Saturday, 2 September 2017

Every day, waiting to die, because of what the church have done to me

Every day that I endure living after what the church have done, 
and wait for the next attack. 
This poem has a number of possible authors and is not my work:

The ship

The storm has been raging for so long now
Pouring rain, crashing thunder, howling wind
Beating down on this lonely ship
Searching for a place to call home
There was a time; it seems so long ago
The sun shone brightly in the clear blue sky
Looking up from the bow into forever
A gentle breeze, cotton candy clouds
But the storm slowly moved in
A few scattered showers and thunderstorms
Days of downpour, flashes of lightning
With shelter so hard to find
Rainbows still shone, beacons of hope
In the unlikeliest places
Vibrant against a backdrop of gray
A glimpse at the best of times
As the years passed by
The storms changed, getting worse
Getting better, and fading away
But they'd left their mark
A vessel is forever changed
When touched that way
And although you can rebuild
The damage has been done
Horrible storms had been forecast
For the not so distant future
But they wouldn't hit this ship
Not again, no more damage would be done
The ship will be protected now
Lost no more, tossed about no longer
Safe in a harbor to forever call home

Monday, 24 July 2017

Welby Letter 2017


Dear Archbishop Justin Welby,

I am writing to remind you that there has been no investigation into what happened to me in Jersey and Winchester, and that because you have not carried out an investigation and instead have run a public smear campaign against me that included conflicted judges, police and other people in dual roles in Church and dignitary or power positions accessing already illegally influenced records, you have left more than one criminal wrongdoer in a position to harm others, and you have left me destroyed. And worst, you have shown very open bias, repeatedly meeting with the conflicted wrongdoers and upholding them, having never met with me. Do you think an Archbishop should behave like that?

No, especially not an archbishop who keeps shouting about safeguarding, an archbishop should be neutral and not interfere to uphold abusers, and it is shocking that you claim that things have changed since George Carey upheld Peter Ball, because all you have done is exactly the same as George Carey did, he, like you, believed that the victims could not possibly be right, because a 'Godly man' like Ball, could not do such things, and you believe that a 'Godly man' such as Bob Key, could not do such things, and you believe so on a million pounds of conflicted whitewash that didn't include the victim, and on your 'personal meetings' with the Jersey Deanery's conflicted dignitaries, having never met the victim, so you have left the Keys, Philip Bailhache, and Ian LeMarquand, in positions to offend again, and you have left your victim destroyed, having never contacted her, even in response to correspondence, and having never heard her story.

You firmly believe that police influenced by conflicted members of the States, Judiciary and Deanery of Jersey are right, and incredibly, after having my publicly destroyed and nearly killed, you thought your failed and disgraced national safeguarding team would pick up the pieces if I wasn't killed by you publicly destroying me.

I am still waiting for an investigation into my case, a balanced one that includes my side of things both on the abuses and cover-ups in the church and their dangerous attitude to the vulnerable from when I was 19 to the present day, and into your and Tim Dakin's public attempted murder of me and falsehoods with the help of your lawyers, PR and communication teams while I had no such support or protection.
But while the Church remains corrupt and lawless and unwilling to be held to account and not held to account by any body, and with integral lawyers, police, judiciary and other agencies, there is as yet no sign of the Church being held to account and made to safeguard.

And all of this while you continue to lie through your teeth about safeguarding in the church, especially when a victim tells the press and media how badly they have been treated by the church over abuse - you then trot out empty lines about how good safeguarding is, how much you care, and now you are actually advertising the openly complicit and failed National Safeguarding Team to this beautiful lie, even though victims are telling you and the press that the national safeguarding team are harmful, complicit, unpleasant and simply not acting upon abuse and cover-up, they are acting to protect you and the senior Bishops who continue the Peter Ball and George Carey tradition of cover-up on behalf of themselves and the dignitaries such as those in Jersey who you destroyed me for.

You have done to me what Carey did to Ball's victims, but incredibly you used the Ball report to strut and crow, as you do, with your fake safeguarding lies. Satan is a liar and the father of lies, and you are his most prized servant, your beautiful duplicity is incredibly, and I hope that you are asked to step down soon for the damage that you have done, indeed I pray so.

Peter Hancock who failed to act upon me being destroyed in my community of Winchester and who employed the dangerous liar Bob Key in an evangelism position after Bob Key had me destroyed repeatedly with the Church's blessing, with your blessing, is conflicted, unsuitable to be in a safeguarding position, and should stand aside to ensure that justice is done. And you should make sure that Bob Key is removed from the evangelism positions until there has been an investigation both into his harm to me and into the recent three year smear campaign against me and cover-up of the wrongdoing at my expense. Each day that goes by while I suffer and that man and his wife pose a danger to the vulnerable with your blessing is a massive safeguarding failure for which the church while have to account.

You appear to be having great difficulty understanding both why what you have done against me is wrong and why safeguarding in the church of england remains non-existant despite your boasts and PR stunts and use of complicit agencies to try to uphold and condone the non-existant safeguarding.
My case, in it's full and horrific glory, is the last word in safeguarding in the church, a decade of destroying, branding and nearly killing a vulnerable adult for the sake of the church's image, treating her like an animal and then claiming that safeguarding is good, having never even recorded her side of things. Then using the complicit national safeguarding team to try to pick up the pieces. Horrifying.

