeering that no matter how much the church are asked to stop using abuse as a PR stunt, no matter how much the church are told that while they don't safeguard and while they treat victims badly, they shouldn't be boasting, they intend to ignore the pleas of victims and requests to the IICSA for the boasting to stop, the Church of England intend to go on being callous and cruel and jeering and using abuse and victims to boast and glorify themselves.

Certainly the IICSA's behaviour in my case, in enabling the church to leave me homeless with the help of the police in the horrific Amberstone attack which left me homeless to this day, taking my new identity and community and ruining me, does cast doubts on the IICSA's investigation of church abuse. The IICSA didn't show neutrality or impartiality in subjecting me to that additional damage after your attempt on my life by destroying me publicly.

Your behaviour is so crass and callous, especially as I and other victims have asked you repeatedly to stop behaving like this, to stop using abuse to glorify yourself and show your contempt for victims.

I am the victim who you personally left for dead and left suffering unremitting and unbearable anguish. And each time you and Peter Hancock use abuse as a boast or a PR stunt as you do, you destroy me again, and you leave me unable to earn my hand-to-mouth living, so you leave me without food. You and Peter Hancock uphold the wrongdoers in my case, and thus you should both have resigned by now, neither of you are in a position to use safeguarding or abuse as a boast. Neither of you have the courage to contact me about my complaints, so safeguarding or even human decency are two things you don't understand.

Most people would have committed suicide over your and Bishop Tim Dakin's shocking and disgraceful launch of my case into the press with my side unrecorded and unheard, and three years use of my case in the press to destroy and discredit me while glorifying the church and making the matter to be about safeguarding while ignoring me and my anguish and the damage I suffered as a result of the public hate you triggered, the beatings and rapes I suffered as a result of you making me into a figure of public hatred are unhealable.

Three years of clergy and laity openly behaving like animals and certainly not Christians, to destroy a vulnerable adult publicly without any relief or mercy. Three years in which many many members of the church behaved in ways that would leave them without jobs if they were working for any decent organization. The Church of England is neither decent nor Christian, and is running on falsehoods and abusing power that it shouldn't have. The Church of England has proven what a danger it is to the public and the vulnerable while it is unregulated and above the law. And your massive use of abuse as PR while nothing has improved in safeguarding and you have been part of a massive safeguarding failure that nearly killed and has left destroyed, a vulnerable adult who was abused by serial abusers in your church.

If it was about safeguarding, why did you launch the matter into the press so that I was attacked and threatened and still am being, and am living as a fugitive? If it was about safeguarding, why did I have to take Bishop Tim Dakin to court to stop him from killing me with attacks on my character, and if it was about safeguarding, why is Tim Dakin still in his position after I took him to court?

If it was about safeguarding, why did you allow four whitewash reports by conflicted individuals and bodies to continue and be used to destroy me? Why did you fail to answer any of my concerns at any time, and only meet with the power and criminally behaved dignitaries involved in the public destruction of me? Why are you still insulting abuse victims after behaving like this? You still do not have effective safeguarding, and you still treat victims appallingly, I can only assume from your continued psychopathic and callous behaviour in using victims for PR, that you are mentally ill and in need of retiring from your position to seek help before you do any more harm.

You and your safeguarding team, or so called, and Bishops and staff, have behaved appallingly, and some of them should not still be in their positions. You have received numerous complaints and will continue to do so, as you continue to ignore the complaints.

Take the time to act upon the complaints made rather than showing how you can abuse the press and media on silly, badly produced articles and 'pastoral letters' created to glorify you and your dangerous corporation. And get some advice on what a pastoral letter is, a pastoral letter isn't supposed to be a PR stunt or a way of misleading people, do you remember Tim Dakin using his pastoral letter to lie about my case and mislead clergy at my expense?

Why is Tim Dakin still in office? He was happy to kill me to cover up his wrongdoing, he is the evidence that you don't, won't and can't safeguard and have no regard for the lives or welfare of victims. You and he have never responded to my concerns and you allowed conflicted hate attacks on me and called them reports, and have not recorded or investigated my case, so how can you either safeguard or care about abuse victims? You took the side of, and publicly upheld the wrongdoers in my case, without meeting me or communicating with me.

Remember, nothing has been done about the million pound Jersey and Winchester whitewash that was used to cover up for the church and destroy me, and there has been no recording of what has happened to me, what I have experienced, and thus nothing has been done about the wrongdoing of those involved.

Do you recall you and Peter Hancock publicly upholding the Key wrongdoers in my case, and telling the world through the press and media that those people were to work for you in evangelical positions, that needs to be investigated, and until it has been, indeed until the whole adult lifetime of the church abusing me, especially your three year public discrediting of me and criminal actions and conflicted whitewash of my case has been investigated, you are in no position to go on and on callously and psychopathically boasting, not that victims will ever want to be shocked by your lies about caring and safeguarding. But save the boasting until your personally led million pound public attempt on the life of a vulnerable adult, leaving her living dead and without justice, a voice or any closure, has been investigated by an independent (look it up!) review.

Make sure the following people are investigated independently over my case, and this is an exhaustive list: Yourself, Peter Hancock, Paul Butler, John Sentamu, Daphne Green, the Diocese of York, Paul Butler and the Diocese of Durham, the Jersey and Guernsey, Winchester, Andover and Romsey Deaneries, Tim Dakin, Jackie Rowlands, John Gladwin, Christine Daly, Trevor Willmott, Sheila Rooke, Elaine Rose, Graham Tilby, Jane Dodds, Moira Murray, Caroline Venables.

In addition, you are responsible for making sure the criminal and dangerous behaviour of the press and media, States of Jersey, Jersey Safeguarding Partnership, Jersey's judiciary, and police, and all complicit authorities and all that failed to act, are investigated. The whole matter is your responsibility, and for two years since you and Tim Dakin attempted on my life, you have ignored my letters and emails, put the phone down on me, and instructed your clergy, laity, safeguarding team and anyone connected to the church, to do the same. Make sure the Church Times spreading of hatred and lies about me is made particularly prominent in the investigation.

Remember, this is an exhaustive list, and this is going to be a big investigation, but you had a million pounds in spare change to throw away on having me publicly destroyed and killed, you had a million pounds to allow a lot of conflicted people to break the law, illegally access records, publicly destroy a vulnerable adult, and act in criminal and harmful ways, you had a million pounds to leave me living as a terrified fugitive with no access to medical help or the protection, support or justice that the police, social services, justice and other agencies should offer, because you and your church destroyed and defamed me. So you must have the ten  million or so to investigate my case in its entirety, including your own massive criminal abuse of power and cowardice in failing to answer me and my requests for justice. Make sure the investigation is begun as soon as possible, make sure someone who knows what independent means contacts me about who the investigators are to be, and make sure that this time, my side of things is given priority as the million pound whitewash covers the lies and hatred of the wrongdoers and conflicted authorities already but doesn't include me.

Now, as I said at the beginning, as you appear to intend to go on re-abusing me and other victims with impunity and ignoring requests for you to stop, and as the police continue to be complicit and refuse to act upon the criminal behaviour of you and your clergy and laity, I will tell you as I told Tim Dakin and he ignored it at great cost to himself, if the police won't stop you or bring you to justice, I will take you to court. Remember how Tim Dakin was so embarrassed to be taken to court that when you and he publicly destroyed me in 2016, he failed to tell the general public about that through the press, and instead tried to claim that he was feeding the illegal criminal whitewash Steel report into the whitewash Gladwin report, without either meeting with me or giving me a copy of the Steel report.

It is absolutely unthinkable that in this day and age you have, or think you have, got away with the million pound whitewash and left me living as a destroyed fugitive, and your arrogance and psychopathy not only in thinking that this will be covered up, but to go on boasting about abuse and glorifying yourself, is appalling, unthinkable, only a Godless and unregulated organization like the church could do that, and you remember when you used George Carey as a PR stunt in asking him to step down when you exactly the same to me in my case as he did to the Peter Ball victims?

All I can say is, one more boast from you and I will file, and you may control the press and media to the extent that you were able to publicly destroy me unquestioned, but you will go down in history for your criminal behaviour in my case. And remember, Tim Dakin thought I was bluffing until he ended up in court with a lawyer who lied desperately and then dropped dead. What a terrible shameful position you and Tim Dakin and your colleagues are in, to be using the Lord's Name in vain while you don't know Him and are invalidating any person you give communion to, and marriage you preside over, any service you preside over, because you were willing to KILL a vulnerable adult and lie about it, for the sake of the church's image.

Every day that I suffer, you and your church and faith are invalid and God, if He exists, will be furious. Stop boasting and hiding, your victim and the injustice is not going away through your blocking her and her calls, letters and emails, your victim isn't going away while your safeguarding team invalidate themselves by doing the same.

 Sincerely, the destroyed and dying victim of the million pound Jersey and Winchester Whitewash and demonstration that the Church of England are a dangerous, nasty and needless burden on society.

JJ

Listen:

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/p/listen-children-to-story.html#.WsKPkC7wbcd

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This blog, as I was trying to say in an earlier post, is mainly at the end of it's useful life, in a way, in that I don't normally post on here any more, I keep it so that I can link letters of complaint to posts on here, and that sends the church nuts, which is a bonus.

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 - Survivor of the lack of safeguarding in the Church of England and their need to place image above the welfare of the vulnerable and abuse victims.

I need to share this with you urgently

As well as schools, this is what the Church of England's fake safeguarding campaign is all about!

I knew this, but no proper response is being made by Ecclesiastical.

Have a read of this link below, it is vital, thanks Cathy.

https://cathyfox.wordpress.com/2017/07/08/sea-of-complicity-blog-on-abuse-by-the-church-of-england/

Peter Hancock - Abuser Protector - replacing Paul Butler as CofE abuse apologist and Press Stuntman

The Bishop of Bath and Wells should be quiet and stop trying to glorify himself, he employs a criminal abuser, Robert Key. He is part of a million pound cover-up which destroyed a vulnerable adult. Enough is enough.

The Bishop of Bath and Wells isn't in a position to 'apologize' he is protecting and upholding the abusive criminals Bob and Daphne Key, who destroyed a vulnerable adult with the church of england's full and open blessing.

Why isn't the Bishop of Bath and Wells under investigation for giving the Keys access to the vulnerable after their abuse of me?

Paul Butler has been told to give this matter to the police, which is maybe why Peter Hancock is doing the empty, sickly Paul Butler impression this week instead of Butler.

There is an investigation into the Bishop of Winchester, but there also needs to be an investigation into why the Bishop of Bath and Wells is making a fuss about the Peter Ball case while he is harbouring and upholding the criminally abusive former Dean of Jersey and his wife after the million pound whitewash of the case and destruction of the former Dean of Jersey's victim, and why the former Dean is being given access to the vulnerable after what he has done and been protected by the church for doing.

It would be a good idea if Peter Hancock, formerly of the Diocese of Winchester, and who the victim begged for help and was ignored, kept a very very low profile rather than fake apologies in the press and media, akin to Justin Welby, Tim Dakin and Paul Butler also doing fake apologies to the million pound whitewash victim and others while publicly destroying the million pound whitewash victim.

Peter Hancock has received a formal complaint about the abusive and dangerous former Dean of Jersey and his wife, and has ignored it, he is not in a position to take over from Paul Butler as press stuntman while he is harbouring a dangerous man and has ignored concerns and is leaving that man, and his equally dangerous wife as a risk to the vulnerable.

This email is to be taken as a formal complaint against Peter Hancock, who was contacted in 2011 by Bob Key's victim, who was being destroyed by Jane Fisher and the Scott-Joynts to try to silence her, and he ignored this, he has taken the dangerous and lawless Keys on in an evangelism position after a million pounds of church money was spent on covering up for their wrongdoing and destroying their victim in a public and lawless smear campain which included numerous conflicted whitewash reports, and the church's lawyers and PR companies and inter-conflicted police, judiciary and government ministers advising them.