You need to act and put things right, or stop falsely using God's Name, and the Church of England needs to be supervised from the outside with urgency and immediacy.

JJ, the victim of the million pound Jersey and Winchester whitewash

Thursday, 20 July 2017

Vital News

Please listen to BBC Radio 2 at 9am tomorrow morning.

It is about the Church of England and the main reason why they shit on victims and pretend to care about safeguarding.

Photo published for Victoria Derbyshire - BBC TwoVictoria Derbyshire will be interviewing several abuse survivors regarding the Church of England and their conflicted insurers.

Wednesday, 12 July 2017

Here's a few facts

No amount of prayers by people who have harmed me will either change their harm to me nor change me.
I am sure other survivors know how church idiots try to manipulate us through prayer.

What the Church have done does not go away through their cover-ups and denials.

Graham Tilby 'telling them off behind closed doors' is not an acceptable response to their wrongdoing, anyone involved in harm to victims and the vulnerable should be removed, or the church isn't safeguarding, if Tilby doesn't remove them, and even, in Bob Key's case, allows them to continue in positions where they can harm the vulnerable, there is no safeguarding.

The Church are taking too long to comprehend all this.

Sunday, 9 July 2017

Safeguarding in the Church of England

29/05/2017      CC Tilby, Butler, SCIE, IICSA, Murray, Venables

Dear Graham Tilby,

I am writing again regarding my extreme concern over the Church of England's very poor, indeed non-existent, safeguarding, and the harm to me which you seem unable to address. I do not feel that I have a future or will survive or want to survive what I have experienced and I am suffering, but I would like to see things change before I die. I would also like, and have asked, for the Church of England to pay for my attendance at Dignitas to make my suffering shorter as I have been publicly and utterly destroyed by the Church's terrible safeguarding stunt gone wrong, the Jersey and Winchester whitewash.

You allowed me to be publicly destroyed, and incredibly tried to tell me that this was none of your business and you had no control over it. Allowing a vulnerable adult to be driven to suicide by public discrediting and smears is your business, it is a safeguarding issue, and if you didn't understand that, then you should have realised this and resigned, not gone on badgering me for a meeting as you do with vulnerable people - this is a grave concern of mine, instead of safeguarding, your job and your colleague's job is to force meetings on unwitting vulnerable people, making them feel that they are being listened to and something will be done, to meet Church targets and legislation and insurance needs rather than any care or concern.

This is wrong, especially if you badger someone into a meeting as you tried to with me, with all those emails full of fake warmth and sympathy for show after allowing and aiding my public discrediting. You have psychologically injured me and when you didn't get your meeting and I continued to complain about the open and glaring safeguarding failure of me being publicly destroyed and discredited, you battened down the hatches and have refused to act upon the massive safeguarding failure of which you were part and condoned. 

I am speaking up for the voiceless vulnerable and not just me, I don't know how many vulnerable people have been bullied into meetings to close their complaints down and meet insurance needs but it must stop, and you must address my case as I have been left suffering and knowing that you and Moira Murray condone my suffering and uphold the wrongdoers in my case, who all still have access to the vulnerable and pose a risk to them and have not been dealt with,

I know from the things that you said on the phone that you did not know what had happened to me and you were not interested, you upheld Gladwin and his upholding of the Jersey Deanery with the help of a conflicted Jersey advocate, you upheld Elaine Rose's illegal interference in the whitewash Jersey Safeguarding Partnership report that was set up between Jane Fisher and the police as part of the mutual absolving of wrong partnership that they had been running since 2008, and you tried to excuse what had happened to me in being publicly destroyed instead of addressing it. Not good safeguarding.

 You didn't get your meeting as you and Jane Dodds were unable to explain why you so urgently needed to meet me or why it was 'for my welfare' when you had watched and even taken part as I was publicly destroyed, after ignoring my anguished pleas for help for seven months and only contacting me during my public destruction by the Church, and for their sake and not mine, to tick boxes and close the matter down.

The Church of England do not safeguard, and while you have been part of this atrocity and have decided to stay in your positions while ignoring my distress because you were 'advised' to, thus further branding and shaming me, the Church of England can't safeguard. No matter what denials and condonement of wrongdoers you have made, the fact that you are still in your positions and refusing to respond properly to my distress and leaving me carrying the burden of the Church's wrongdoing, you are not safeguarding, you are covering up, you are condoning horrifying misconduct by senior clergy such as the Archbishop and Bishops, and while you do that, nothing has changed in Church of England safeguarding. And you should be ashamed of yourself for being part of this and leaving me falling under the intolerable weight of injustice and the blame for all of the wrongdoing that I have suffered and reacted to.