The Church should already have learned that fake PR apologies are not appropriate when there has been no improvement in their behaviour or intentions, nothing has changed since the Peter Ball case, and you have to look at why this apologist is apologizing, presumably as he currently harbours criminals who have spent a million pounds of church money on cover-ups, he may have been involved in protecting Ball, or he is simply part of the Welby-Butler horrific fake safeguarding and fake apologies campaign that abuses power over the press and media to get the church glory on the back of the rape of children.

I would advise that Peter Hancock takes a seat and is silent now, because he and his diocese need to be investigated for taking on people like Bob and Daphne Key in evangelism positions when they have done wrong, see the attached Hill report sent with this email.

Police receiving this email, I would like the investigation into the Bishop of Winchester to be extended to the Diocese of Bath and Wells and the former acting Bishop of Winchester, now Bishop of Bath and Wells, Peter Hancock. Every recipient, please send this email to the police, and keep sending it, because no lessons have been learned from the Peter Ball case, the Bishop of Bath and Wells is the very proof of that.

This email is also copied to the Church of England's National Safeguarding Team, as a courtesy, as they have stated to me that they uphold the harm to me by the Dioceses of Winchester and Canterbury and Jersey. Thus the Church of England still do not safeguard or understand safeguarding, but they have to record my complaint, and hopefully when the Church of England are forcibly overseen because of the risk that they pose to the vulnerable - they nearly killed me and had me publicly destroyed -there will have to be a full investigation, including Peter Hancock employing and upholding dangerous abusers and giving them access to the vulnerable through evangelism.

As well as the church nearly killing me, and leaving me suffering and destroyed, they nearly killed Bob Hill, a former police officer who stood up for me as the church relentlessly destroyed me publicly for three years. I think Peter Hancock, who had already put the Ball report on his website in preparation of his boast today, needs to be quiet and look at his misconduct in the current million pound Jersey and Winchester whitewash. This is a formal, safeguarding, and police complaint against Peter Hancock and the Diocese of Bath and Wells in addition to the complaints already standing against the Dioceses of Winchester and Canterbury. I am concerned that since Hancock left the Diocese of Winchester for Bath and Wells, he is increasingly growing into the new Paul Butler, the duplicitous abuser-protector church press and media stuntman. What the Church need to do is stop abusing the press and media and general public and appoint a safeguarding team, as they don't have one, an independent safeguarding team, who will hold Justin Welby, Paul Butler, Tim Dakin, the Keys and others to account, because right now the Peter Ball case is not history, my case has been no different, and Peter Hancock is part of that, so he is the last person who should be shooting his mouth off to glorify the church. They should not keep saying sorry when they are not and when nothing has changed.

This complaint will now also be published on my blog.

JJ - victim of the recent million pound church of england whitewash and cover-up to protect wrongdoers in the church.

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The high blog stats indicate...

Another attack by the Church of England is on it's way.
Will it kill me or not? My usual question.

Anyway...How appropriate!

12th Interview with HG

1. How did you communicate your complaint to the Dean, Bob Key?

I emailed him.

2. When he met you, who was present, and were notes taken?

There was just me and the Dean and his wife present. His wife took the notes. She has not long before that been sitting with the Churchwarden and his wife at an event and asked them why I wasn't sitting with them. There is a lot more to say here but I am sorry I cannot say it now.

3. When did you first contact the Bishop at the time, and what action did he take?

I contacted the Bishop after the Dean made it quite clear to me and another person that he intended to obstruct the complaint.

The Bishop, Bishop's office and safeguarding officer took no action, and this was the start of the safeguarding officer criticizing and blaming me and upholding the opinions of the people who supported the churchwarden, and this left me really ill and went on for years, leaving me destroyed.

4. Did you meet with any Bishop at any time? Who was present? Were notes taken?

The only time I met with the Bishop was too late in 2010, I had already been utterly destroyed, and a token meeting was set up by Jane Fisher against my wishes, to meet her safeguarding legislation requirements, unfortunately the whole thing was a totally sick setup, especially as I had made a formal complaint against Fisher.

I am sorry but this question makes me too sick and distressed to continue to answer. It is pure wickedness what they did with this meeting and lied about in the Korris report. After this meeting Jane Fisher had a free rein to destroy me completely.

Again, I can't say any more on this without collapsing. It makes me sick.

5. What do you think should happen if a complaint of a safeguarding nature is made about a churchwarden?

I think if anyone needs to make a complaint, they must make it directly to the police, and ignore the church who are incapable of safeguarding and usually exclude and harm the complainant in the church while protecting the abuser.

Treat abuse as a crime, the Church don't, but anyone who witnesses or experiences abuse should.

Abuse is almost a perk of the job in Church and has been for a long time, with outraged letters in the papers in response to recent clergy arrests, saying that the abuser who ruined lives is a good man and the police should be imprisoning immigrants and not 'a good man who made mistakes in his 20s and who doesn't'.

6. When arrested, were you going to Reg's Garden? Did you like Reg? Do you like his garden?

Yes, how did you know that? I was due to help with a charity event, yes I loved Reg's garden, I loved the birds, I remember being told their names and which ones could speak or which ones liked to escape or bite!

7. What do you think about Reg's Garden closing?

That's a shame, it will never be forgotten. It was a venue for so many good things, including Songs of Praise for the Romania charity. I always enjoyed that.

8. When arrested, do you think you were fairly assessed by the doctor for aspergers?

I am not sure I understand the question, I don't remember much except the police jeering and brutalizing me, and they claimed in court to have psychologically assessed me but how did they do that if I was unconscious?

9. Who told you to accept being bound over for three years?

Don't ask me about court stuff because I neither heard nor understood anything about it, all I knew is that my abuser and his supporter, the Dean, had triumphed and Jane Fisher and the Bishop had actively helped them. I do not and never will, understand the police and court stuff, only that I was treated like dirt and left so severely traumatized that I nearly didn't survive, only going on the run on the streets saved my life and I remain deeply deeply traumatized.

I was told what to plead, I understood nothing.

That destroyal of me was Jane Fisher's greatest triumph in 'unsafeguarding' when my name was in the paper and my abuser and his supporter were in their warm homes, happily sharing the news with their friends and family to discredit me.