The whole of my adult life has been affected by abuse and prejudice in the Church of England and the most appalling lack of safeguarding possible, for which I have been made to blame. And for more than a year you have, by your actions and attitude to me, rammed that blame down my throat, you have taken advice from wrongdoers with the Church's interests at heart and not mine, and have made my suffering worse, as did your colleage Jane Dodds, who before she finished moonlighting as safeguarding caseworker for the Church of England and returned to her real job, inflicted the worst distress possible on me by upholding the church of england and their wrongdoing to me, excusing them and telling me that she and you 'wanted to make my life how it was before'. I cry when I remember such an awful crass thing being said to me after I had been unhealably destroyed.

And then after you and Dodds had finished chewing me up, upholding the harm to me and trying to badger me into a meeting, you didn't get what you wanted so instead of calling an independent inquiry - which you did discuss in order to try to get me into that meeting that you badger alleged victims into - you decided you would do nothing and leave me destroyed and suffering unhealably, you decided to ignore my calls and letters asking for my case to be referred outside the Church to an independent agency who would not be biased as you were against me on advice given to you and a one-sided Church of England version of my case. You and Jane Dodd's replacement have ignored my distress and in the case of Moira Murray, Jane's replacement, putting the phone down on me is the solution.

 There is no safeguarding in the Church of England and you and Dodds and Murray failed me and refused to refer my case outside of the church once you decided you wouldn't engage with me as you would not get your meeting. To make things worse, despite you knowing (or not knowing the true picture) of the police being used against me persistently and one-sidedly by the church to try to silence me, doing lasting damage, I have had the police on my doorstep ruining my life, another part of the new safeguarding failure routine, hound the church's victims with unsolicited and harmful efforts by the police to try to get victim statements, the same police who beat and imprisoned me for the church for years. 

I am not accepting the church trying to force me to be a sexual abuse victim and not a victim of very severe and enduring misconduct of which you have been part, condoned, upheld and excused, leading to lasting damage to me. My distress and pain will never be gone, and I have asked the Church who have destroyed me beyond healing to pay for my attendance at Dignitas, it would be the first humane treatment they have ever offered me if and when they agree. You haven't safeguarded me, you have failed me on the advice of misadvisers and a 'case file' that you boasted that doesn't include my story and you have upheld wrongdoers at my expense. You should step down, what happens to the voiceless vulnerable?

I believe that SCIE should make a freedom of information request, as should I, and look at that 'case file' and both they and I are entitled to copies of all the whitewash reports into my case. Unless the Church willingly provides those reports, something is very wrong with Church of England Safeguarding. Well something is very wrong with Church of England Safeguarding, but Paul Butler and Justin Welby, with no conscience or remorse for destroying me and leaving dangerous people such as Bob and Daphne Key in positions where they can access the vulnerable, intend to go on using safeguarding as a falsehood and a vainglorious boast for the Church of England in the public spotlight.

Bob and Daphne Key and other people involved in the harm to me remain a risk to the vulnerable and that is the clearest indication possible of your bias and unwillingness to safeguarding properly because you uphold and endorse harm to me and blame me, as you did in everything you and Jane Dodds did and said regarding the matter. You have behaved atrociously in pushing the blame onto me after failing to even contact me until asked to do so by the people who had harmed me, for their benefit.

It was clear that you didn't want to meet me to take my account of things or act upon it, as you would have already been acting swiftly against the wrongdoers had you been in any way willing to act, and one meeting would not resolve anything. I am horrified that you have tried to badger me into the meeting that you badger and bully vulnerable survivors into, without doing anything about the harm to me, and ignoring my cries for help before you contacted me on behalf of the wrongdoers, you wanted to meet me for the Church's benefit and not mine, and when I challenged you and your open repeating back to me of the mis-advice you had been given about how to respond to my distress when you provoked it with your crass mishandling of your part in the cover-up, you dropped me like hot coals. You horrify me, you have played a part in destroying me, you have upheld wrongdoers and you appear to think that this is acceptable and that the Church are protected while I will suffer until I die. Apparently, to you, that is safeguarding.

Would you please do as asked for a year and refer my case to a safeguarding body outside of the Church of England, make sure that they contact me instead of whitewashing my case over again, and then it really will be best if you and Moira Murray take stock of your terrible attitude to me and the damage you have done in protecting the wrongdoers in my case and upholding them while I have been publicly destroyed, and you should both step down and go to jobs where you will not be insulting victims by blaming them and their distress and upholding wrongdoers.

And don't forget the request for me to attend Dignitas. If you really think that I am worse than abusers or Bishops and Deans who destroy the vulnerable, if you really think that I should go on carrying the vicious branding that the Church have inflicted on me through police, press and other authorities, I don't want to live. I don't want to live in a world where people like you uphold evil from an organization which still stupidly and emptily uses the Name of Jesus' for limitless abuse of power and destruction of the vulnerable. 

I don't want to live enduring Justin Welby's lies in the press and media when my destruction is the reason he shouldn't be there to lie any more, but no authority stands up to the corrupt and Godless Church of England, you are even having a fake safeguarding audit done, one in which my case is carefully airbrushed out, lied about, so that the Child abuse inquiry's strategic delay for Welby's sake can be used for the PR campaign over the fake audit presumably.
I don't want to live in the same world as the church of england and their use of the word 'safeguarding' to mean self-glorification and cover up, while I suffer and suffer with no relief and no way that there very can be relief because you uphold what has happened to me, you condone it, and you blame and shame me for my distress.

Let me know when you are willing to deal with the wrongdoers and abusers in my case and take away the burden of shame and branding that I carry. Let me know when you and Moira Murray are willing to fulfil your title and record my story and redact the public discrediting of me by the Archbishop and Bishops and apologize for your failure to contact me until they demanded it on their behalf. Let me know when you stop taking mis-advice that puts the blame on me and when you are willing to record my side of things. If you can't do any of this, step down because you are not safeguarding, you are taking part in harm and abuse of a vulnerable adult. Probably more than one.
Finally, remember to 'advise' your church that reaction to sustained harm by the Church is not a 'mental illness' whereby the victim can be discredited. Advise yourself this as well.

JJ/HG        - Victim of the massive Jersey and Winchester safeguarding stunt, smear campaign, whitewash and discrediting

Produced by other brave survivors who see what I see in the Church's deceit and cover-up

A few letters from the Premier Blitz Weekend/ #synod

07/07/2017  To the Bishop of Winchester, CC Safeguarding Director Jackie Rowlands, the National Safeguarding Team , the Archbishop of Canterbury and Hampshire Constabulary

Dear Bishop Tim Dakin,

I am writing to remind you that you have left me publicly destroyed from a three year smear campaign that ended last year with you publicly destroying and discrediting me but failing to tell the general public the reason you had to discredit me, that I had take  you to court over the conflicted whitewash attack on me created by the conflicted Dame Heather Steel.

The depth of illegal activity and misconduct that you and your associated clergy and laity have committed is serious, severe, no other organization except the lawless church of england would get away with such atrocities and not be closed down with multiple arrests. And what really concerns me is that the church are behaving in this illegal and dangerous way at the same time as running schools and having charge of little children. I am sure that you can appreciate how severe the safeguarding risk is.

I would also like to point out that getting your staff or safeguarding director to put the phone down on me when I phone to remind you that this matter isn't resolved and I am suffering is not making the matter go away. Although I do understand from recent articles by other survivors that this is now church of england policy right up to the National Safeguarding Team who are doing the same to survivors, as you may have seen from my blog and Mark's blog where these articles and interviews by survivors are printed.

There needs to be a report into what I have suffered in the Diocese of Winchester from 2001 onwards and also a very serious report into the harm against me that you have led since 2013. This is also a complaint that you are still not safeguarding and have a collusive safeguarding director who thinks that putting the phone down on me and ignoring my emailed and written complaints will make them go away. Nothing will make this go away, it just makes your staff and safeguarding director guilty of cover-up and aiding and abbetting your crimes.

 I may die as Peter Ball's victim did, but hopefully in an arranged suicide at Dignitas, but what I have said as you destroyed me and since you destroyed me will never go away, no matter how much of congregants money you fraudulently use on PR or lawyers, and no matter how much you instruct your staff and they obey, to block me, ignore me or put the phone down on me - what that equates to is you trying to make the reality of your wrongdoing go away. Peter Ball was protected by George Carey just as you have been protected by Justin Welby. Anyone involved is guilty and putting the phone down so that what I say isn't heard is not making it go away.

Justin Welby and John Sentamu are extremely guilty for protecting you and allowing your unchecked harm to continue, as is every person I have contacted who are afraid to act against the Church. But that doesn't make the harm go away, those men who have protected you are as guilty as you, for allowing you, indeed in Justin Welby's case, aiding you in unhealably destroying me and almost causing my suicide.

Sincerely, your victim, JJ#


Dear Archbishop John Sentamu,

I wrote to you a few years ago regarding the way I was being destroyed by the Bishop of Winchester.
Unfortunately, dissapointingly, you failed completely in your duty of care and in safeguarding me and allowed the Bishop to go right on destroying me, with the support and assistance of the Archbishop of Canterbury, and I was nearly killed as a result and have been left utterly destroyed, suffering anguish and trauma and in severe distress. I have no support or help due to the abuses of power, and I would like you to take responsibility for your failings.

I enclose  5 reports and 2 books relating to my case, and they are only part of the story, I live in poverty, I can't afford to send you any more at the moment. If the parcel has been opened by your staff and the books are missing, you must retrieve them as eventually this matter will be investigated and you can't plead ignorance.

The reports are HG Jersey Safeguarding Report, Very Cuttings, The Hill Report, The Fisher Report, Safeguarding Team Audit, and the books are The Rogue to Canterbury and Destruction. This is also a formal complaint about DR Daphne Green, your disgraced Safeguarding Director. It doesn't matter what status or title a church safeguarding officer is, if they degrade and rubbish victims and do not act, and in my case she has rubbished me and failed to act, so you need to deal with her.

When I rang your offices a few years ago, Daphne was initially friendly but demanded the gory details of the abuse rather than addressing the real issue of the massive safeguarding failure, she was lecherous and lavscious and not bothered about leaving me in tears, maybe she is in the job for the purpose of sexual need rather than safeguarding.