10. Did they explain that it would mean leaving Jersey?

I don't know. 

11. Was any help given to you when you left Jersey?

No, Jane Fisher launched a full on onslaught slandering me to churches, homeless services and my old friends in my home town of Winchester, she destroyed me openly and callously in order to protect her and the Bishop's reputation, and I cannot describe to you how horrifying it was to be publicly crucified in my home town after being destroyed and imprisoned in Jersey, I have never met anyone as evil and callous as Fisher, and to make it worse she pretended to do it out of care, and then had me brutalized in front of my fellow homeless and imprisoned again for reacting to her harassment and slander of me round Winchester.

12. Do you think the church will practice proper safeguarding despite saying so?

No mate, you have gotta be joking, they don't know what the word means.

I am sorry but I can't write any more in case I suffer a collapse, thank you for the interview but it has invoked horrifying memories.

Jane Fisher, Gavin Ashenden, this list is exhaustive

SOJP and my friend Buster Few-Miffs

I have heard so many lies and accusations about this that it has been on my mind to speak, I was under the full force of the Jane Fisher-Tim Dakin-Bob Hill and Julie Wallman attack when SOJP pretended they wanted to investigate the churchwarden again and after the horrific way they have treated me and the respect with which they treated my abuser, I wrote this:

sojp abuse victim bashing scheme

*********** *******@gmail.com



09/10/2013

to d.mcgee


Dear Mr mcGee,


I believe you emailed me, I am not sure if you are even a real officer.


Your email was titled 'States of Jersey Police investigation' or similar.


As usual the police have completely ignored or overriden the fact that I have said not to contact me and that, if you are referring to *****, there is no inquiry.


You will be welcome to contact me about anything as soon as Dame Steel is withdrawn from harming me and as soon as it is published just what records of mine she and Philip Bailhache and others have been able to access illegally and despite me forbidding such access in Steels case. Especially as my records with your force are proven inaccurate and I have been brutalized by your officers repeatedly.


Until then, don't contact me, and remember, you know and I know that there isn't a just or fair judge in Jersey and that a reopening of the ***** case, as I presume that is what you are making contact about, would simply be an exercise in clearing him through a judicial system that offers no justice nor impartiality. There is no reason to drag me into this, and your force destroyed me for ***** and his friends, so your contact with me is traumatic and absolutely unnecessary.


I am allowed, if you try to force me to give evidence in your exercise in clearing an old boy, to produce a letter which says I am not fit to give evidence, which is the truth, I am deeply traumatized and this whole charade by dame steel and aggressive destroyal of me by the diocese of Winchester on top of what they have done previously, means that I am in a very distressed state and not fit to be dragged into court again as witness or as a scapegoat as I was previously.

Basically, why bring me into this at all? you can clear ***** for Bailhache and the rest without me being contacted or involved.

I never opened your email, I fished it out of spam, put it in the police complaint file and used the hover to get your email address.


The way the diocese have launched aggressively back into my life and used the police to harm me again is terrible, for me, the damage is done and some of it will never heal, but I have moved on and you and the diocese are dragging me back into this, even though Jane Fisher, who destroyed me used whine on and on and on about things being in the past to try to shut me up.

end: 

links:   http://www.opnlttr.com/letter/statement-world-about-what-really-happened-me-november-2013

Another former Queen's chaplain jailed for abuse

I may be wrong but I am pretty sure this is the second one recently?

What strikes me here is Paul Butler isn't frothing emptily about sorrow, grief and all the other emotions that fat old men in palaces are not capable of feeling.

Article:  http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/uk-news/queens-former-chaplain-jailed-terrifying-6133351

By the way, did you spot what Diocese this was in? :)

Third interview with HG

Yes, we are starting to chat a bit about Jersey in this one.

 Do you like ironing?

No! Anyone who regularly reads my daily blog knows I am obsessive about housework, but ironing is a job I avoid. And most of my clothes are simple non-iron, while my bedding is soft Jersey non-iron, like the bedding I had when I lived in Jersey! :) I love soft clothes and linens and I do very little ironing. I am happy with cleaning ovens and toilets, but I hate ironing. However, I can iron. 
Favourite activity in Jersey? What was it, who did you do it with?

Spoilt for choice with this question!  I had many  favourites, I had a great time on the tall ships, loved all the sailing, enjoyed karate and football, rock climbing, photography, basically the favourites are endless. But I can't really say on here who I did these activities with, as I do not want to cause any problems.

 How did you get about to places in Jersey?

Mainly I drove, I did do a bit of walking, running and even cycling, but not enough. In my last days in Jersey I had no car and was walking, or rather hobbling, because unnoticed, various issues with my walking had worsened and I didn't know what they were or why. Do you like old fashioned hymns? What is your favourite old fashioned hymn?

I used to enjoy some of the old fashioned hymns a lot, and would often listen to them or sing them, but due to the trauma I associate with Church, I don't really find them easy to listen to any more. I like 'Thine Be the Glory' and 'Amazing Grace' and a few others. I rarely hear or think about hymns any more, because I associate church so much with hurt and flashbacks. Do you like modern hymns? What is your favourite modern hymn?

I like some modern hymns, like most people, I have hymns I like and dislike, and again, I have the same issue of trauma that hymns can trigger, I like 'All to Jesus I surrender' and 'Shine Jesus Shine' and a number of others. Have you every seen people fainting at a church service as part of the service? Yes, I remember it being set up as a kind of show, the people laying on hands manipulate people to fall over, it still scares the hell out of me to recall the amount and depth of manipulation and some of the damage it does to vulnerable people. I suffered other kinds of deep psychological damage in such services and 'healing sessions' and know others who have been put at risk this way. I even had someone making a series of direct complaints to me about being harmed by such things in a church in Jersey, because the horrendous handling of my case meant s/he didn't dare to complain to the Dean or Diocese!!!

Which Jersey Churches did you visit (ie. see)?

Now the questions get harder, I try to remember and my mind goes terrified and blank. I will start by saying I always intended to visit St. Saviours Parish church for the historical side of things, but never got around to it. I did manage to visit the chapel at Hogue Bie a few times when I went to be enthusiastic about the archeology side of things there, awesome!  And the story about the sunlight at sunrise? Am I remembering right?