But then she was 'advised' about me, through the church's internal slander and self-protection machine, and she rubbished me. At the time I was in collapse over the November 2015 attack on me over the Steel report, which led to Bob Hill's collapse, and Daphne Green's behaviour to me and denial, and claim that you had done everything you could about the Bishop of Winchester was inappropriate and insulting, that was the end of her career in safeguarding or would have been if the church was any normal and ethical organization.

Neither you nor Daphne Green dealt with the Bishop, you left me suffering and being destroyed, and that is evidenced, so this is a formal complaint. Would you please kindly do your duty regarding this matter, and it is your duty, as the Archbishop of Canterbury is a rudderless noise machine and the matter was referred to you as he has no capability whatseoever to address any serious matters or hold the church accountable, you took the matter but failed to act, and the damage to me as a result is your responsibility and now, belatedly, you must do something about it as well as replacing your disgraced safeguarding officer who thinks slandering and believing slander is an alternative to safeguarding.

No lessons have been learned from the Peter Ball case, his victims were slandered and discredited and one of them is dead, I also nearly died, slandered and shamed, but now you must act.

JJ/HG - victim of the million pound Winchester and Jersey cover-up

Saturday, 8 July 2017

I need to share this with you urgently

As well as schools, this is what the Church of England's fake safeguarding campaign is all about!

I knew this, but no proper response is being made by Ecclesiastical.

Have a read of this link below, it is vital, thanks Cathy.

#synod A letter to Peter Hancock regarding Peter Ball and Safeguarding

A letter to Bishop Peter Hancock Regarding his unsuitability as Safeguarding Representative for the Church of England while he has upheld and employed a criminal abuser

Dear Peter Hancock,

When I saw you using the Peter Ball case to preen yourself and masturbate your ego in public, I had no idea that you had taken over from Paul Butler in the public preening and misleading over safeguarding position, and when I found out, I was horrified, because there has been no justice in my case, and you have been part of the injustice, in employing the man who had me destroyed for his abuser friend.

You employed Bob Key according to these articles below, and there was this disgusting show for a man who has committed very serious and criminal wrongs which destroyed a lone vulnerable adult while he was supported and upheld in this both by the Church of England and the States of Jersey. Up to a million pounds is estimated to have been spent on the whitewash reports that ignored his victim's story. And as yet the injustice remains, and as his victim, I am suffering beyond relief. A man who destroyed a vulnerable adult for his abuser friend cannot be involved in evangelism as he is a risk to the vulnerable as well as not being a servant of Christ, he can't bring anyone to a God who he hates and has contempt for, and no-one who upholds such a man is a servant of Christ.

The man who destroyed me, was moved to evangelism positions where he will pose a risk to the vulnerable. And Peter Hancock, the new 'safeguarding' stuntman for the church of England has arranged this.
I hope that Moira Gibb will accordingly redact her claim that there has been improvement since the Peter Ball matter, because nothing whatsoever has changed.

Mr Key will be working with cathedrals and larger churches in the UK as part of a national prayer initiative called Thy Kingdom Come 2017.
He has also accepted an invitation from the Bishop of Bath and Wells to be part of the team taking forward that diocese’s new strategy for ‘mission and evangelism’.

While I’m sorry that Bob and Daphne will be leaving our immediate fellowship, I’m delighted that his particular gifts in evangelism will continue to be available both in the wider life of our Church in the UK and within the Diocese of Bath & Wells
- “Tricky” Trevor

States Members were informed this week that he will be taking up a new role with the ‘Archbishops’ Evangelism Task Group’, as part of a national initiative called “Thy Kingdom Come 2017.”
He’ll also be working with the Bishop of Bath and Wells on a “…new strategy for mission and evangelism.”

As safeguarding representative as well as employing this remorseless wrongdoer, you are extremely conflicted as well as unsuitable for your post, and while my case remains needing investigation, it would appear that you are going to actively stand in the way of that, as you employ and uphold the wrongoer, who poses a risk to the vulnerable, in an evangelism position where he will be a risk to the vulnerable. 

You aren't a suitable safeguarding representative as you are part of the circle who protect abusers and collude to protect the church and make sure that they aren't held accountable. Nothing has changed since Peter Ball was protected by George Carey, the same has happened over again in my case, but this time you and the Church do a shiny, empty show for the press regarding safeguarding, with no genuine intention or effort to either safeguard, or bring justice to victims.

Your and Justin Welby's protection of Bob Key and Tim Dakin and their wrongs may not be seen to be on the same serious scale of George Carey protecting Peter Ball, but it is exactly the same sort of thing, you have upheld a wrongdoer and destroyed a victim to the point of suicide. No lessons have been learned and nothing has changed, except the fake safeguarding campaign that wasn't around in Ball and Carey's day, which you and Welby and others now run.

 I understand from other victims and support groups that Paul Butler stepped down because he was as unsuitable as you for representing safeguarding and he knew it and too many others knew it, certainly his involvement in my case when he was conflicted, as you are, was inappropriate, and no Bishop can represent safeguarding, as they are, especially the corrupt core connected to the Winchester Diocese, as you and Butler are, can represent safeguarding, as they continue to have a systemic safeguarding problem.

A man who upholds a criminal abuser such as Bob Key, cannot claim to represent safeguarding. An estimated million pounds was the end total spent on lawyers and PR over the Bob Key matter, and what was that money used for? Protecting the Church's image, protecting Bob Key, Justin Welby and Tim Dakin, for their wrongdoing and dishonesty and harm to me. And what money was provided to me for equal representation over the three years that the church publicly destroyed and smeared me while claiming to care about safeguarding? Nothing, and they nearly killed me. Do you remember Paul Butler masturbating his ego over Ball's dead victim? Disgusting, but in my case, the church would have slandered me in death as they did in life.

I remain destroyed, while you employ the man who with the help of police, States and others, destroyed me, and if you don't see the problem, of employing the wrongdoer in an unresolved abuse case while you act as safeguarding representative, then there is something wrong with you, and this is not excused by the way the church have branded me as mad, bad or criminal, because that is how the church have systemically treated victims, no lessons learned, for many years. They branded Eli Ward as schitzophrenic, and former Faith Minister Eric Pickles tried to protect the church by telling Theresa Cooper that her problem was her medication.

I suffer night and day as a result of the horrific damage to me by the Church of England since I was 19, and it is at a point where there can never be justice or relief, the suffering has become my life and is not removable. Being abused repeatedly, being treated appallingly by police and NHS as a result, being publicly and utterly destroyed by the church of england, and enduring the complete refusal of the National Safeguarding Team to act on the open and lawless behaviour of the church, is too much to live with, and all of that on top of the background that I came from to end up vulnerable and abused in the church.

Most people would not survive this long with this suffering. And even if and when I do get the final signature for Dignitas, the Church remain responsible and aware of their serious and systemic failures in my case. And because no-one in my case will be convicted, because the police chose to punish me for reporting old boys with mason, magistrate and other connections, no-one ever will, and thus the Church will refuse to act upon their horrific cover-up of my case and damage to me, because apparently you need a conviction like in the Peter Ball case before you act, even if you have denied the victims so much that one of them ends up dead before they see justice and their abuser removed from church cases.

As you are conflicted and openly supporting wrongdoers, not least Bob and Daphne Key, and have shown neither interest in my side of things nor interest in good safeguarding in removing them from positions where they can harm the vulnerable, you are not suitable as safeguarding representative for the church, and you also need to make sure my case is investigated by a non-conflicted person and agency, which is what I have been asking for quite some time, but the National Safeguarding Team and the Winchester Diocesan Safeguarding representative have been advised to ignore me and put the phone down on me, thankfully I understand that this isn't just me that they do this to, you will have seen several articles published by survivors about this ongoing bad attitude to safegaurding by the Church. Including these:

It would be best if the Church want to continue creating their false illusion of safeguarding, that you step down as official peacock and jester when church abuse is discovered by the press and media, as you are no more suitable than Butler, and before you go, make sure that something is done about the atrocious way that victims are being treated and the your horrifying conflict of interests in the unresolved Jersey and Winchester matter, as although I do not want to live, I want to make sure the duplicity and injustice that you are now the prime figure in, is exposed forever no matter if I die branded, shamed and destroyed while the church condemn me and uphold my abusers.

- victim of the horrific million pound Jersey and Winchester whitewash and decades of abuse and cover-up and lack of safeguarding in the Church of England

Friday, 7 July 2017

Peter Hancock, complicit abuser protector


Message body

Dear Moira Gibb,

You definitely should never have been given Peter Hancock limelight after his part in the Jersey and Winchester coverup where he upheld an abuser.
Anyone involved in the defunct and belated PR inquiries or who give the church's fake safeguarding stuntmen limelight, harm the victims who are still suffering.
The Peter Ball case was one where the church were forced to act. And all you did was tell a story already known, and give the new Paul Butler, Peter Hancock, limelight to continue Paul Butler's duplicity, Peter Hancock has been actively involved in the million pound Jersey and Winchester cover-up, and shows no intention of acting regarding the horrific injustice.

I guess that after the huge ego-masturbation by Justin Welby and Peter Hancock over your report, the church intend to continue as normal, they force meetings with the national safeguarding team on victims for insurance purposes and continue to be as abusive and dishonest as they always have been. 

Your report should not praise the current situation of Welby, Hancock, Butler and the rest of the tight and collusive clique, because the only thing that has changed is that the church are credibly getting away with a massive massive falsehood, and my case is a repeat of the very same cover-up, collusion and lies that protected Ball, you appearing with Peter Hancock when he has been involved in protecting wrongdoers in my case is a very grave injury to me. Think of the victims when you produce unqualified claims such as that the church has changed or is doing better, it isn't doing better, they destroyed me, nearly drove me to suicide and both Paul Butler and Peter Hancock, the safeguarding stuntmen, have been involved and are complicit in this.

There is no improvement under Peter Hancock, who is as complicit in my case as Paul Butler was, in safeguarding in the church of england. The press and media facilitated lies and fake apologies and the protection of wrongdoers continue. Bob Key, who had me destroyed, imprisoned left homeless and publicly smeared for three years, has been upheld publicly by Justin Welby and Peter Hancock, and they consider him fit to hold positions where he will have acess to the vulnerable, while the million pound whitewash of my case remains and my side has not been recorded.