I think I visited most of the parish churches and also some of the Methodist churches, the big Methodist church in St. Helier is quite impressive, and of course the glass church, and although I often heard tourists muttering dissapointedly about the glass church, I did like the glass angels and how light the church was.

I can't remember the name of the closed church that sometimes had concerts but it always seemed such a shame it was closed, I remember the concerts there, maybe I will talk about that another time though.

The Town Church, of course, but I didn't find it very inspiring and the atmosphere itself there is not good, without even anyone being there.

And I seem to recall concerts at a little Methodist chapel in St. Aubin, and then of course the Fisherman's chapel, I think I went there even before I lived in Jersey, so peaceful there, a good place to light candles and pray.

So I got a good and interesting look at churches in Jersey, but always regrettably never managed to stop at St. Saviours Church, even when I went to the Parish Hall, I think it was a question of nowhere to park and I was always in a hurry.

 Which Jersey Churches did you attend (not the same question)?

You are so mean, I don't remember a thing, next question please! 

Churches I attended, it may sound like a lot, but I found churches in Jersey very hard, especially when I was being slandered and shunned, but not just that, they are not like mainland churches and some of the leanings frightened me, so I didn't settle comfortably in a church, especially not when I was being insulted, shunned or attacked for reporting abuse.

I attended St. Andrews church, that was a core church that I attended, and they did joint services with St. matthews sometimes, but didn't do their own evening service, so I would go to the evening service at St. Matthews, great music!, and in the beginning when I lived near St. Lawrence church and was working on Sundays, I would go to early morning communion at St. Lawrence before work, it was so peaceful there.

I also sometimes went to early communion at St Ouens church on the way to work, and later attended a few other services there.

I recall attending a 'longest night service just before Christmas and that was at one of the Churches in the East of the Island and I went to evening  college with the Vicar's wife, that fact is not widely advertised by the church, because of course the Vicar's wife there cannot claim I was mad and bad and trashed the classroom. Haha, I am digressing.

Of course, in the early days, the churchwarden and his wife used to drag me to spend the evening with their little circle of friends at the Town Church, I found it all very boring and it was extremely extremely cliquey there, snooty is a harsh word but not out of place. Anyway, I mustn't get negative.

I attended St. Clements church for a while.

I also briefly attended St. Brelades church.

And was also kindly invited to attend an evangelical church, and I did visit them, another invitation was to a Methodist chapel, very kind, and also a Baptist church, who treated me terribly when they heard from the church of england.

I was also kindly invited to, and helped by, the Catholics in Jersey, who not only helped to strengthen my failing faith, but inspired me to later renounce the Church of England and become a Catholic.

I don't really want to remember any more, the way I was slandered round the churches in Jersey is inexcusible, it is a whole Island of churches completely forgetting Jesus' teachings and example, and to actually repeat that slander back to me and attack me in public, there are some very shameless and soulless people in Jersey (and the Diocese of Winchester).

An open letter to Bishop Paul Butler

What Butler fails to recognize in all his loud empty noise is that while the Cofe is the playground of old freemasons with a lot of money, and closing ranks occurs, he may as well just send out open invites to paedophiles rather than wasting his noisebox on safeguarding pretences. 


Dear Bishop Butler,

Following my phone calls, I thought I would write to make sure that you understand fully how much distress you are causing by your lies about safeguarding.

While the situation remains that you are protecting and supporting my abuser, Jane Fisher to remain in safeguarding positions in the church, as well as remaining a church reader, after her misconduct, which even her whitewash cover-up, the Korris report, cannot completely cover up, and while complaints against her have been made to the police and safeguarding bodies as a result of her continuing to harass me, and while she has caused other safeguarding failures even while stitching me up, and while the Church have been notified very clearly that the Korris report was an invalid report and the Steel report is a conflicted whitewash that is leaving me in fear of my life but no redaction or apology has been made, you need to stop lying to the press and media about the Church of England's commitment to safeguarding, and actually take action regarding the Diocese of Winchester. You need to stop misusing the word 'independent' and you need to ensure an independent report by non-conflicted people who have no connection to the Church of England, a report that includes me this time, unlike your other whitewashes that are not credible as they have not been independent and have omitted me and vilified me to the general public and been illegal and a breach of the data protection act.

The church have had me branded, imprisoned, destroyed, left homeless, and their answer to all that was to publicly vilify me internationally in the press as a PR stunt, with no thought for my welfare and safety whatsoever. So I think your crowing and strutting in the press should stop now, until you have apologized, redacted the defamation of me, and recompensed me, although no recompense in the world will take away what you have done to me.

Can you explain how you consider that things have changed in the church when there has been no true investigation into what happened to me, but a huge amount of PR showing off,  lies and slander and defamation and illegal activities with regards confidential information and breaches of the data protection act.

Can you explain what has changed in safeguarding when in 2013 I was destroyed by the lies and whitewashes launched into the press and there has as yet been no apology and no redaction, and instead I am living in fear of the report engineered by the Jersey Deanery?

Can you explain why, if you and the church are committed to safeguarding, why Bishop Dakin and Jane Fisher. the perpatrators of this massive attack on a vulnerable adult, nearly killing her, and putting her in danger of attacks with no defence due to the police record and slander of her, are still in their positions? don't you think you should take time out from lying in the press in order to deal with this?

Do you think leaving someone branded, shamed, ruined and broken and waiting to be killed by another round of defamation and lies in the press and internationally is good safeguarding? If that is your understanding of safeguarding then it is time for you to resign./

treat me as a human being, and you and your colleagues act as if I simply 'deserve this ongoing destroyal, then you shouldn't be in your job.

It is time that a major outside investigation got past your lies and flannel and misleading of the public and press and shone a light onto the rotten old Church of England system of duplicity and cover up.

I would like to know how, if Jane Fisher had been successful in killing me as she nearly did, the Church’s so-called safeguarding reports years later would have made any difference, with me dead and totally out of the picture, as opposed to how things are now,m me alive but destroyed and still challenging this evil of being left defamed and destroyed while my abusers remain in church positions, protected and upheld by the church, and in the case of one of them, still accessing vulnerable individuals from Jersey’s town church, where he is upheld and supported by the same group of States-judiciary-church-lawyers who ensured that the Dean of Jersey was cleared.

Can you explain why you and the other Church officers and Bishops have not responded to me in any way or form about the whole situation of the way the church have repeatedly and lastingly destroyed me, gone on harassing me and vilifying me and giving their blessing to those who also harass me, for example, you taking part in a church times article that vilified me and very deliberately upheld my abuser?

And worse.

Until you have answers and until you stop treating me as if ‘I deserve to wait to be destroyed by a conflicted whitewash’ because ‘from what you have heard’ from people who vilify me to cover up for themselves, then you have absolutely no understanding of what abuse victims go through and absolutely no right to talk about safeguarding, because in upholding Fisher, Dakin, Key and others, you completely invalidate your position and the words you speak.

Please stop spitting on Jesus by your nonsense in the press and refusal to safeguard me or deal with the Diocese of Winchester’s harassment of me.

The Church’s continued silence on this matter and allowing me to continue to suffer the shock and distress of press releases that defame me and clear wrongdoers while I wait to be destroyed by the Steel whitewash is a very very serious safeguarding issue and shows your complete and utter contempt for safeguarding, integrity and an abuse survivor who you have branded and crucified just as your predecessors, the Pharisees did to Jesus. As long as this matter goes on, the Church of England has no place in society and is breaching the trade descriptions act by claiming to be a Christian church. Or don’t you bother to claim that any more, is it just known as ‘extra socials outside of the lodge?’

On the subject of Steel, are you the conflicted so-called 'safeguarding expert' viewing the Steel report? And if so, are you aware that you are conflicted by your support of Fisher and your support of the Diocese and Deanery in destroying me? And if so, as you are not independent and have not asked for my side of things and have not ensured that I am included in any reports, and thus you have profoundly failed in safeguarding, isn't it time you shredded the whitewash reports and resigned? Also, you need to declare, if you are in any way involved, that you were Bishop of Southampton, and knew the Montagues and I met you with them, that day when Juliet got Fred to drive me to SOuthampton? If you are involved in Safeguarding then you will be aware that the hundreds upon hundreds of omissions and distortions invalidate the reports by the Diocese of WInchester and are very very bad safeguarding to say the least!

Please read the series of letters after my signature, and if you do not like clicking on links, then go to http://www.opnlttr.com/ and go to the ‘Philosophy’ section and you will find the letters there, hopefully including this one.

Sincerely,

HG

 http://www.opnlttr.com/letter/second-letter-questions-dioceses-winchester-and-canterbury

http://opnlttr.com/letter/letter-questions-dioceses-winchester-and-canterbury

http://opnlttr.com/letter/open-letter-jan-korris-church-england-counsellor-and-author-korris-report

http://opnlttr.com/letter/letter-jerseys-external-affairs-minister-sir-philip-bailhache

http://opnlttr.com/letter/letter-jersey-deanery-15-october-2013

http://opnlttr.com/letter/open-letter-bishop-paul-butler-and-macsas

http://opnlttr.com/letter/i-woke-and-wrote-bishop-morning

http://opnlttr.com/letter/archbishop-canterbury

http://opnlttr.com/letter/letter-jane-fisher-and-bishop-tim-dakin-0

http://opnlttr.com/letter/second-open-letter-bishop-winchester

http://opnlttr.com/letter/1st-open-letter-bishop-winchester-0

http://opnlttr.com/letter/open-letter-very-reverend-bob-key-dean-jersey

http://opnlttr.com/letter/jane-fisher-safeguarding-director-winchester-diocese

The general election

The general election increasingly reminds me of something.

Fat old men making empty and duplicious speeches, arguing in the spotlight, trying to outdo each other?

The Diocese of Winchester and Deanery of Jersey war! :)

Ah, maybe the Diocese and Deanery were having a general election!

Evil? Or misguided?

For example, did Bailhache know, that I was egged on to do certain things and was told that they were legal, for example writing notices and sticking them to St. Andrews church or the churchwarden's house or re-directing spammers to spam the churchwarden, I was told that these were legal and that the churchwarden's unrepentance and arrogance deserved them, however I never did some other suggestions, such as weedkilling the churchwarden's garden or even worse suggestions.

The notices on the church were designed to help the church who had closed ranks against me in support of the churchwarden, to understand my side of things.
It is incredible that even then, at that late stage, I still thought that the church were Christians.

The notices and letters I wrote and stuck on the church and house were mainly not dated, and I have no doubt that the deanery have abused that, because they claim that the reason the Dean saw the churchwarden first was because I was harassing the churchwarden.
No, the churchwarden and his wife were slandering me to the church they had segregated me in, and throughout the church community where they were prominent figures, this made me an outcast in a small island community and left me deeply hurt, and more so when Jane Fisher covered up by denying that it ever happened. I was answering back to what the churchwarden was doing. And had the Dean received both complaints, it would still not have made sense for him to deal with both at the same time and also it didn't make sense that he saw the churchwarden first, as the chruchwarden was a known offender, who had been allowed to take me in, be alone with me even in the church and even when people witnessed inappropriate behaviour.

The churchwarden had deliberately separated me from the church coming between me and other friendly church members, telling them that I was his responsibility and they were to keep their distance. I still didn't know at the time that this is exactly what abusers do.

And worse, this is also what some abusers do. While I was with the churchwarden, as I deteriorated, he and his wife told other people of my distress, in their own terms, to get sympathy, making my distress out to be my disability and not my reaction to what was going on.

Philip Bailhache makes the situation out to be a happy family one, but it was never that.
The churchwarden for some reason wanted a daughter, he didn't pay any attention to his infant grandaughter, he wanted a daughter, and his wife didn't, she made that clear and said so, and called me a burden, I had already been belittled so much by people in the church of england who have no understanding of poverty, disability or vulnerability.