As someone who claimed that the church are doing better, would you please make a statement qualifying that, or redact it and hold the church to account for their massive scale harm to me, of which your report being used for PR falsehoods is part? I am left suffering and voiceless while these corrupt, duplicitous and collusive men do exactly the same as occured in the Peter Ball case, they have destroyed me and left me voiceless and suicidal for the sake of the church's image, and as in the Peter Ball case, they are protecting abusers, and you, having received this and previous concerns when you were seen posing with Hancock in the PR falsehood stunt, are doing the same.

The church have been doing a fake safeguarding audit with the help of SCIE, to keep rubbing it in the victims' faces while nothing changes. The depth and severity of the criminal actions of the church in my case remain unchallenged, even by the police. The church have openly and unrelentingly broken the law in publicly destroying me. And Peter Hancock has yet to contact me to explain what he is to do about this while he is harbouring and upholding a man who has done very serious wrong to me with the church's blessing.

#synod @bathwellsbish Bishop of Bath and Wells employed the dishonest Dean involved in the million pound abuse cover-up, good safeguarding?



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Mr Key will be working with cathedrals and larger churches in the UK as part of a national prayer initiative called Thy Kingdom Come 2017.
He has also accepted an invitation from the Bishop of Bath and Wells to be part of the team taking forward that diocese’s new strategy for ‘mission and evangelism’.
While I’m sorry that Bob and Daphne will be leaving our immediate fellowship, I’m delighted that his particular gifts in evangelism will continue to be available both in the wider life of our Church in the UK and within the Diocese of Bath & Wells
- “Tricky” Trevor
States Members were informed this week that he will be taking up a new role with the ‘Archbishops’ Evangelism Task Group’, as part of a national initiative called “Thy Kingdom Come 2017.”
He’ll also be working with the Bishop of Bath and Wells on a “…new strategy for mission and evangelism.”

The Sun's Vicar Headlines

Did you see the Sun having a field day on that dishonest clergyman, using their usual baby language, they had it as headlines, I don't think the Daily Mail did, but I found the Daily Mail version.

Normally I wouldn't indulge the rag papers using something like this to sell papers or as scandal but I just wanted to point something out.

The Church of England have a secret apartheide policy against the vulnerable. for insurance purposes, to protect the clergy and to protect the vulnerable. They treat the vulnerable as a liability and a risk. 
But they do not have a matching policy to protect the vulnerable against their clergy.

Tuesday, 4 July 2017

Ian Gorst and Jersey Care Inquiry

Dear Ian Gorst,

Your 50,000 of tax payers ,money on PR training must have been well spent, for you to offer a 'personal' apology to victims when you have been involved in exactly the same wrongdoing and appear unable to admit that during your PR apology.
Remember your persistent and criminal efforts against a vulnerable adult in order to protect States and Church Dignitaries? That remains unresolved and not accounted for. It needs outside investigation.
So did your little speech really have to cost £50,000 of tax payers money?

Make sure something is done about the million pound Winchester and Jersey cover-up at the expense of one lone and destroyed victim whose story remains unheard. You have taken so much time on your PR training that you seem to have forgotten to resign over the matter, not least because you personally tried to force the release of the whitewash Steel report and you personally had the victim bullied and trolled over the States personal whitewash by the failed and disgraced safeguarding partnership. You had no right to abuse your position to have a voiceless vulnerable adult destroyed with her side of things unheard, not least because as Chief Minister and dubiously a 'Christian' you were obliged to be impartial, instead you acted as badly and as conflictedly as you could.

Now that you have done your £50,000 speech at taxpayers' expense, maybe you can arrange the inquiry into Church, States and Police severe misconduct from 2008 onwards and of course especially from 2013-2016, not forgetting the severe abuse of the vulnerable adult by press and media and the states from their positions, and the inaction of yourself or the safeguardijng partnership to stop this. Because just as the systemic abuse and corruption in Jersey didn't go away and still remains a problem, not least under your unstable and corrupted leadership, the matter of the million pound public destruction of a lone vulnerable adult also isn't going to go away.

Any National or International Press ready to interview the victim instead of continuing the complicit silence, she is willing to be interviewed, and I don't think Ian Gorst's £50,000 of tax payers money on PR will ever wash the stain from him and his inter-conflicted corrupt States-Judiciary-Police-Church members.

And because Gorst, Bailhache and others have broken the law in their efforts, and so have the hopelessly corrupt and brutal States of Jersey Police,  but all consider themselves to be above the law, this needs to be a criminal investigation, and must be investigated by an outside police force as well as a neutral judge.
 You are responsible for allowing an openly conflicted judge to illegally act in the matter, Dame Steel's connections to the wrongdoers in this are open and evidenced and you were shown that evidence, as if you didn't already know, and yet you allowed her to continue to terrorize her victim and act illegally for the States and Church, and you even used tax payers money on a PR stunt trip to the UK to try to force the release of the Steel report, leading to further hate attacks against the victim, who you have never met, and the end result of that was the collapse of former Deputy Bob Hill as he tried to counter the hate attacks against the lone, destroyed and voiceless vulnerable adult. The blood on your hands, nearly two lives lost for the sake of cover-up, doesn't seem to affect your attendance at church, because you won't take responsibility for yourself, and this all the £50,000 apologies and fake care for the abuse victims, is worthless, and is your ticket to hell, if you really believe in God rather than being one of the group who go to church for show and status and to be fawned upon, which is the usual thing.