The damage to me was not just sexual abuse by psychological abuse, being told I was 'daughter' but kept from the rest of the family, and left out of family occasions, belittled by the churchwarden's wife and regressed to childhood by the churchwarden and made to talk about rape and other sexual things while he touched me or sat me on his knees.
Then I spoke up, and had Juliet Montague phoning me up, trying to tell me it was my problem because I went to the churchwarden's workplace - she failed to also mention that I always did so at his request, or in the end, when I wanted him to face and resolve what had been going on. And again, that is typical church of england closing ranks, and if the press ever actually heard the extent of this closing ranks, which is not mentioned in ANY report, then it would make a story.


Obviously neither Bailhache nor the Dean nor the former Bishop and his wife, nor Jane Fisher, and certainly not Juliet Montague, understand abuse and it's effects, they have focussed only on blaming and smearing me, covering up and omitting my side from any investigation, and none of what you read above, is included in the Steel report, so how can the report be anything other than a whitewash.  Back to Juliet, her denial of abuse and defence of wrongdoers was consistent through the time I knew her, she made her step-daughter out to be a liar, although that girl could not have ended up in the shocking state she did without being abused, and she defended Malcolm Eastlake at my expense, making me out to be as bad as him, a paedophile, for being on the autistic spectrum, the depths of church of England ignorance and outright wrongdoing is astounding, but it is all blithely axplained away in the Korris report at my expense, so what is the point of these reports? They show, to those who know, that the church is in the dark ages, and to those whop do not know or who are as ignorant as the church, the church is making the impression of caring and doing the right thing.

And as I say, time and time again, what happens to the voiceless, who cannot write as I do? Well they don't get deported in their pyjamas and then slandered and driven from their home town, destitute and branded for life, but they also never get heard by the church or get justice, the only victims I know who have been heard in the media and through speaking out as I do, are Theresa Cooper and Eli Ward, who are both scarred for life by the abuse they suffered and the injustice they faced from the church as a result.

The Dean's recent behaviour in demanding publication of the report does not show a man with a clean conscience, it shows a man who has got his own way in hijacking a report and is smug about it, he calls Dame Steel a 'respected Jersey Judge', well she isn't respected except by her close colleagues Bridget Shaw, the wife of the Rector of St. Clements, and Philip and William Bailhache and Michael Birt, all part of the Dean's church and circle, and the fact that they are in judiciary and in the church doesn't mean that they are good or honest, and in this day and age, people should know that.

So, what of my abuser now? Last I heard, he nd his wife had invited a female visitor from the Town Church home, as he know attends the Town Church and was applying to be warden there, I wasn't his first female guest, and I wouldn't be the last, of course, but he is well established and looked after by Bob Key's church, while Bob Key demands his report, and not a single member of the church will forgive what I did as the result of trauma, but instead try to blanket defame and shame me for their version of my past.
Isn't it time the church started taking my story instead of upholding this? Ah, but Jane Fisher openly upheld it, blamed me for an attack on me by a Jersey priest, based on 'what he had heard' from St. Andrews, and tried to do the same as the Dean and Deanery in lumping my past, or their version, and upheld them in it.

This is what Bailhache refers to as me 'Making complaints in Guernsey and Hampshire' Which I didn't, Jill and George Lihou are the parents in law of the priest who attacked me on grounds of 'what he had heard' and Jill and George are church members who lived in Hampshire but moved to Guernsey, they made my life hell and I never made a complaint about them, ever, the Jersey Deanery, with the help of the priest who attacked me, brought them into the Jersey matter while I was still in Jersey, to strengthen the case for the churchwarden who they were defending, and to take away my credibility, basically what has happened in the last few years with the Jersey Deanery slandering and libelling me is only what was happening in Jersey when I was there, and if you think of it that way, then you can see how neither Fisher nor Korris were credible in rubbishing my distress as paranoia.

On the subject of Fisher, when this matter is properly investigated, which both Fisher and the Deanery hope has been permenantly prevented, someone needs to ask Fisher which 'Jersey Politician' she was boasting about meeting with about me: Bailhache? LeMarquand? Or numerous other conflicted church-states-judiciary-freemasons?

The fact remains that I was not just 'punished' for reacting to the terrible damage to me in Jersey, I was destroyed, and Jane Fisher and Scott-Joynt went all-out to destroy me again when I returned to Winchester, not a scrap of integrity or compassion, they publicly, in front of my old friends, in my home town, destroyed me, and I nearly died, but I saved my own life, and remain crippled, and then the church have destroyed me over again.

The Church of England, as well as being without safeguarding, without care, and without understanding, are without forgiveness, and have spent two years destroying me again and making me live in fear, now how much more wrong than my traumatized actions, are theirs, from their places of power and wealth and stability, when they have never suffered abuse and do not know in the slightest or care, about the ongoing damage done to me? How can I forgive myself? When I am publicly flogged indefinitely, for reacting to years of harm by the church? This matter  isn't hurting a single other person, no one else has even been or seemingly even will be, disciplined, reprimanded, or even enlightened to my side of things.

What I have written and what I can write, and even the 20 hours of tape recordings, does not tell the full story, and so I am waiting for an inquiry that includes me.

HG

Wake up in the morning and write to remind the Bishop...

Dear Bishop Dakin,

You have stolen two years of my life for a public character assination of me.

You owe me recompense for that.

You also owe a duty of care in stopping this endless living in fear.

You either put me in contact with these legal and safeguarding experts who are supposedly looking at your whitewash report, so that I can tell my story,

or you stop claiming that these people are looking at the report, and scrub the report, so that the attacks on me by the Jersey Deanery and BBC, which I hold YOU responsible for, stop.

You are breaching my human rights by making me ilive in fear and under repeated attacks without warning in the press, and Jane Fisher has repeatedly breached my human rights by her illegal actions in Jersey and Winchester and beyond, violating me over and over through services and churches that she needed to get her and Scott-Joynt's side accross to in order to cover up, and vilify me.

The damage is for life for me, and you are directly and seriously harming my health by keeping your charade up about the Steel report when you know damn well it is not a fair and balanced report, you have not done a safeguarding investigation, you have done an un-safeguarding investigation.

Your Steel rubbish makes no difference to Jersey, and it has done only one thing, destroyed me and left me voiceless, my complaints have not been investigated.

The Korris rubbish was the same. I cannot imagine why Paul Butler makes such a huge fuss in the press about safeguarding, when the church of england do not know what safeguarding is.

Safeguarding is not segregating, punishing and destroying abuse victims and furthering slander of them by abusers, wrongdoers and supporters of abusers and wrongdoers, and that is all you have done.

Meanwhile you are employing an abuser as a safeguarding director, a woman who deliberately went all-out to destroy me and cover up for her wrongdoing, the former Bishop's wrongdoing and makes sure that a glaring miscarriage of justice in Jersey was covered up by her report, known as the Korris report but better titled the Fisher report.

The damage you did to me by that report remains, and you have not apologized.

You didn't remove that whitewash report until I took you to court.

Tell me, how long are you going to make me sit here suffering you and suffering ill health as a result? I think I asked you that about a year ago, and still no answer, you have lied to a court of law in the meantime.

There is no excuse to call your public character assassination of me 'Safeguarding', you have had me attacked by strangers as a result of your utterly sadistic and mindless launch of my case into the worldwide press and then the U-turn into defaming me by association when you let the Dean off because you had no right to suspend him, and no power against his powerful circle.

That assassination of me has continued without stop. And yet you claimed to apologize to me for the last lot of miscarriage of justice, you made a show of apology in the press, only to go and do the same again to me only much much worse, as this time, it has been spewed all over the press and media, and you have given everyone the impression that the Dean is innocent and thus you have basically upheld and supported the Jersey Deanery in their smear campaign against me, is that safeguarding? No, you just, on a much bigger scale, did what Jane Fisher and Scott-Joynt did to me, crucified me because you had no power in Jersey.

And you are entirely to blame for publicly suspending the Dean when you had no power to do so.

You received my complaint against Jane Fisher, and you are aware that even the Korris rubbish manages to slip some of her misconduct in, and of course the truncated material mentioned  was done by Fisher to ensure she was in the clear and I looked mad, well of course, the same as was done with the police, with no explaination to the police that Fisher and Scott-Joynt were provoking me.

So, why, since I have repeatedly let you know about this, has Fisher not been suspended, not been disciplined, why has my complaint not been answered, and why when you made such a fuss about Jersey, has Fisher's illegal and seriously distressing and damaging actions since Jersey, not been investigated.

The Korris report is written from Jane Fisher's notes, Jane Fisher has done wrong. Why has nothin g been done about this if you 'care about safeguarding' and, to be honest, why was my case the only one launched in the press with the Korris lies and smears? You haven't publicly crucified a single other victim this way.

We could simply re-write the Korris scenario over again. 'I have asked the Archbishop and BBC Jersey for help' But had no adequate response.

I have asked the Archbishop. Paul liestoprotectthechurch-Butler, Elizabeth Hall, John Gladwin and Christine Daly (who made false promises, lied at a token meeting, and supported the Jersey side), I have asked the press, the Press complaints commission, the national safeguarding boards, the police, the official solicitor, the public guardian, the queen, the courts, your solicitors, I have asked Trevor Willmott (Juliet Montagues former lover, according to her), I have asked every diocese in the country, I have asked the Queen, the Home Secretary, 10 Downing Steet, MPs, lawyers, bloggers, I have asked everyone to protect me from you and your repeat of the destroyal of me in Jersey, and just as it fell on deaf ears then, it has fallen on deaf ears now.

So, tell me, what was your boast, and what is the church's boast? You are commited to safeguarding, you are taking safeguarding seriously?

No, not while you are killing me and making me live in fear and under stress. If I suffer an asthma attack over any of your whitewash reports or commit suicide, which is highly unlikely, you will be responsible for my death, because you are fully and completely aware of how you are harming me, you have been told enough times. 

And you have been told that your reports, which degrade me, defame me and do not equate to safeguarding investigations or anything to do with my case and integrity, do not include me or my views.

So every time you claim that you have 'experts' working on these reports when you allow me to be attacked in the press, you do not ring true.

No expert can work on reports to make them viable when the reports completely exclude the person they are supposedly about.

And how would these experts make any difference when they, as you too, have never met me?!

Although you have lied and mislead people by claiming to have personally apologized to me, which you have not.

The only 'apologies' were flannel in the press to make you look good. The church under Welby, have developed a system of duplicity where they love to say sorry and claim to be 'humbled' or 'admit to mistakes' when they don'[t give a damn any more than they ever have.

Just as in the government, abuse is a perk of the job in the church, that is the only reason the very tiny minority of vulnerable are allowed to attend church.

I recall going into a  church in the winchester diocese, a small church, all the congregation were ancient, and they all turned and openly stared at me, because I was in my 20s and had been invited by the Vicar.

Those old people pay the church to keep running, blindly thinking it is a christian church, and they do not have a clue about vulnerable and abuse, and so they let someone like Bishop Dakin remain, and they believe what they are told about people like me.

If there was only an abjudcator who spoke up and said 'The Church of England cannot continue' and said it with authority. Because the press releases, the duplicity, the wealth, the showing off, the showing off at my expense and leaving me suffering, this is not Christianity, Welby, Dakin and Key and Butler need to do as Jesus said and sell their wealth and go out on the streets and tend the poor, not show off in articles about 'helping out at nursing homes! The Church of England do what the pharisees did and not what Jesus did or taught, and when Dakin goes home to his palace after a photo shoot at a nursing home to show of and for PR, the overworked carers go back to the real work and with no publicity, most of the carers are poor, migrants, minimum wage. 

The Church of England do only as the pharisees do, and have judged and condemned me, and still nothing has been done about Dakin, who traced me through the police, violating me, and the threatened me for begging to continue my life without further illegal intervention, he threatened me with court action that he didn't have my side of, he came after me with the police and press, violating me, for a PR stunt, and threatened me, and cleared the Dean, and has waged war on me ever since, by allowing the Jersey Deanery and their supporters to be heard in inquiries and press, and allowed me to be smeared and defamed by the same.

When exactly does this petty cowardly destroyal of me by the church end?