And remember, as well as the persistent and unashamed failings of Jersey safeguarding partnership over the years, which despite being published, have not led to improvement, they also were involved in criminal activity against your victim, at your behest, nearly killing her. The formal complaint against this remains unanswered and un-investigated, so your 'apology' is of no worth to anyone, especially not if that is all £50,000 of tax payers money spent on PR brings.Make sure your own personal victim, the victim of your conflicts of interests and place in the church and among the corrupt clique, receives justice and a full investigation into the actions of church, states, judiciary, press and media, and last but not least the police. It isn't possible to imagine that you go to church on Sunday for any reason except to be seen, and the same goes for the horrifically corrupt and callous men in your clique in the States.

I attach some of the reports waiting to be used in the inquiry into the horrific callous, open and utter destruction of a lone vulnerable adult to cover up for wrongdoing and protect the image of the church and states. Make sure justice is brought to this matter, no matter what your 'prejudices', and you don't need to spend so much money on covering up and PR this time.

Remember, there are 23 other reports waiting, as well as the ones attached, and the wrongdoing hasn't gone away just because of your unchristian illegal and deviant behaviour. The matter isn't closed, and will not be closed, until the whole matter is investigated by unbiased individuals and bodies who will have to ask you and your clique why you knowingly allowed a conflicted and biased associate of yours to hijack and whitewash the token investigations by the diocese of Winchester which were, incidentally to glorify themselves and cover their backs rather than any genuine wish for justice. And why you allowed illegal actions by the inter-conflicted parties to continue for three years without any thought for your victim's welfare.
Your apology means nothing while the Jersey Way marches on and lives remain at risk and your victim is destroyed. Make sure your victim is heard on an equal footing with the people who have smeared and discredited her, including yourself, and if you don't, your work and life and 'christianity' are worth nothing at all, if you allow a vulnerable adult to be destroyed voiceless, you would allow your own children to be destroyed voiceless and that is all that your life, work and ministry are worth.

What has happened in the States-led atrocity of the million pound Jersey and Winchester whitewash is an indication that nothing has changed, and you can whitter 'apologies' in much the same empty and PR-led way that the church do, but if you do not change things, starting with this massive injustice, your PR apologies make no difference, Jersey is still a corrupt mess, headed by a useless two-faced man who recently faced a vote of no confidence and in a panic he tried to save himself by sacking his right-hand man who he had determinedly tried to save from justice before. Horrifying isn't it, Ian Gorst, what you have done and got away with. So make sure outside investigation occurs, and have the grace to step down.

Finally, Jersey is obviously unable to function without proper supervision and outside audits, so before you step down, you should discuss this with the States and make sure that an outside governor and suitable facilities for the persistent wrongdoings in Jersey and the persistent need for the UK to keep investigating Jersey are looked into.  But straight away, Jersey Safeguarding Partnership's actions should be dealt with and they should be replaced, and you should dismiss Philip Bailhache just as you dismissed your other comrade, and this time not to save your sorry skin but because you were presented evidence of his criminal wrongdoing a few years back and refused to act, except to promote him to External Affairs Minister despite the nature of his wrongdoing. Time to stop following your PR script and start acting. No apology for PR makes any difference whatsoever when you are involved in and upholding wrongdoing and harm, the same thing has been said to the Church of England's National Safeguarding Team, who openly said that what has happened is wrong but that  they daren't stand up to you and your corrupt circle, not that they are anything but corrupt and employed to protect the church from victims. Horrifying, More horrifying if any victim hearing your apology believes you are genuine and not completely two-faced.

The only reason you have pretended to care about victims or apologize is because you like your cushy job and all expenses paid trips all over the world with the pretence that a tiny island with no trade or status, which can't run it's own affairs, needs you to visit exotic locations and pay you to, while when you can be bothered to come home to Jersey you are there because you allow the corruption and wrongdoing that caused decades of harm to children and the vulnerable, and still is doing.

Your £50,000 of taxpayers money for PR lessons when your right-hand crook grumbled about the costs both of the child abuse inquiry and the Jersey and Winchester whitewash, is a very poor financial judgement, and a waste of money, I can see through your duplicity, so can others. Image is more important to you and your corrupt clique than genuine apology, repentance or even justice, you couldn't stop the care inquiry so you did your best with sabotage, PR and pretend care. It is small wonder that Jersey has to be run and investigated by the UK, while the corruption and abuse and lack of safeguarding remains and you and your comrades are using your positions to enjoy free and needless travel round the world at taxpayers' expense. 

Time for Change. Goodbye Gorst, find a more suitable position and Jersey may have a chance of being a better, more productive place, with a better quality of life for those who belong there.


JJ - victim of the horrific current corruption and open wrongdoing in the inter-conflicted unregulated and uncontrolled States, police, church and judiciary in Jersey